So, I've enjoyed the Winter Olympics way more than I originally expected to. I guess I just really love sports/ athletic competition. I also now really love speed skating. And this man. Ignore the AT&T shit. Love the song though.
I also want this game... Mario and Sonic Olympic Winter Games
I also want this game... Mario and Sonic Olympic Winter Games
So, I've been really busy this semester. I transfered back to Columbia College and got a job at the Utrecht downtown. I have to commute into the city at least 5 days a week. The commute adds around 3 hours to my already long days.
I switched my major to traditional animation and I love it. The Animation 1 class is great. We already did 2 short animation tests. They are around 3-5 seconds long. It's such tedious work. My second project took me 8 hours to draw. 36 individual drawings and it only lasted 3 seconds! It's actually part of our midterm. I have to color it and turn it in next week!
We were already assigned our final project. It has 3 separate stages. The storyboard is due sometime soon. I should really check due dates. Anyways I'll try and post what i've done so far and you can give me some feedback...or not.
So what's up with you guys?
Is anyone out there?
I switched my major to traditional animation and I love it. The Animation 1 class is great. We already did 2 short animation tests. They are around 3-5 seconds long. It's such tedious work. My second project took me 8 hours to draw. 36 individual drawings and it only lasted 3 seconds! It's actually part of our midterm. I have to color it and turn it in next week!
We were already assigned our final project. It has 3 separate stages. The storyboard is due sometime soon. I should really check due dates. Anyways I'll try and post what i've done so far and you can give me some feedback...or not.
So what's up with you guys?
Is anyone out there?
Why am I having a tough time expressing myself? I can barely force myself to draw and I barely write nowadays. At least I enjoy myself once I do continue drawing.
How's everyone's summer so far?
How's everyone's summer so far?
I need to let things out. Tired, cold, and shaking anxiously
Trying to get used to my new family dynamic has been tough. I'm pretty sure my dad is dating. What weirded me out is he brought her in while I was in bed with my lover sleeping and I heard them having sex on Sunday. It weirded me out. this just adds to the list of shit going through my mind. Anyways to the point...
I've been at home for the past two months finally mourning my moms death the way I wanted. By doing nothing. At first It wasn't so bad, but then it settled in me. I tried looking for a job and trying to be optimistic while doing this, but with every rejection my spirit took a hit. This just made things worst. I felt like everyone around me had expectations even though no one had said anything. I wish they would have. Especially a certain someone. It's taken me a couple of months to even see the slightest sign of results from trying to get better. But I fear it's too late to save somethings.
I've been struggling with myself for a while and didn't realize how much it affected those close to me, especially the one person closest to me. I was selfish, but in a negative way. It's come to the point where I no longer can satisfy them, mostly because they want something else. Some new exciting toy. Something interesting and rough. What is that bullshit? I don't deserve to be a place holder over and over again in between new cheap thrills.
Some people don't even realize what they do to hurt people and that amazes me. They dont' mean to do it. it's just what they are. I know what they're thinking even before they tell me. Despite this I hammer at them until my inquiries are met with what I already fearfully knew.
No longer the confident person I used to be, I wonder why I let myself go so far down. The easy way out is no longer an option. Either I grow up and take it like a man or continue down a destructive path.
I want someone with integrity. I need someone with soul power and babe you ain't got no soul power.
I"m scared as hell at what will happen in the upcoming weeks, but If I wasn't then would life be worth living?
I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore
Trying to get used to my new family dynamic has been tough. I'm pretty sure my dad is dating. What weirded me out is he brought her in while I was in bed with my lover sleeping and I heard them having sex on Sunday. It weirded me out. this just adds to the list of shit going through my mind. Anyways to the point...
I've been at home for the past two months finally mourning my moms death the way I wanted. By doing nothing. At first It wasn't so bad, but then it settled in me. I tried looking for a job and trying to be optimistic while doing this, but with every rejection my spirit took a hit. This just made things worst. I felt like everyone around me had expectations even though no one had said anything. I wish they would have. Especially a certain someone. It's taken me a couple of months to even see the slightest sign of results from trying to get better. But I fear it's too late to save somethings.
I've been struggling with myself for a while and didn't realize how much it affected those close to me, especially the one person closest to me. I was selfish, but in a negative way. It's come to the point where I no longer can satisfy them, mostly because they want something else. Some new exciting toy. Something interesting and rough. What is that bullshit? I don't deserve to be a place holder over and over again in between new cheap thrills.
Some people don't even realize what they do to hurt people and that amazes me. They dont' mean to do it. it's just what they are. I know what they're thinking even before they tell me. Despite this I hammer at them until my inquiries are met with what I already fearfully knew.
No longer the confident person I used to be, I wonder why I let myself go so far down. The easy way out is no longer an option. Either I grow up and take it like a man or continue down a destructive path.
I want someone with integrity. I need someone with soul power and babe you ain't got no soul power.
I"m scared as hell at what will happen in the upcoming weeks, but If I wasn't then would life be worth living?
I'm mad as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore
So, I'm basically canceling my account for the time being. It's been hard trying to find a job and I'm not on the site as much anymore. I'm all over the internet, but here. Hopefully I won't be away too long.
I recently had an interview at Medieval Times. It seems like a cool place to work. If I don't get a call from them by Saturday I'm going to start designing and make money that way. Either way I need to get off my ass. It's nice out so have a good day. Peace.
Plan A: GET MORE MONEY
AND The Mars Volta's newest single. Yummy prog.
I recently had an interview at Medieval Times. It seems like a cool place to work. If I don't get a call from them by Saturday I'm going to start designing and make money that way. Either way I need to get off my ass. It's nice out so have a good day. Peace.
Plan A: GET MORE MONEY
AND The Mars Volta's newest single. Yummy prog.
Long time no post as usual.
I'm not going to bore you with what I've been up to (nothing) since I moved back home.
On a puffy note my wisdom teeth were all up in mah mouf making a fuss so I had them removed. Only my left cheek is swollen so don't call me a chipmunk. Looks like I'm chewing tobacoo.
Left puffy cheek
Not so much
Oh, and since it's good Friday I'll add this one too. I found it while trying to look for baseball players with chewing tobacoo cheeks
I'm not going to bore you with what I've been up to (nothing) since I moved back home.
On a puffy note my wisdom teeth were all up in mah mouf making a fuss so I had them removed. Only my left cheek is swollen so don't call me a chipmunk. Looks like I'm chewing tobacoo.
Left puffy cheek
Not so much
Oh, and since it's good Friday I'll add this one too. I found it while trying to look for baseball players with chewing tobacoo cheeks
I'm in another serious funk. Actually. I'm always in a funk, but it's getting seriously. I think it's mostly due to how much I've been working at my job as of late. I'm supposed to be part time, but I've had one day off in the past ten days. The stress is starting to get to me.
The store has been busier than normal since classes started in the past two weeks. It didn't seem this bad last semester since there were more people working then and I only worked 3 days a week due to school. Now I'm not even in school. I couldn't afford it. I basically have to low of a gpa to receive financial aid. That's how low I am. I wish i was still in school and that I gave a shit about it. My skills are mediocre. I'm mediocre.
I dont want to give up drawing or art. Actually I'd like to keep myself from the world and draw all day,but that's completely out of the question when I have work and friends who demand so much of my time. People drain me, but then again everything else does.
My head always hurts. A few around me say it's because I think and worry too much. I do. About everything.
Fuck me. I feel like such a waste.
The store has been busier than normal since classes started in the past two weeks. It didn't seem this bad last semester since there were more people working then and I only worked 3 days a week due to school. Now I'm not even in school. I couldn't afford it. I basically have to low of a gpa to receive financial aid. That's how low I am. I wish i was still in school and that I gave a shit about it. My skills are mediocre. I'm mediocre.
I dont want to give up drawing or art. Actually I'd like to keep myself from the world and draw all day,but that's completely out of the question when I have work and friends who demand so much of my time. People drain me, but then again everything else does.
My head always hurts. A few around me say it's because I think and worry too much. I do. About everything.
Fuck me. I feel like such a waste.
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