I gave up on that girl. It was too complicated, to far away. I did have fun tonight, though, a little karaoke and a lot of drink. The night is still young, but i think I'll go to sleep anyway.

I don't know what I should do. I have a girl that likes me, but I don't know if I like her and she's 200 miles away.

I know I don't blog very often, but I just don't have alot to say.

Waiting for the Ice Apocalypse. Drinking much and many boozes with the Hill Avenue crewe. Later Gaters.

Well I guess that I have become desperate. I have called an escort service. the girl is not here yet, so maybe there will be no payed sex.

well I am posting. I had a good time with some old friends and its good to be reminded that you are older than everyone else. sometimes I wish I could meet a girl and or woman who was into to me that was my age. I really don't think I want to date someone alot younger than me. I son't know what do you think?

Right. I've been thinking alot lately about being alone and I've come to the conclution that it's not the being alone it's the desire to be wanted. The need to be needed. Maybe that's not such a revolation, but it's is to me. I'm not sure that even though I was married for 17 years that I was ever needed. But I crave this thing now.

Well I haven't updated in while, because I really didn't have much to say. I did go to a fun party Saturday night. I have two friends that are trying to get together, but of corse(sp) there is a problem. The one friend has a boyfriend whom she is uncertain whether she should leave. I have become the go between. It is fun sometimes, but it is a dangerous thing to do with you friends. I wonder if it will work out.

Any who. nothing much going on besides that.

well i went out tonight with some friends of mine. I guess it was fun, but I can't help thinking I am missing something along the way. I am tired of gong out and getting drunk. Wish I had a girlfriend, or maybe I don't. Not sure.