and then there was nothing. stalking an ex boyfriend I left over a year ago. hating his new girlfriend and her averageness and ability to make him spout kind words. severed heads entire my mind dancing and smiling at me. i don't know what it all means. this doctor says you need to see this other specialist and the specialist says I need to see...
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i have realized that when I am fucked up on pain killers it is nearly impossible to write in my journal. Some of the recent entries have been so crazy, like in a different language or a jumble of words or just ink lines and smears where I fell asleep while writing. It'll be like a conherent few paragraphs followed by sudden nonsense about tap...
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boleyn:
I think a journal entry about tap dancing in a circus themed bowling alley would be fantastic!
swoodypantz:
Hello beauteous one,
Even when you are fucked up on pain killers, you are still a damn poetess
Even when you are fucked up on pain killers, you are still a damn poetess
you know, I haven't had sex in about two months now.... I don't think I've gone that long without sex since I was sixteen 
And this is also the longest I have gone without a boyfriend. Not that I am a co-dependent type of person at all; someone has just always been there. I suppose one could say that right now is "me time." In...
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And this is also the longest I have gone without a boyfriend. Not that I am a co-dependent type of person at all; someone has just always been there. I suppose one could say that right now is "me time." In... Read More
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sindred:
Enjoy that whole-bed-to-yourself to the utmost. It's one of life's most underrated pleasures, methinks.
swoodypantz:
Totally agree with Sindred's sentiment above! And when you do have it (and the sex) again, you appreciate it so much more
sorry i have been out of the sg world for a while. i'm so glad to be back, and all i must admit, I HAVE THE GREATEST FRIENDS EVER!! Thanks to everyone for missing me and for always supporting me. the past few weeks can be described in a few words: doctors, hospitals, tests, medications. Unfortunately nothing has changed when it comes to my health......
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pixxii:
welcome back 
sindred:
Hahaha...welcome back baby!
I realized something last night.... God I have missed kissing women girls ladies chics. So gentle and like reaching into the depths of femininity and sensuality. Yummy. I also realized that I have been sheltering myself from developing friendships/relationships for some time now. I'm done with that. Even if I am sick and in pain and no doctor can figure out what is wrong with...
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adonis:
thanks you guys. you put a big fat smile on my face this morning.
Fucking exboyfriends. I have no idea what my problem is that I attract the crazies. I just want a normal guy... you know, no drama no drug addictions or stealing problems or pathological liars. someone who enjoys life. someone independent. oh fuck it. i don't really want anyone. Hey I already have a few jobs lined up for after my surgery and recovery. I should...
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boleyn:
It was great seeing you again on Friday! Sorry you couldn't stay longer 
Oh, and don't even get me started on crazy ex's. I attract them too, it sucks.
Oh, and don't even get me started on crazy ex's. I attract them too, it sucks.
sindred:
Great to see what little of you I did Friday. 
I'm sorry you weren't feeling well. We'll hang out next time in a kitty-free zone.
I'm sorry you weren't feeling well. We'll hang out next time in a kitty-free zone. Got to meet up with steveneurotic, broken_princess, and Sindy666 from the SGC group yesterday. Lots of fun. Those are two beautiful gals inside and out. And Steve, well he's Steve, need I say more? I really really need to shoot a photo set. I think I've come up with an idea, but shhhh I can't tell you because it's a secret!! i'm posting...
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steveneurotic:
Yeah... i'm Steve. Hahaha. Had a fun time checking out your "equiptment" and "making music" 
Like Sindy and that broken_princess lady said though... you are extremely talented. It's beyond awesome to finally find another musician in the area.
Anyways... I suppose I should find some motivation to start getting ready for work. Bleh.
Talk to you later.
Like Sindy and that broken_princess lady said though... you are extremely talented. It's beyond awesome to finally find another musician in the area.
Anyways... I suppose I should find some motivation to start getting ready for work. Bleh.
Talk to you later.
thanks for all the happy birthdays and all. it was a good day... japanese food and cheesecake. yum. haven't been feeling so great lately, I have my appointment with the specialist who did my surgery last year Aug 9th. This will be when we decide on my next upcoming surgery. After this next surgery, I will officially be a barren woman. Good thing I wasn't...
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sindred:
Happy belated birthday. It was great meeting you! Look forward to hanging out with you again in the near future...
And I know I said it already, but you are very talented. Beautiful voice.
It was great meeting you! Look forward to hanging out with you again in the near future...
And I know I said it already, but you are very talented. Beautiful voice.
boleyn:
Great meeting you today! And I gotta agree with Ms. Sindy on your voice, incredibly beautiful
those of you in concord/charlotte surrounding areas need to message me. I am in severe need of hanging out with new, fun people. drinks and smokes and good conversation. having just moved back here, i have forgotten what the fuck there is to do around here. someone needs to take me under his or her wing
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ontothenext:
Happy Birthday!!!
zenlunatic:
happy birthday......
The move is complete. My room is beautiful! I am excited to have a nice little nest all to myself. The colors I have chosen for my room are chocolate, red (spice), and burnt orange. I really love decorating, and I think maybe I should pursue a career as an interior decorator. who knows what I will do. but for now I am practicing relaxation...
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steveneurotic:
Glad the move went well and that you're in good spirits again. Now get down to Charlotte and party with us!
shirleydanger:
i second that...let's party.
i have moved from greensboro back home to concord with the parents. shit was getting out of hand with the boyfriend (now ex-boyfriend) and finances. Since I can't work now, the best idea was to come home and eliminate the costs of living alone. I have a wonderful room in the basement all to myself. My own entrance and driveway separate from the main house....
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afterbirth:
I don't think I have either.
You're lucky to have such a great fall-back start-over place to go!
What kind of music do you do?
You're lucky to have such a great fall-back start-over place to go!
What kind of music do you do?
greasabillyjon:
good for you... its always good to get a new start. good luck with that. 
So my man bought me a rabbit. Not a real rabbit, you guys know what i'm talking about. The toy that sex and the city raved was addictive. Apparently the rabbit can't keep up with me because it just is way too gentle! I don't know if anyone else has had this problem, but I want my toys to look cute- I don't want them...
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shirleydanger:
i agree about the rabbit...it looks damn cute but it's just not what i need either...
cosmicgirl:
I had a rabbit that i loved for years, i think it may depend on what brand you get b/c these days every company makes some kind of rabbit. If I may, I recommend the one by Vibratex ( it's a japanese company). Their "Rabbit Pearl" is awesome and powerful, but pricey. If you're looking for raw power, you might want to try the Hitachi magic wand. God, I know way too much about sex toys 
Nice pic BTW
Nice pic BTW
I admire your ability to put your true feelings on thoughts out for the world to see. I have similar thoughts and feelings a lot but never want to display. Only the people closest to me really see me.