sinnersaurus

The pain lingered through the righteousness of my soul
It beat me down like fire on coal
It brought me to my knees in the blistering cold
It showed me hurt that I have never once known
I fought back to keep my head held high
Hoping and praying that I could learn to fly
So that I could leap and soar my way out
But I knew in my heart without a doubt
Such a thing would never yet come
My last hope was to get up and run
I leaped through the snow and ran as fast as I could
Only to find out my legs had given in where I stood
I fought against the pain it brought
Trying to remember what I had been taught
Only to figure out my memory had disappeared
Along with you which was what I always feared
I dare not take a chance of moving
For I could end up losing
But I did anyway
And now I must say
It brought me great happiness to say
That I don't love you in that way
The way I used to a few weeks back
I've freed my soul of all your control
It feels great to be on my own
As though I had flown
Because being without you no longer feels like death
But instead it feels like a deep breath
A deep breath of soft cool air
And going back to you is something I wouldn't dare!

Written December 2011