I'm sitting here on my day off listening to Creep by Radiohead and I'm so terrified by actually fulfiling my dreams that I sit here and do nothing. I would have no trouble goin out and doing what I feel I want and can do but instead I just here. I watch tv, listen to music, jerk off, surf the net, daydream, and watch as the moments fly by. And my favorite activity...basking in my self-hatred. Its so frustrating knowing exactly what I need to do in order to improve my life and yet not do it. I know I will feel better once I start doing but I do not. (Sometimes I just don't like contractions.) Don't forget, we are creatures of habit and its hard doing nothing, you never know when you are done.

I'm sitting here on my day off listening to Creep by Radiohead and I'm so terrified by actually fulfiling my dreams that I sit here and do nothing. I would have no trouble goin out and doing what I feel I want and can do but instead I just here. I watch tv, listen to music, jerk off, surf the net, daydream, and watch as the moments fly by. And my favorite activity...basking in my self-hatred. Its so frustrating knowing exactly what I need to do in order to improve my life and yet not do it. I know I will feel better once I start doing but I do not. (Sometimes I just don't like contractions.) Don't forget, we are creatures of habit and its hard doing nothing, you never know when you are done.