I really can not stand to hear or see women referred to as sluts, whores, or any related such terms. Perhaps their is some of the taking the term and making it your own thing. I am just tired of seeing a womans sexuality challenged. Well let me rephrase that. I dont want it condemned. I dont want to see a womans sexuality with any negative connotations. Can I say I am somewhat biased? I would say I am very biased. I worship women and sexuality. That does not mean what I say is wrong. I wouldnt have to say it if it wasnt for the sick, disgusting world we live in. If it wasnt for the profane treatment of women and their sexuality, well this world would be better. Yeah Christianity but it is all over the place. I am just tired of everything and everyone. The extent of the flaws in every aspect of every culture, society, everything. It is all hopeless. The people who think they can fix it are all nothing but nuts who think riding the high horse of blind extremes will solve the problem. For some reason real thinking becomes ever more criminal. At least I get to sit back and watch it all collapse on them. Their is nothing more beautiful than watching the fall of someone blinded by their own ideals. I told you so isnt really very fun. I hate to see any of this. I want to help but it is no use. I want to just go away. Perhaps come back after it has all been destroyed. I want to see it done naturally. People live with far to much arrogance in this honestly false ridiculous world. You will go extinct. All of this is temporary. Our population is excessive. Everything that will give us a genuine future you will declare evil. You have made your choice. I just want to go away and not have to watch it any more. It would be easy to say no one wants me here. More accurately I am not for everyone. In spite of myself I attract people and they are just enthralled by me. Which are the only people I care about. If you care about me I will give everything I have for you. If you are really special and I fall in love with you, I will always be in love with you. If you need my help I will give, I will listen, I will always be there. That is why I live. I live for those who love and need me. Sometimes it is hard to not want to sabotage the love and happiness I fight so hard to grow and keep. With no one to care I am free to hide away. I used to not know anyone who had been raped, abused or molested. Now I know so many. People I care about. People I love. People I could not save. It is hard to keep my promises. I want to punish the filth who touched them. I want to destroy everyone who would commit a crime against sexuality and defile a woman. You do not have as much value as a female does. You are weaker and clearly unnecessary. It makes hurt. It makes me feel sick. Someday they will feel the real consequences. My ideal society (at least at this point in human development), the way I would live, is considered wrong. Minimal crime, no sex crimes, no racism, none of this. I am just as loving as I am brutal. Balance, thought, manners, consideration, you know being a gentleman. I will fight forever for all that I love. I will watch the rest of you eat yourselves. You made your choice. This is the world you created for yourselves. I am going to make my own for those I love and perhaps for those who need it. I know there are people who need a safe place. Sometimes I am willing to believe it when it is suggested that I may be here to save lost souls. Everyones values are corrupt and faulty. Even the people out their who are sure their values are not corrupt and faulty. Even the most enlightened people I have eve met are still essentially following what they were given and accepting this world as the truth. No one fights against anything that isnt merely superficial. Then they crow about their victories of the the most superficial things in their superficial fight. Guess what you scrape the dead skin off your arm, your arm is still their. Fuck the environment, you just want to save yourself. Yeah we need to be saved. Just dont lie. Everyone lies to themselves. Enlightenment is realizing the truth inside you. You scrape everything off the surface of the earth, the earth is still here. We do not matter. Life will continue. Life will rise again. Maybe if intellect rises again it wont be so stupid, selfish and short sighted. Intellect is not needed or inevitable. Humanity has gotten lucky again and again. We barely made it this far and everyone wants to waste it. Yeah most people dont matter. They are just a mass. They did not propel us from being victims in the African sun to being the only species to effectively insulate itself from the forces of evolution. Your life is tenuous. It really is a gift, to you as an individual. Either you as an individual make the most of it or not. The most important thing is the life of our species. We have the chance to create our future, our future incarnations. Humanities future is in the hands and imaginations of those who will lead us their. The average man did not get us here. The rare and extraordinary walked into the future and dragged along everyone else. It can never be like it was. The more I learn of history the more the present makes me sad and the future makes me sick. Expectations are being lowered. Values are being diminished. Evolution is not inevitable. Extinction is inevitable. Hell extinction is readily iminent. If I can save the ones I love I will. I accept my fate. I accept what life brings. It isnt even worth watching everyones beleifs collapse.
I officially hate Microsoft. Someone needs to topple them. Bill gates needs to be raped in prison.
I officially hate Microsoft. Someone needs to topple them. Bill gates needs to be raped in prison.
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Thanks for the comments, as for my life, I do my best. I never have a set idea of what I deserve..