JEEZZZZZZZZE US.. Seriously. I hate this.. I hate having to vent about things and having things to vent about.
I saw my mom earlier this month. She is progressing. But I think that she has some sort of depression (even before this happened due to a car wreck) and it's stuck in her head that she is going to be so dysfunctional that it's making her dysfunctional. She has a constant migraine which is normal after this kind of brain trauma but she doesn't seem to get that the migraine is causing double vision and all kinds of other things. No, it has to be something else. Something more severe. Which it isn't and I had to tell her that she has to get a grip on herself and have a better attitude. Because I now have no self esteem left. I am stuttering around new people and unable to speak up. And I am half way funny now.
AND because my brother was diagnosed with cancer on Wednesday. He has a non-hogdkins lymphoma in his abdomen. He starts chemo next week hopefully. He's 25... 25.. The growth has made him not eat (he's a big boy, 280) and tired. Chemo every 3 weeks for 6 hours at a time. Fingers crossed. He has a good outlook on this working and luckily he will get STD and LTD as well as the treatment only costing 750.
For some reason I feel like my family is cursed. It's so strange. My mom's half sister was kidnapped and killed in the 70's (at 5 years old). My uncle was murder in 2001. 4 out of the 5 kids that were living to teenage years are addicted to drugs of some sort. My mom is the only one that is not. She does have a serial outlook on marriage, like my grandma
. My father is MR. Fucking Craptaculor and is my mom's dad. . and then all this. And I guess because it's the web you wouldn't know it, but I walk around with a fucking grin on my face everywhere in public. To the point that people who think they know me think that I am so fucking adjusted. It's hard to be adjusted every fucking day.
And I hate my job. Firstly, I think that the HR person or the...
I saw my mom earlier this month. She is progressing. But I think that she has some sort of depression (even before this happened due to a car wreck) and it's stuck in her head that she is going to be so dysfunctional that it's making her dysfunctional. She has a constant migraine which is normal after this kind of brain trauma but she doesn't seem to get that the migraine is causing double vision and all kinds of other things. No, it has to be something else. Something more severe. Which it isn't and I had to tell her that she has to get a grip on herself and have a better attitude. Because I now have no self esteem left. I am stuttering around new people and unable to speak up. And I am half way funny now.
AND because my brother was diagnosed with cancer on Wednesday. He has a non-hogdkins lymphoma in his abdomen. He starts chemo next week hopefully. He's 25... 25.. The growth has made him not eat (he's a big boy, 280) and tired. Chemo every 3 weeks for 6 hours at a time. Fingers crossed. He has a good outlook on this working and luckily he will get STD and LTD as well as the treatment only costing 750.
For some reason I feel like my family is cursed. It's so strange. My mom's half sister was kidnapped and killed in the 70's (at 5 years old). My uncle was murder in 2001. 4 out of the 5 kids that were living to teenage years are addicted to drugs of some sort. My mom is the only one that is not. She does have a serial outlook on marriage, like my grandma
And I hate my job. Firstly, I think that the HR person or the...
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