Hey Suicide Ladies and Suicide Gentlemen. Happy Fuckin' Hump Day yo! And yes sir, I am buzzed today again. I said I would do this again and make a bartender's mix of some alcoholic concoction to counter the shut-off valve and I did. However, I made it healthy thanks to Shakeology. Pre tty much I took half a glass of almond milk, mixed in Russian water, and one scoop of Shakeology. Also, if you don't know what Shakeology is, check out the video below and what it is.

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So now I am having my healthy bartender's delight. It is so delicious even though it's the pussy version of a Cement Mixer. As a bartender what that drink is if you don't know. Maybe a mix of White Russian and Toasted Almond. Maybe. Anyways, my best friend Dizzy (Which is a nickname I gave her years ago) was here last weekend and it was fuckin' awesome having her here from Italy. Actually, she needed to be here because she just broke down prior to being here. You see, my best friend is this super-gorgeous girl who is hot but she doesn't bend to the stereotypes of a beautiful girl on almost every level. She is extremely independent, doesn't nudge one inch on a man's ego if it is catered to degrading or shadowing her on a vain level, and she is violent. She's actually a tomboy but due to her strong sense of social ethics and personal morals, she doesn't fit very well with the majority of the population of the United States. I know because I don't fit very well with the majority of the population of the United States due to how I am. That is probably why I love a lot of the people from said state Ohio. Though fuckin' boring in general - though I found it fun since I am so easily entertained - it is the state associated with all the country's outcasts and rejects. I myself have been an outcast of this society for the longest time for what I believe in and how I live life not because I want to but because...

Hey Suicide Ladies and Suicide Gentlemen. Happy Fuckin' Hump Day yo! And yes sir, I am buzzed today again. I said I would do this again and make a bartender's mix of some alcoholic concoction to counter the shut-off valve and I did. However, I made it healthy thanks to Shakeology. Pre tty much I took half a glass of almond milk, mixed in Russian water, and one scoop of Shakeology. Also, if you don't know what Shakeology is, check out the video below and what it is.



So now I am having my healthy bartender's delight. It is so delicious even though it's the pussy version of a Cement Mixer. As a bartender what that drink is if you don't know. Maybe a mix of White Russian and Toasted Almond. Maybe. Anyways, my best friend Dizzy (Which is a nickname I gave her years ago) was here last weekend and it was fuckin' awesome having her here from Italy. Actually, she needed to be here because she just broke down prior to being here. You see, my best friend is this super-gorgeous girl who is hot but she doesn't bend to the stereotypes of a beautiful girl on almost every level. She is extremely independent, doesn't nudge one inch on a man's ego if it is catered to degrading or shadowing her on a vain level, and she is violent. She's actually a tomboy but due to her strong sense of social ethics and personal morals, she doesn't fit very well with the majority of the population of the United States. I know because I don't fit very well with the majority of the population of the United States due to how I am. That is probably why I love a lot of the people from said state Ohio. Though fuckin' boring in general - though I found it fun since I am so easily entertained - it is the state associated with all the country's outcasts and rejects. I myself have been an outcast of this society for the longest time for what I believe in and how I live life not because I want to but because it just is by social mores.

Off topic for a moment, if you want to know just for shits and giggles, the sunshine state Florida, where I live right now for the time, is the state where all the strippers and serial killers live. The joke is that if you are on the run, you run to Florida where you disappear into the crowd of tourists, crack dealers, Disneyworld fanatics, prostitutes, gang-bangers, and snowbirds thus there are more people in the Witness Protection Agency here in Florida as well as the highest perecentage of seriel killers. Here is the kicker, almost 75% of the seriel killers are noted but left alone by authorities because of who they kill. Ever seen Dexter or even read the series in which the television series is based off of who the author is Jeff Lindsay? Ever read anything from Tim Dorsey or Carl Hiaason? All these crime novels are set in one place: Florida. As for the stripper part, Tampa is the stripper capital of the United States. Now we don't have the most stripclubs per place for New York City has more than Tampa but Tampa has the most stripclubs per population ratio including the two most popular stripclubs or branches of the most popular stripclubs, the Mons Venus and Scores. Also, the three biggest porn companies on the internet are - and for your convenience, I will linkify to the fuck and suck spoogefest - the following. #1 goes to The Bangbros. Network. #2 goes to RealityKings Network. And #3 goes to the Brazzers Network. These three have their headquarters in where? Miami, Florida.

Well I apologize for going off the fuckin' topic there. The booze makes me so sociological. Anyways, Dizzy broke down in Italy crying about how she'll never end up married or something like that. I wasn't there so I can't put my guarantee on it but she pretty much had like a damn mid-life crisis at twenty-six and that scares the shit outta me because she's the toughest bitch I know but mostly from her rage and her breaking down like that is monumental. All my old friends were on call when we all heard that. Some even took immediate vacations to meet up with her and I am so thankful for that little blessing. Anyways, I paid for her ticket to spend a weekend here so I can try to take care of her a bit. It's like two best friends hanging out because we are and that weekend was awesome. She actually wanted to go to a stripclub of all places because 1.) she used to be a stripper and 2.) she fuckin' misses it I guess. Club was awesome but the bar was something else. First off, I am wearing cowboy boots and a cowboy hat because despite being Asian I seem to be the cowboy somewhat. Why Filipinos are the cowboys of Asia you know. I was the only one there like that with the exception of two girls. These girls wanted some punch-drunk midnight express yo but I was only there to hang out with Dizzy. I turned down two hot girls due to responsibility I guess. Later on, we hit up a bottle bar which is a fuckin' mistake because we ended up in a fight there. I didn't jump in though even though I had to help finish it. It was a good night all in all but then I realized something. The entire night for me was the following spoiler!

Seriously!? C'mon! That should be enough kicker for my fuckin' breakdown to happen but it didn't. I guess I have a better hold on myself than Dizzy has on herself. On the last day, she pretty much verified it that I am the most secure person she knows out of all my friends and hers as in emotional, personal, mental, and spiritual security because of how I used to be. What I used to do. What I was. I am fuckin' thankful for that.

So that's the events that are entertaining. I am now a writer for Console Alliance so check out the website if you want to see the articles that I have contributed. Also, it is sad to say this but Bow has left SG. This had me thinking about the blog Phecda wrote as well as what both Kronos and other hopefuls had said to me just writing back and forth communicating getting to know one another. Bow even said she wans't feeling all too happy on this site anymore and that makes me kinda upset that this site was one of the sources of her unhappiness. I have met so many wonderful and beautiful people and usually hit up the forums and clubs with them more than anything else. I hit up blogs more than anythere here even before commenting on sets though I will to show my support for all the girls who work so hard and put other endeavors and views on the line doing this. I know there is safe names being used per se stage names but people recognize people. That is why Jaime left this site. She left for career purposes and it is sad that people would be vain to utilize someone's wild past or private choices outside of work towards work. Kinda like when Clinton was caught getting head from a Jewish girl. Republicans wanted him to be impeached for something that did not affect the government. That was all personal. Pretty much, Congress impeaching Clinton for getting a blowjob is like a group of lepers judging a beauty contest. So a moment of respect for Bow now and I truly hope she does well in her future endeavors.



To finally finish this uber awesome post, after watching the vid above, I am sure you realize I listen to country music and yes I love country music and you probably wouldn't realize it from my top ten bands here. I actually love many bands and genres of music because I DON'T SPECIALIZE! Wanna get a little crack of my ruthless mind here? I like music by Adam Lambert, Taylor Swift, T-Pain, N.E.R.D., Calle 13, Wisin Y Yandel, Angel Y Khriz, LMNT, Alicia Keys, Natasha Bedingfield, Owl City, Kesha, Kanye West, etc. Notice how I didn't mention any country singers at that one moment...well Taylor Swift but she's so popular now and she is hodgepodge country like Garth Brooks. Anyways, my two favorite country singers are Gretchen Wilson (I love that beautiful hot aggressive tomboy) and Toby Keith. I mean I have two cowboy hats and two pairs of cowboy boots right next to my beach slippers, 70s retro shirts, and golf tees. My wardrobe is just like me: eclectic and open-minded. I even have the very awesome Vibram Five-Finger Shoes!

Anyways, I was listening to a lot of country songs at work today and maybe it's the bulletproofing talking but I love country love songs or country relationship songs. I probably would never mention that here but fuck it, I'm bulletproof. I usually love the integrity put into the songs thus why. Country is so far the only genre that still is mostly synonymous with the best of people. If country were novels, they would be anything written by Nicholas Sparks or Sarah Addison Allen. That is how country music IN GENERAL could be. Even the hard country songs are very emotional and if you say Kid Rock doesn't sing emotional songs, listen to Lonely Road of Faith, Only God Knows Why, and his duet with Sheryl Crow titled Picture. Even Uncle Kracker's biggest hit is a slower relationship-based song titled Follow Me.

So I've been listening to all this lovely country songs and I usually respect the music for what the artist is doing and expressing about themselves and that is that...but now when I was listening these lovely country ballads, I am thinking of a girl. I can't fuckin' believe it! I'm thinking of her and that scares the shit outta me because I've been so happy on my own since circa 2005 or 2006. I've been single for five years at most. Sure I dated but only just to go with what everyone said or what someone suggested like "you two look great together and you should try her out" but it was never someone I really wanted to be with from scratch. I give my all in every relationship I am in but I don't bend over backwards and usually I'd catch myself whenever somone is sour thus ending something before potential hazard starts. With me however, I can sense good and strong people because I am attracted to good and strong people and I mean genuine. I'll be nice to everyone but very few people end up in my circle of trust. This girl did something however for now I am having emotions I haven't had in the longest time like anxiety and nervousness. I'm thinking questions like, "Am I good enough for her?" or "What can I do to be better just for here?" even though my universalistic self still lets me know that I am good enough because I make myself good enough. Like I said, if I wasn't somewhat buzzed, I wouldn't be writing this but it has been on my mind and heart for some time now. And yes, she is the type of girl I would change everything just to have THE CHANCE to be with her. I can feel it and as I am writing this, I am so fucking terrified. Maybe it's juvenile, me being twenty-six and all, but it's something I haven't felt in the longest time. I am going to end this blog with a quote using quotes from Kid Rock.

Only God knows why I am up and down the lonely road of faith.

May You All be Well!