age: 38 (Feb 06, 1974)
MEMBER SINCE: February 2005
occupation: 24/7 jack-of-all-trades, & full time student (of life)...soon to be paralegal
sign: PROCEED W/ CAUTION
i lost my virginity: twice (I think)
stats: the head bone's connected to the neck bone, the neck bone's connected to the shoulder bone....
crush: kate winslet, Sean the baseball coach... I crush you. I crush you.
heroes: anyone who goes out of their way to make life easier or more pleasant for another being
into: writing, herb gardening, my family, wicca, kickboxing, yoga, sushi, snowboarding (although I don't get out much), sitting by the lake, rock climbing, hiking
makes me sad: selfishness, dishonesty, cocaine & meth & the destruction they bring, violence, feeling alone even when i'm not, judgemental people, having to say that I'm a US citizen for the last 7 years (can' t wait 4 08)
makes me happy: my boys, wildflowers, brit com's, good art, good wine, sushi, brie & french bread, music, great sex, comfort, being held like i'm the only one in the world, being free from the lying,drug addicted, violent sonofabitch that took over my husband's body-mind-&-spirit; knowing that new positive prospects are just around the corner
gets me hot: a gentle but firm hand on the small of my back, soft full lips, a gentle touch, neck nibbles, tummy kisses, & lots of caressing, tall slender athletic guys
body mods: tongue pierced, 4 in 1 ear & 1 in the the other, celtic knot on upper back & a few small tatts in various places
Just a brief update on how wonderful my life is now....went on my date on Sat....great guy, but not too much chemistry....we have loads in common so in the least, I've made myself a friend to do stuff with up here that my other friends aren't really into (which is what I've wanted).
AND.......fate has reconnected me with a blast from the past. Through sources on my computer which will remain nameless, a picture popped up on my screen & there he was! (And I hadn't even been looking for him.) 14 fucking years since I've last seen him & he was right there in front of me. Looking even better, as if that was possible. That was two days ago....since then we've been flirting back & forth through messages & talking on the phone, and I feel that warm fuzzy feeling in places I forgot could feel that way. I'm not sure I want to get into something super serious quite yet. I wouldn't want my baggage to screw it up......but I can't explain how great it feels that we could possibly start something!
By the looks of this it sounds like my life is wonderful soley on the basis of men, which is totally untrue (even though the attention does wonders to boost the self esteem). I am truly so much happier without my ex in my life. I NEVER imagined I could or would ever feel like that, but it's like the world, which I had been carrying for years, has been lifted off of my shoulders. I literally feel lighter. I don't have to worry about the money always disappearing & not being able to pay the bills. I don't have that "fist in my stomach" feeling when I'm constantly being lied to. I don't have to tip-toe around everything worrying about any little thing that might set him off. I can be the kind of person I've missed in myself for so long....positive. I have energy to put towards the kids now. We play & I'm actually having fun with them. The whole dynamic...
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