Hey all.
It's Day... probably 20 or so that I've been unemployed.
I've really been trying to find a job but it just seems like no ones hiring in this city right now.
It makes me feel awful about myself... like I should've stayed at one of the places I was working at longer or I should have some form of schooling or training or something.
It really sucks. My boyfriend has to work extra hard this month to pay both shares of our rent because I'm completely broke and can't afford to borrow anymore money from my dad.
I do have a weekend job now... handing out liquor samples in the liquor store and it's extremely boring and the shifts are short but it's money, at least a little bit of money that I'll be able to use to help with the bills. I feel awful.
On top of all this I've been so mean to my boyfriend lately. I turn into psycho bitch and scream at him. I really can't help it, every little thing irritates the hell out of me and I just wish I had a job, I don't want anything else just a full time fucking job somewhere that pays decent so I can get my life back together.
I've been so depressed lately, it really feels like somedays there are no reasons to keep going. I have to try so hard to ration with myself but it feels like I'm slowly losing the battle.
Bye for now.
It's Day... probably 20 or so that I've been unemployed.
I've really been trying to find a job but it just seems like no ones hiring in this city right now.
It makes me feel awful about myself... like I should've stayed at one of the places I was working at longer or I should have some form of schooling or training or something.
It really sucks. My boyfriend has to work extra hard this month to pay both shares of our rent because I'm completely broke and can't afford to borrow anymore money from my dad.
I do have a weekend job now... handing out liquor samples in the liquor store and it's extremely boring and the shifts are short but it's money, at least a little bit of money that I'll be able to use to help with the bills. I feel awful.
On top of all this I've been so mean to my boyfriend lately. I turn into psycho bitch and scream at him. I really can't help it, every little thing irritates the hell out of me and I just wish I had a job, I don't want anything else just a full time fucking job somewhere that pays decent so I can get my life back together.
I've been so depressed lately, it really feels like somedays there are no reasons to keep going. I have to try so hard to ration with myself but it feels like I'm slowly losing the battle.
Bye for now.
hennessy:
I hope things pick up soon. I know times are hard but keep your chin up. Atleast someone is there for ya
winged1:
Hang in there Bisante! Have you been in touch with your parents about your situation, is there anything they can do to help you? I"m sure your loved ones don't want to see you slip into depression. Keep your chin up, but don't be afraid to ask for help when you need it, everyone needs a helping hand, especially when they're just starting out in adult life! Best wishes to ya.