The_Minx likes obviously didn't respect me enough to be honest about some past things. fuck it. lets drink :).
I miss the feeling a single song could make sense of all the madness in your heart
I miss the uncertainty of being a teenager
I miss singing TBS and Brand New songs with Vanessa, wherever...whenever.
I miss hollywood
I miss the feeling of having sex for the first time
I miss a man who's mind was just as chaotic as mine
I miss drinking captain and dr. pepper at their apartment
I miss the clarity of thought I have after I have been up too long
I miss coming home with all A's and B's on my report card
I miss that feeling of when your in love and that love is all you will ever need
I miss sleeping on a matress
I miss having selfless people in my life
I miss lying about my age to look cool at the pool hall
I miss the quiet time alone you can only find with yourself
I miss getting stoned with steve and sam
I miss philosophical conversations with Mike and Dace at 3 am via Denny's
I miss fighting with Jennifer - That was true emotion
I miss sneaking out at night to make out on A-mountain
I miss bands that played from ther heart not from their producer's pocket
I miss the man who rejected my love
I miss having spiked hair
I miss knowing what it feels like to be unconditionally loved
I miss making make-shift quija boards with Candise
I miss my faith in God
I miss falling asleep on the phone with you
I miss Cameron
I miss not caring about the small things
I miss peeing and not washing my hands afterwards when I was 7
I miss you
I miss looking at sunsets.
I miss not having to live up to others expectations all the fucking time...
I don't miss having a gun put in my mouth
I don't miss going to my friends/familys funerals
I don't miss looking into someones eyes as you watch their heart break
I don't miss feeling sorry for myself
I don't miss the person I was
I don't miss drinking it all away...
I don't miss giving up on myself and my dreams
I don't miss the beatings
I don't miss Robert
I don't miss you
I don't miss just getting thru the day
OCT 02, 2004 04:19 PM
I admire you
I admire your honesty
I admire your strength
I admire your vulnerability
I wish I knew what you want hear
I wish I could say that
in the mean time...
{{BIG HUGS!!!}}
OCT 03, 2004 05:47 AM
Moment of self-reflection... I guess the bad times will sometimes bring out the best in us. I liked your enrty and I hope everything is ok with the "ass-fucker". 
Feel better. 
OCT 03, 2004 12:26 PM
Was that sarcasm? 
I would be going nuts if I were in your shoes. Aren't us males just so considerate sometimes? I hope you're ok and things work out for ya.
OCT 03, 2004 03:44 PM
Aww Becks, c'mon. We're not all stupid all the time. 
It sucks that he didn't call you, though.... I hope he comes to his senses soon. He's about to leave and he can't have his pretty girlfriend being mad at him while he's away...
Try to cheer up, sweetie.
OCT 03, 2004 03:56 PM
I am sure that I am not one of those annoying guys you tell me about.
Hopefully not anyway!! 
