I know. I again fell off, and I didn't write about Africa (yet). I actually think about it quite often, but each time I sit down, my own version of ADD yanks me to a million different other things to do before laying me down for some dream-heavy rest. It will come, so apologies if you are later confused about my non-chronological retelling of things.
Work has been great, in a weird and not quite explainable way. I've been getting into a groove, and by groove I do not mean schedule or rhythm at all. I mean, I've been hustling and then collapsing, but the good thing is, while in collapse, I have done enough great things on the right track that I look back at it and have a good track record with myself. So then, I get back up again and do it some more. And love it.
Working for oneself is so rewarding. I wish it was immediately more financially so, but I likely always will.
I've been in love with work and in love with seeing my lovely friends through travel and functions for work. I've almost forgotten about love love, not quite, but enough where I've not even had it pop up on my radar in any sort of way. I watched some romantic movies this weekend and was reminded of it though. Not in a bad way, and not in a terribly yearning way, but in a deep-down, heartfelt yank way that I told myself I am indeed ready and have no idea where this is coming from or where it is going, but I am ready for love.
In the shower earlier, I also stared at the shower curtain and just thought, "I don't know how, but it will probably be way more rewarding than it is hard, and great things come with risk and discomfort."
I don't know what started all that, but hey, that's what there is.
Also, I have no immediate plans of pursuing these thoughts that have struck me, and I am ok with that. In time, my dears, in time.
We had a family night group reunion tonight, and I was so struck by how much I love and care for this group. I was also struck by what a great time we have all had together and it is such an end of an era as people have slowly moved away and continue to do so. Made me realize I like where I am.
No plans of leaving for permanence. But life never really goes according to what we have planned in the back of our heads, does it?
love to you all,
S
Work has been great, in a weird and not quite explainable way. I've been getting into a groove, and by groove I do not mean schedule or rhythm at all. I mean, I've been hustling and then collapsing, but the good thing is, while in collapse, I have done enough great things on the right track that I look back at it and have a good track record with myself. So then, I get back up again and do it some more. And love it.
Working for oneself is so rewarding. I wish it was immediately more financially so, but I likely always will.
I've been in love with work and in love with seeing my lovely friends through travel and functions for work. I've almost forgotten about love love, not quite, but enough where I've not even had it pop up on my radar in any sort of way. I watched some romantic movies this weekend and was reminded of it though. Not in a bad way, and not in a terribly yearning way, but in a deep-down, heartfelt yank way that I told myself I am indeed ready and have no idea where this is coming from or where it is going, but I am ready for love.
In the shower earlier, I also stared at the shower curtain and just thought, "I don't know how, but it will probably be way more rewarding than it is hard, and great things come with risk and discomfort."
I don't know what started all that, but hey, that's what there is.
Also, I have no immediate plans of pursuing these thoughts that have struck me, and I am ok with that. In time, my dears, in time.
We had a family night group reunion tonight, and I was so struck by how much I love and care for this group. I was also struck by what a great time we have all had together and it is such an end of an era as people have slowly moved away and continue to do so. Made me realize I like where I am.
No plans of leaving for permanence. But life never really goes according to what we have planned in the back of our heads, does it?
love to you all,
S
"Often, what seems an impossible climb is just a staircase without the steps drawn in."
- Robert Brault
- Robert Brault
i changed one of my profile pics. I look different with different haircuts, and since mine change so frequently, I look different pretty quickly. So I thought I'd keep it relevant on here. For those are don't want to go look, here's the current hair:
In other news. . . I've been home for a week and it's been great. It's been weird because I finally have time to catch up on all this office stuff and to stay on top of new stuff coming in to handle, yet I was the least productive I could have imagined for most of the week. Part of me is disappointed in me, part of me is understanding that I needed to just chill and recuperate, and part of me doesn't quite know what to make of it all. I'm just continually reminding myself not to be hard on myself, to learn, to grow, to take it a step and day at a time, and know that what I put in is what I get out.
Back to travel again, although it barely seems like I stopped. A week in VA, where I have plans to hit the hotel gym a bunch cause I don't know what else I really want to do there. Then Atlanta (again), which I think will be fun.
In other news, I've been going back and forth and am more conscious of body image recently. I think perhaps not being on here as much leaves me in my industry aka the fashion world and with all the skinny people and image keeping up included in it. I've been looking at pictures of recent weeks and days when I was feeling confident in appearance are not translating the same to when I see the picture. I'm not feeling up to it to lose a whole bunch of weight or something right now, but that may be my next push. It's kind of bothering me, but with all else going on, it's not registering as urgent enough to address right now. Not yet.
Anyway, a lovely weekend to you all. And don't forget to smile. (Go ahead, do it now.
)
xxo
S
In other news. . . I've been home for a week and it's been great. It's been weird because I finally have time to catch up on all this office stuff and to stay on top of new stuff coming in to handle, yet I was the least productive I could have imagined for most of the week. Part of me is disappointed in me, part of me is understanding that I needed to just chill and recuperate, and part of me doesn't quite know what to make of it all. I'm just continually reminding myself not to be hard on myself, to learn, to grow, to take it a step and day at a time, and know that what I put in is what I get out.
Back to travel again, although it barely seems like I stopped. A week in VA, where I have plans to hit the hotel gym a bunch cause I don't know what else I really want to do there. Then Atlanta (again), which I think will be fun.
In other news, I've been going back and forth and am more conscious of body image recently. I think perhaps not being on here as much leaves me in my industry aka the fashion world and with all the skinny people and image keeping up included in it. I've been looking at pictures of recent weeks and days when I was feeling confident in appearance are not translating the same to when I see the picture. I'm not feeling up to it to lose a whole bunch of weight or something right now, but that may be my next push. It's kind of bothering me, but with all else going on, it's not registering as urgent enough to address right now. Not yet.
Anyway, a lovely weekend to you all. And don't forget to smile. (Go ahead, do it now.
)xxo
S
