i've noticed that even though my blog is infrequent, i do it a lot more often than other people. Fuck. Yesterday I Got completely hammered drunk on Tequila and Coke. Shitty Ass day at work, customers and employees alike were posessed by bad mood. I only worked a measly hours but the vibe was so bad my ex's condemned spirit entered me and I was...
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more pics today. beautiful weather. but sundays in utah sucks. great riffs being composed though. very very happy.
Yeah...the weather is nicer, i found a couple of bars to hang out, two bands to see every week, two days off per week, have my savings account, my direct deposit, my fourty hour work week, i just mastered one more bass playing technique, i'm getting along quite well with acoustic guitars, i got rid of crap i don't need around anymore, my room is...
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2 weeks san diego. holy crap. my ex's new boyfriend looks like he has Down Syndrome and the yellowest teeth. I feel great. should be no wonder since she like to teach special ed kids..... i've reached a point in my bass playing where now i'm pretty fucking good. i'm happy. still going paycheck t paycheck but i've been having a lot of fun discovering...
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i guess i'm leaving. the time finally came. i don't know why i'm not all happy but feel hesitant. i wish SG would quit changing formats. it pisses me off.
well, my returns are here and money is not a problem anymore so california is coming up. soon. this computer problem will be gladly fixed for 400 bucks, which i dont know if i'll do it yet. work is fine, tessa is fine and everyday i accomplish something that gets me closer to home. so close in fact i'm getting buterflies in my stomach already....
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i hate the fact that tessa smokes weed. it's so retarded. it bothers me so much. spent some time doing some research on my own about this stupid drug that my dad says destroyed his life. i couldn't find any conclusive or satisfactory evidence that weed is that bad and i don't have an argument. she doesn't find anything wrong with it, and i never...
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sixele:
So... I have heard nothing from you for a long time. Too long.. so shoot me a fucking message you bastard. 
i'm almost there.
paid the rent!!!! one day late and still ate at applebee's!? awesome. my next check in two weeks will straighten my bank account and put my cell phone bill in order before i completely downsize my plan to the cheapest possible. winter still strong and it doesn't matter where snow falls: it always falls for six months. always six months of winter. i need to...
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Tessa broke up with me. I did see that coming. it's funny how peaches and cream and fluffy pillows become a chasm of regret and hate. I'm perfectly fine. I guess I failed to be there for her. just like jessica, only 100 times worse and it didn't take 2.5 years and I'm not nearly attached to her as I am attached to Jessica. I...
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vestril:
I'm sorry to hear it chum; I guess we're in similar straits as far as love is concerned. If it makes you feel any better, I was hard hearted and distant from people for a fairly long period of time, and during that time I was the one hurting people and not getting attatched or hurt, and it sucked. I didn't think much about it at the time, because I was essentially cut off from my own emotions, but it's one of the loneliest and most pathetic time periods of my life, and I am well shut of it. I think that it is much better to keep trying to love and failing than it is to not try at all, and I say that feeling heartbroken and alone.