I wish to be underneath an angry and boiling sky.
I want to feel its wrath, with big drops of rain that tend to fall with a strange intent.
I want to be frightened in that good way
And Loved.
It seems as though I have always known her.
Since the day I was born I carried my love for her inside me.
To know...
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I want to feel its wrath, with big drops of rain that tend to fall with a strange intent.
I want to be frightened in that good way
And Loved.
It seems as though I have always known her.
Since the day I was born I carried my love for her inside me.
To know...
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Been so long since I checked in. Hop you are all doing well. I am logged in on my new laptop! It is pretty bad ass. Love it! take care everyone and have a wicked week.
Languish
Well I know who you're with tonight
And I pray that he's only a friend
Cause I'm left in the dark and I....
I can't see the light at the end
Oh you know how I feel
Yes I know that it's real
I'm left writhing in anguish
I don't know what you think
And I'm starting to sink
Will I ever escape this...
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Well I know who you're with tonight
And I pray that he's only a friend
Cause I'm left in the dark and I....
I can't see the light at the end
Oh you know how I feel
Yes I know that it's real
I'm left writhing in anguish
I don't know what you think
And I'm starting to sink
Will I ever escape this...
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londyn:
I collect scars too, I didn't think of putting that down. I usually really like one, except this huge ugly one on the back of my left hand that's really noticeable. I think I'd collect music more too if I could afford it, but I'm a bit poor 
I will pave this road with my resolve. And no one may set foot upon it. None but you. I choose you.
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londyn:
Just glanced through your blog and I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. It's so tough when people you love pass away, and funerals are always hard, I think. Or maybe that's just me. Either way, I hope you're doing okay. I also really like this little bit ^ because it's simple but it says so much...
londyn:
Hey, no worries, I know sometimes everything builds up so much and you just need to get it out to *someone*, and maybe a random internet stranger isn't so bad. It makes me sad to hear about all the loss you've experienced - that must be so overwhelming for you. Grieving for one person is hard enough, but I can't imagine your pain. *hug* I know what it's like to be stuck in a rut like a black hole, and you don't even feel like struggling anymore because it's just so easy to give up, but I hope you find a way. Therapy and medication are really helping me, but everyone's different. And I did get my tattoos (they hurt like a bitch), check out my last blog! <3<3
I have been trying to resurrect my dreams. Like so many of those that I love, I have put them in the ground. Held them to my heart, then gently put them down.
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tie:
thank you so much haha.. i really couldn't help myself and blushed when i read your comment 
i hope you have a good time over there.
i hope you have a good time over there.
mao:
thank you!!! you make me smile all day!!! like this - 
at the park
I know you feel safe with where you're at
But I can show you so much more than that
It takes a risk to chance true happiness
I wouldn't let you feel anything less
So remember scream yes and jump from here
there is no need for you to fear
i would never let you hit the ground
always endeavor to keep...
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I know you feel safe with where you're at
But I can show you so much more than that
It takes a risk to chance true happiness
I wouldn't let you feel anything less
So remember scream yes and jump from here
there is no need for you to fear
i would never let you hit the ground
always endeavor to keep...
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lanei:
thanks!
mneylu:
Im so sorry to hear about your friend. I can't imagine what you must be feeling.. are you planning a special memorial?
I touch your cold cheek to mine
But this time I cannot warm you
Look into your beautiful eyes
But they're seeing right through me
I wish to hold you this way forever
You weren't lost or some kind of fuck up
You were my friend
That is something I thought could never end
Did it mean so little to you?
That you could throw...
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But this time I cannot warm you
Look into your beautiful eyes
But they're seeing right through me
I wish to hold you this way forever
You weren't lost or some kind of fuck up
You were my friend
That is something I thought could never end
Did it mean so little to you?
That you could throw...
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roryx:
dearest ron,
I am sorry to hear about your current situation. it definitely seems unfortunate .but remember that we can only play the cards dealt to us and no one plays them for us. your friend jessica made a choice, not one many deem the correct one but you cannot be blamed for her decision. forgive her for that decision so that you can start to heal and im sure her sister just isnt sure how to deal with her grief and so is placing the blame on you.
this is all of course without actual insight to the people involved etc, but sometimes its clearer that way. /hugs!
and by the way you may have me confused with someone else. i dont know anyone from Albuquerque and my boy doesnt have a sg account. but you seem nice.
with regards,
Rory
I am sorry to hear about your current situation. it definitely seems unfortunate .but remember that we can only play the cards dealt to us and no one plays them for us. your friend jessica made a choice, not one many deem the correct one but you cannot be blamed for her decision. forgive her for that decision so that you can start to heal and im sure her sister just isnt sure how to deal with her grief and so is placing the blame on you.
this is all of course without actual insight to the people involved etc, but sometimes its clearer that way. /hugs!
and by the way you may have me confused with someone else. i dont know anyone from Albuquerque and my boy doesnt have a sg account. but you seem nice.
with regards,
Rory
bangbangbarbie:
i found a lump in my breast. but the doctor said it is not cancerous and i will be ok.
Break-Build
How can I raise my chin and walk on
When everything about me is broken?
How could you get up and walk out of my life
With hardly a word spoken?
Everything I have done in this life
Has left me with less of myself
You should know, my life's an open book
If you would only take me off the shelf
And you...
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How can I raise my chin and walk on
When everything about me is broken?
How could you get up and walk out of my life
With hardly a word spoken?
Everything I have done in this life
Has left me with less of myself
You should know, my life's an open book
If you would only take me off the shelf
And you...
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m_3:
You know, its weird, cause that list you gave me of things that you do to make you feel better, I did like half of them last night! hah. I watched Empire Strikes Back, Made a new mix CD, I started reading James Pattersons 1st to die. And I was looking forward to driving to work Blasting.
I'm going to be very honest, its super nice to meet someone else that can honestly say listening to As I Lay Dying makes them feel better.
Everything you said really put a smile on my face, thank you!
I'm going to be very honest, its super nice to meet someone else that can honestly say listening to As I Lay Dying makes them feel better.
Everything you said really put a smile on my face, thank you!
"The Burning"
Why does it always have to be so dramatic?
Won't stop hitting me with all that is tragic
Piss me off all the while smiling
Always breaking apart while still reconciling
Slit your wrists and paint me red
Give up all hopes to a thirsty dread
But it's just a fight
It's just a fight
Can't we just fuck and say it's alright!?...
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Why does it always have to be so dramatic?
Won't stop hitting me with all that is tragic
Piss me off all the while smiling
Always breaking apart while still reconciling
Slit your wrists and paint me red
Give up all hopes to a thirsty dread
But it's just a fight
It's just a fight
Can't we just fuck and say it's alright!?...
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m_3:
ahahahaha oh thats a great story! Sounds like you made that little mormans day. I surprisingly haven't noticed anyone ever catch me giving, but I mostly stick to doing it at night. I really don't think that there is nothing better than road head. lol or sex in the car. Such a thrill. Funny story of my own, my ex and I spent about two hours parked on the side of a back road leading to the local middle school messing around and not a single car came by.. Then when we were done we finally parked in the parking lot of the middle school and decided to just talk. Next thing I know we are surrounded by three police cars and he is shirtless and I don't have any pants on! I cover my lap with his shirt and the cops come to the windows and thankfully didn't notice our lack of clothes but just what we are doing and then give us a hard time for being parked in a handicap spot and for me being out past curfew while underage. We told them we didnt realize it was handicap and how sorry we were that we were just talking. They told us to leave and ended up following us back to my house. lol we ended up going back to the same spot just cause the thrill of being caught was so great. 
archie:
Awe, thanks so much. very sweet.