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ok so I just had my official weigh in for the week, and get this, I lost 5 motha fuckin pounds from last week!!!!
Woo Hoo!
That brings my weight loss total to 57 lbs!
Getting closer and closer to my goal, and even closer now to cracking the 60 lbs lost mark!
ok so I just had my official weigh in for the week, and get this, I lost 5 motha fuckin pounds from last week!!!!
Woo Hoo!
That brings my weight loss total to 57 lbs!
Getting closer and closer to my goal, and even closer now to cracking the 60 lbs lost mark!
Heya boys and girls!
I haven't checked in for a while so I'll fill to whom it may concern in on what's been happening in my little life.
Still working the 3rd shift grind, major suckfest all around but it continues to pay the bills.
School is back in swing (already 5th week of 8 week classes) and I am marathoning my way to geting my degree this year. As it stands right now I have a chance of an attractive offer lined up with a medical technology company, I applied and they said they were holding my application until I graduated, and they would be contacting me soon to begin the interview process. Let's all keep our fingers crossed for that!
The relationship and women fronts are still dead. I think I came to a realization this week, I think I am actually afraid of women. No matter what I do, I can't seem to talk to young, attractive women, or for that matter any woman that I find attractive. I freeze up, and can't even offer a squeaky "good morning" or "hi" around my work. I work in a fucking hospital where the women-to-men ratio is something like 500:1, you would think I would be able to find someone there. But the problem is, if I don't ever grow a pair to actually talk to some of these women, I'm never going to get anywhere. Maybe me being paralizingly shy is adoreable to some woman out there but I apparently haven't turned red and stumbled out a 1 word phrase to her yet...
Moving on, my buddies bachelor party is coming up in a few weeks, as is his wedding. Very happy for him. Also my birthday is just around the corner, so if any ladies want to get me either something special that I haven't gotten in 4 years now or maybe perform a "job" for me that I have NEVER, yes never, gotten... feel free to let me know!
Anyways, since there is a dude peeing on the ground outside accross the street from me right now, and that doesn't make me happy, I'm going to close this entry. As the temperature rises to a wonderful 80 degrees today, that's 26 C for all my Canadian and international hotties out there, I'll be spending my day asleep.
... go me.
P.S. Benten's new pic set is totally amazingly hawt, I command all who read this to go see it. that is all.
I haven't checked in for a while so I'll fill to whom it may concern in on what's been happening in my little life.
Still working the 3rd shift grind, major suckfest all around but it continues to pay the bills.
School is back in swing (already 5th week of 8 week classes) and I am marathoning my way to geting my degree this year. As it stands right now I have a chance of an attractive offer lined up with a medical technology company, I applied and they said they were holding my application until I graduated, and they would be contacting me soon to begin the interview process. Let's all keep our fingers crossed for that!
The relationship and women fronts are still dead. I think I came to a realization this week, I think I am actually afraid of women. No matter what I do, I can't seem to talk to young, attractive women, or for that matter any woman that I find attractive. I freeze up, and can't even offer a squeaky "good morning" or "hi" around my work. I work in a fucking hospital where the women-to-men ratio is something like 500:1, you would think I would be able to find someone there. But the problem is, if I don't ever grow a pair to actually talk to some of these women, I'm never going to get anywhere. Maybe me being paralizingly shy is adoreable to some woman out there but I apparently haven't turned red and stumbled out a 1 word phrase to her yet...
Moving on, my buddies bachelor party is coming up in a few weeks, as is his wedding. Very happy for him. Also my birthday is just around the corner, so if any ladies want to get me either something special that I haven't gotten in 4 years now or maybe perform a "job" for me that I have NEVER, yes never, gotten... feel free to let me know!
Anyways, since there is a dude peeing on the ground outside accross the street from me right now, and that doesn't make me happy, I'm going to close this entry. As the temperature rises to a wonderful 80 degrees today, that's 26 C for all my Canadian and international hotties out there, I'll be spending my day asleep.
... go me.
P.S. Benten's new pic set is totally amazingly hawt, I command all who read this to go see it. that is all.
I know I haven't posted anything in a while and unfortunately I have nothing good to report. I'll keep this brief but it's only 7:45 AM and there is already a lesson to be learned from today. 2 actually
Lesson 1. You can never trust anyone
Lesson 2. No matter how good of a person you claim to be, and how much of a decent person you convince yourself you are, the fact of the matter still remains. If on the inside your just a jealousy laden douchebag who has to put other people down to convince yourself that your situation is not so bad, in the end, you will get exactly what you deserve.
I think today I finally realized why I don't have a woman that loves me and makes me happy...
Because I don't deserve one.
Lesson 1. You can never trust anyone
Lesson 2. No matter how good of a person you claim to be, and how much of a decent person you convince yourself you are, the fact of the matter still remains. If on the inside your just a jealousy laden douchebag who has to put other people down to convince yourself that your situation is not so bad, in the end, you will get exactly what you deserve.
I think today I finally realized why I don't have a woman that loves me and makes me happy...
Because I don't deserve one.
My new mattress just arrived!! I love it no more 9 year old bed for me!
Looking forward to an awesome night sleep tonight... that is, unless any ladies want to stop by tonight and help me crisen it...???
Looking forward to an awesome night sleep tonight... that is, unless any ladies want to stop by tonight and help me crisen it...???
Shawshank Redemption
...is one of the best movies ever. And if you've never seen it, go do that now. As in rignt now...
"Sometimes it makes me sad though, Andy being gone. I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice. But still, the the place you live in is that much more drab and empty now they are gone. I guess I just miss my friend..."
Get busy living or get busy dieing
That's goddamn right.
...is one of the best movies ever. And if you've never seen it, go do that now. As in rignt now...
"Sometimes it makes me sad though, Andy being gone. I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up does rejoice. But still, the the place you live in is that much more drab and empty now they are gone. I guess I just miss my friend..."
Get busy living or get busy dieing
That's goddamn right.
BIggest loser
By accident about 3 weeks ago now I happened to watch the show The Biggest Loser on NBC. For any not familiar with it, severly overweight people go on the show and are divided up into teams and compete against each other to see who can lose the most weight and become the biggest loser. This show is impacting me alot and I am becoming inspiried by these people to keep going on my weight loss.
In November of 2006 when I began my new job I weighed 298 lbs. Over the course of a year with simple diet changes and cutting out eating junk and limiting fast foods and such I lost 53 lbs. After getting down to 245 I decided to make another life altering change which was to quit smoking. Now smoke free for a little over 2 months I unfortunately have slid back up over the 250 mark. While not major weight gain by any means, but it is weight gain... not the result I'm looking for.
Watching the biggest loser is giving me the strength to start on this path again. I need to step it up, and get back into the swing of things. Stop cheating and get back to business. The next step for me is getting back to the gym and working out on a regular basis. I used to go every other day which should be fine to start, but after that I have to try and get working out everyday.
The only one that has the ability to make me happy is me, and it's time I get on that!!
By accident about 3 weeks ago now I happened to watch the show The Biggest Loser on NBC. For any not familiar with it, severly overweight people go on the show and are divided up into teams and compete against each other to see who can lose the most weight and become the biggest loser. This show is impacting me alot and I am becoming inspiried by these people to keep going on my weight loss.
In November of 2006 when I began my new job I weighed 298 lbs. Over the course of a year with simple diet changes and cutting out eating junk and limiting fast foods and such I lost 53 lbs. After getting down to 245 I decided to make another life altering change which was to quit smoking. Now smoke free for a little over 2 months I unfortunately have slid back up over the 250 mark. While not major weight gain by any means, but it is weight gain... not the result I'm looking for.
Watching the biggest loser is giving me the strength to start on this path again. I need to step it up, and get back into the swing of things. Stop cheating and get back to business. The next step for me is getting back to the gym and working out on a regular basis. I used to go every other day which should be fine to start, but after that I have to try and get working out everyday.
The only one that has the ability to make me happy is me, and it's time I get on that!!
Blast
I have no idea what has come over me but a wave of happiness has hit me like a ton of bricks! Maybe it was the mini blast from the past that I just went on!
I just finished watching the movie 10 Things I hate about you, which technically I should hate because that movie is an intense reminder of time spent with my ex, but for some reason, it didn't! I laughed and laughed at the funny shit in that movie and it made me think not of the times that I spent with her, but times I spent with everyone else!! Then due to my infatuation with Julia Stilies I came up to get on the computer to check some of her other more modern movies out and downstairs on the TV the music video for The Killers - all these things that I've done came on. Being around the same life time frame it made me smile and go back down to watch it. This led me on a treasure hunt for the Killers CD that I know I had somewhere, which led me to my forgotten collection of burned CD's!!! LOL
So I found one that I had called "Techno Dance and Rock" and thought to myself wow my techno and dance phase... I wonder what's on it. Poped it in and went exploring. This CD put me into a state that I have not felt since forever, as I keep laughing to myself as I am typing this! Tatu, which I still like today, was the start which I remembered then it went on to When Things Go Wrong by Airwave, which reminds me of a friend of mine Leah, who changed my life after my messy breakup.
Then Sanctuary by Origene came on and I was fucking gone!!! I was literally dancing around my apt! I loved that song back in the day and I guess I still do!!!
OK Next track was R2D2 by Aphex Twin. Geeky and lame but a fucking awesome find!
Oh man it went on and on but just put me in a really great state of mind. I just thought I would share that with any who may read this!
I have no idea what has come over me but a wave of happiness has hit me like a ton of bricks! Maybe it was the mini blast from the past that I just went on!
I just finished watching the movie 10 Things I hate about you, which technically I should hate because that movie is an intense reminder of time spent with my ex, but for some reason, it didn't! I laughed and laughed at the funny shit in that movie and it made me think not of the times that I spent with her, but times I spent with everyone else!! Then due to my infatuation with Julia Stilies I came up to get on the computer to check some of her other more modern movies out and downstairs on the TV the music video for The Killers - all these things that I've done came on. Being around the same life time frame it made me smile and go back down to watch it. This led me on a treasure hunt for the Killers CD that I know I had somewhere, which led me to my forgotten collection of burned CD's!!! LOL
So I found one that I had called "Techno Dance and Rock" and thought to myself wow my techno and dance phase... I wonder what's on it. Poped it in and went exploring. This CD put me into a state that I have not felt since forever, as I keep laughing to myself as I am typing this! Tatu, which I still like today, was the start which I remembered then it went on to When Things Go Wrong by Airwave, which reminds me of a friend of mine Leah, who changed my life after my messy breakup.
Then Sanctuary by Origene came on and I was fucking gone!!! I was literally dancing around my apt! I loved that song back in the day and I guess I still do!!!
OK Next track was R2D2 by Aphex Twin. Geeky and lame but a fucking awesome find!
Oh man it went on and on but just put me in a really great state of mind. I just thought I would share that with any who may read this!
* and now another of the "why can't I find someone to love" blogs *
I just don't get people...
I don't understand...
If you are in a bad situation, if someone makes you cry and unhappy all the time, if someone is a loser, if they hit you, if someone steals from you everything, physically, emotionally, spiritually...... why do you not walk away? Why do you stay, and cry and complain, and die inside and look to people for help? Why do you look to others for comfort?
You have the power to change whats happening to you... you can make it stop, you can fix it...
Walk away, leave, and find someone else who will care for you and make you happy.
If you touch a hot stove, and it burns, and it hurts, you pull your hand away... an invoulentary action
so............. after that happens, do you touch the stove AGAIN!!??!?!?!?!?!?!? NO! why? because you learned that fire + hot + touch = pain = bad
It's the law of survival... APPLY IT!
Maybe this is why I have no one to call my own? because I don't hit people, or yell, or because I'm not an alchy or druggie, because I have a job, and can pay my bills, and dont need to steal or endlessly borrow money from anyone, because my life is actually going somewhere and I have a plan... Is this why women are not interested in me?
You tell me.....
I just don't get people...
I don't understand...
If you are in a bad situation, if someone makes you cry and unhappy all the time, if someone is a loser, if they hit you, if someone steals from you everything, physically, emotionally, spiritually...... why do you not walk away? Why do you stay, and cry and complain, and die inside and look to people for help? Why do you look to others for comfort?
You have the power to change whats happening to you... you can make it stop, you can fix it...
Walk away, leave, and find someone else who will care for you and make you happy.
If you touch a hot stove, and it burns, and it hurts, you pull your hand away... an invoulentary action
so............. after that happens, do you touch the stove AGAIN!!??!?!?!?!?!?!? NO! why? because you learned that fire + hot + touch = pain = bad
It's the law of survival... APPLY IT!
Maybe this is why I have no one to call my own? because I don't hit people, or yell, or because I'm not an alchy or druggie, because I have a job, and can pay my bills, and dont need to steal or endlessly borrow money from anyone, because my life is actually going somewhere and I have a plan... Is this why women are not interested in me?
You tell me.....
With that big day fast approaching I'd like to take the one and only opportunity to wish all of you lucky peoples out there a happy valentines day...
That's about all your going to get from me.
For the rest of us, including myself, I would like to wish a very miserable singles awareness day. May we all get nothing from the nobody that we have, and love every minute of it as we rub one out / touch ourselves thinking about what we could be having but unfortunately do not.
That's about all your going to get from me.
For the rest of us, including myself, I would like to wish a very miserable singles awareness day. May we all get nothing from the nobody that we have, and love every minute of it as we rub one out / touch ourselves thinking about what we could be having but unfortunately do not.
Continuing along with the funny things that make me happy on the internet, next we go to Geico and Peter Frampton.
While Geico insurance is not available in my state, I do appreciate the great, great commercials they make, such as the following:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiA-_p5QRJM
"NoT a GrEAt WaAAY to Start the MorNiNG"
kudos to you Geico, Mr. Frampton, and your talk box.
While Geico insurance is not available in my state, I do appreciate the great, great commercials they make, such as the following:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hiA-_p5QRJM
"NoT a GrEAt WaAAY to Start the MorNiNG"
kudos to you Geico, Mr. Frampton, and your talk box.
