What is your life really about? What moves you? Is your goal a successful career? Is it just being happy with a partner for life? With a family, a dog or two? Do you want to travel, or do you like small day trips around your town? Do you ever think you will truly be happy? I am on my way.
You must love yourself to feel love. This much I know now to be true.
I have been on a trip through self discovery the past few months. I have learned through looking at my past what I need to move onto a successful future. I need to drop the what if's they don't like me? What if I give up one thing for something that seems fantastic only to have that thing make me fall flat on my face, and send me yet again with my tail between my legs looking for help. I need to make my life better, I need to be working at my future. Sometimes the future can scare you two the point that you are up till four in the morning crying so hard you want to vomit. Sometimes the future can be so promising you want to hold onto it until you get there. You make a compromise to make your future as incredible as you deserve to have it. Even if you shit yourself with fear in the process.
I had the best week of my life. I made some solid choices that will change the shape of my life. Perhaps for a very long time. This means I will be around here less and less. In order to have the life I need to have, not the life I want, but the life I belong having I need to get my act together. I have given myself a goal. I need to adhere to this.
That being said. I have been toying with idea of moving out west. I toyed with it a lot when I went out there for the ball. I fell in love with San Fransisco. I fell deeper in love with Los Angeles. I know some of you out west think LA sucks. Even Rafi thinks I have head issues for wanting to go out there. I have a chance to do it. I want to write, I want warm weather. Of course I have other reasons. The thing is for the first time I feel like I am doing something for me. Not making a comprise for someone else. If that makes sense.
I have moved, I have changed jobs, I have quit jobs to take care of family members of people I have dated. I made to choice to come to NJ for me, I needed to clear out the corners of my head, and my heart to make a change. I have the best friend I could ever have, she is my sister, my rock. Now I need to become the Kayte I was meant to be.
Scary shit comes from all of this. Scurry scurriness.
There will be more pictures
You must love yourself to feel love. This much I know now to be true.
I have been on a trip through self discovery the past few months. I have learned through looking at my past what I need to move onto a successful future. I need to drop the what if's they don't like me? What if I give up one thing for something that seems fantastic only to have that thing make me fall flat on my face, and send me yet again with my tail between my legs looking for help. I need to make my life better, I need to be working at my future. Sometimes the future can scare you two the point that you are up till four in the morning crying so hard you want to vomit. Sometimes the future can be so promising you want to hold onto it until you get there. You make a compromise to make your future as incredible as you deserve to have it. Even if you shit yourself with fear in the process.
I had the best week of my life. I made some solid choices that will change the shape of my life. Perhaps for a very long time. This means I will be around here less and less. In order to have the life I need to have, not the life I want, but the life I belong having I need to get my act together. I have given myself a goal. I need to adhere to this.
That being said. I have been toying with idea of moving out west. I toyed with it a lot when I went out there for the ball. I fell in love with San Fransisco. I fell deeper in love with Los Angeles. I know some of you out west think LA sucks. Even Rafi thinks I have head issues for wanting to go out there. I have a chance to do it. I want to write, I want warm weather. Of course I have other reasons. The thing is for the first time I feel like I am doing something for me. Not making a comprise for someone else. If that makes sense.
I have moved, I have changed jobs, I have quit jobs to take care of family members of people I have dated. I made to choice to come to NJ for me, I needed to clear out the corners of my head, and my heart to make a change. I have the best friend I could ever have, she is my sister, my rock. Now I need to become the Kayte I was meant to be.
Scary shit comes from all of this. Scurry scurriness.
There will be more pictures
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I suppose at this point i'm not really expecting any major new formations in my life. I just hope to build on what I have. But I'm always intrigued by those who, like yourself, are pursuing new dreams and possibilities. That's one of the reasons I keep coming back to this site!