One last exam ever down, one more to go. I'm quite proud of myself today, I managed to go to the gym, clean the kitchen, confront our lazy, messy, annoying housemate about him not helping at ALL around the house in a very calm, understated manner. I think he got my message.

Why am I proud of that you ask? Well, to put it simply, loverboy was worried last night that I was going to stab the pairing knife through this guys eye. I took it out on the carrot and loverboy instead (no, not loverboy with the knife, it was a verbal tirade). I was a little stressed / angry. Lucky for the housemate he brought his new g/f over and I had some whisky left.

Also, the seeds that I planted a couple of days ago in a huge pot are starting to grow. I'm hoping that they'll just go wherever they want and the pot will become my mini wilderness of useful herbs!

I need to find a spare sim card to put in my other phone so I can use it as a camera, off to search. Hopefully be back with photos of the new life!

xo
Oh the joys of new life...

So, I haven't been on in a while. Almost another year has past and what a blast it was! So much has changed, gone through heartbreak to being mended and broken and mended again. Hopefully he's run out of "past" that can come back to bite us on the ass now. Everybody around us is getting married, congrats to future bro and sis in law

Cats are doing fine - I rescued another from outside the local pub, she was such a tiny thing and still isn't quite socialised yet. She won't go near anybody in the daytime, but at night couldn't be more cuddly! Freakin' weirdo!

But that's enough, I'm off to explore what I've missed! cya!

The Dawn Service was amazing this morning - I love going to the Redlands and watching the sun rise with a cool sea breeze blowing and the last post playing, and being so thankful to all those who have past, making this country the greatest country on earth to live.

So to all those who understand Anzac day and gave thanks, kudos. It's such a special time for this awesome country.

And for those who don't live in Australia...whatever, you're missing out!

now off to go bare foot bowling! hooray!

I'm angry. Ok, I realise that it's kinda typical for a redhead to be angry. But it's not a outburst, "i want to scream" angry. This is a slow, burning,seething angry that feels like it's going to make me sick, and is constricting my lungs. This anger would be caused by rude, obnoxious little girls who are controlling people in my life and therefore what I do on my nights off. I invited myself to my ex's 21st. No biggie, but apparently him and his girlfriend, have had a tiff (not about me, just in general) and today I got a lovely message saying "I'll have to rescind my offer to let you come. It would be awkward and inappropriate" (with the spelling fixed). No, "sorry", no explanation. I'm assuming that the above reason is why. Now, I don't really care whether I see him or not, what gets my goat is that this is stopping me from seeing all my friends from school who I rarely get to see. That really annoys me. If I see this girl in public in the next week, she won't know what hit her.

Welcome to my world babe, you won't stand a chance, because this hell and I'm the fucking devil.

In good news, I sent off my loan documents to the bank today, so I should be an official homeowner sometime soon. Fucking take it.

My mum want's me to call my ex to wish him a happy birthday and although the urge to kill him has dissipated to an acceptable level of "I don't give a shit", I still don't want to talk to him...

Damn my Mother and her old fashioned values!!!

hahahahahah

I had the strangest dream last night, after the boys next door got home and proceeded to yell and scream for an hour before passing out and before dawn. It was about me, in a pool with my best friend (who currently in med school) who suddenly had a very awesome sleeve done, which in itself was very weird. I remember asking her where she got it done and long story short, I was in the parlor where she'd gotten hers done. I was covered from my face to my ass in tattoo and I told the artist that I didn't want tattoos on my face, so they disappeared.

The tattoo started on my left shoulder and was a spine of some sort. It went over my shoulder to my front where it mingled in with something (can't remember what) but it was very colourful, through my cleavage, around my rib cage back up and across to the other side of my shoulders, over my left shoulder, and looped through me boobs and around my rib cage again to end up in a sort of butterfly harness. It was all vertebrae untill where it met up in the middle of my back where there was a tiny dragon skull. Then I had a sleeve with hearts and tears, and swallows.

The sleeve and the chest pieces were existing but the vertebrae was about to be done, I felt the needle start, and had a huge panic attack that I didn't actually want this tattoo...then I woke up.

What does it all mean??? *sounding mysterious*

So this is what it feels like to be successful? Apparently I've accomplished a lot in the year and a bit that I've been broken up with my partner. I'm wondering if it's because I'd been held back for all the years that we were together, or is it just because I'm still trying to keep my mind occupied so that I don't have to deal with the break up. At least I feel that there is some sort of direction and stability in my life now. That in itself is success perhaps?

What is not successful is the horrendous smell coming from my bin, but I'm too afraid/lazy to go check it out. Gross huh?

I also, today, figured out that I have a webcam on my mac. I've never had one before so I don't know how to use them or why people would want to look at themselves on their computer. What's the go people??

So far today I've sorted out 3 problems for customers, thrown 1 person out of my store - banished, never to return, fucked up stock and found out one of my friends is getting hitched in a week and done two load of washing! Go me!

the below didn't happen...I jinxed it with the "no rain" comment

On the upside, the day is nearly over and tomorrow is the much anticipated Hippy Garden Easter party for which we have all been breathlessly waiting for. And I finally found something to wear, and something to drink! But no one to make out with My usual has come back from being away with his girlfriend...damn lol. Oh well, 2 outta 3 ain't bad

my new lip piercing is looking good too

And I think I'll go to the gym tomorrow

And hopefully next week I'll find out whether I'm to become a house owner

Things are looking pretty good I'd say.

I woke this morning to 327 spam emails in my spam box...who has time to make all these stupid things??

thank god for nice weather good day for drinking in the park and eating cake with friends!!