So I'm a little sad...but a little relieved at the same time. Grant emailed me last night to tell me that there was a high possibility he was not comming home for the 2 month break he was going to get inbetween deployment dates. The 2 months he would be back here in Tucson, they have decided to send him to another country in the middle east (it's classified information of where) to be a map planner. While I'm a little sad, at the same time....I am happy. That gives me a full 6 months to get everything really together, without any interruption whatsoever. I miss him, but absence makes the heart grow fonder anyways.

I sent him a song that I heard one night on a drive home after work, that reminded me of him, a lot in a metaphorical sense, and a little in a literal sense....and so I sent him the lyrics, and when he wrote back, and he said that was the most flattering thing someone has ever said/though about him...but he thinks I think too highly of him.

I disagree. He's the only person to date, that has been there for me 110% of the way. Who has dropped selfish notions and wants, in order to help me while I was sick, which no one else was willing to do, and when they were, they gave off vibes or told me about how inconveniant it was for them. He has been the only friend that has given me true unconditional love, faith and trust. He never questions that I'm not doing the right things. He never questions my intelligence, and where I've been in my life. He also never questions my care for him. I guess maybe it's because he's 26...but he loves life...and the little petty things we (me and my "friends") bicker over, are things which he can't understand two people bickering over. He has been the greatest friend, because since day one, he's believed in me....and not just told me he did...he actually made me feel that way. He pushes me so hard too...and I appreciate that. He doesn't do it to make himself feel better either...he does it because he thinks I have a lot more potential than most people my age. and I really do. I'm a really smart girl...I just need to follow through. And most of all, my biggest peeve, he's always there when he says he will be. Which, ironically enough, is kind of hard coming from a guy with an indefinate job. a job where he could get deployed at any minute....sent away...go on TDY without notice...etc....even get moved to a different base. He's had the wierdest work hours too since I met him....some days, some nights...some 5 hours...some 12 hour days.....YET...he's always managed to be there for me when he said he would be.

Anyways....I'm glad he's getting an oppritunity to do something new also...I know thats what he wants. He's such an incredible human being, and I knew that from the day I met him. Anyone blessed enough to be one of his friends, should consider themselves one of the luckiest people in the world. He makes me want to be a better person - not because he preaches or critisizes or judges...but because he lives his life as virtiously and honestl as he possibly can, and by example, becomes a leader in which I wouldn't mind following.

I am starting college soon. I finally applied for the pale grant, which because of my mother's financial situation, and growing up without a father, it looks as if almost all of my school will be paid for...and that's awesome.

And my search for a replacment job is going rather well. We'll see though....I don't plan on crossing my fingers. That always seems to jinx things for some reason.