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i don't know what to say really...
a friend of mine from high school killed himself on monday.
i don't know the details. i've been holding my emotions back because i've been on a babysitting gig since sunday night. i had to hold it together and now i have a stomach ache. i can feel a nervous break down in the works.
he's tried it before. i know this. he's been depressed, maybe bi-polar. i know this as well. he just did it right this time, i guess.
i don't know what to do accept cry, and be exhausted.

it's just not right.

the thing that scares me the most is that we had always bonded over our depression. we were so similar about some things. but i know i could never do something like that. still, this event makes me worry that i could easily slip back into my depression, because of this, or just for no reason at all.

he had good days, i know he did. but i think he had more bad ones unfortunately. he was a tortured soul and i'm sure he's glad to be finished with this world. unfortunately, we will all miss him.

it's not supposed to happen like this...



i found this article. it's awful. it says he died from the burns. i just wish i could believe it was a horrible accident.