Sometimes I feel like it was all out of my control. Never trusting, never believing never allowing oneself to let go and to accept love is a heartwrenching thing.

I read the Foreward to JONATHAN SHAW's new book Narcisa which was released on Heartworm Press last night and it hit me like a ton of Bricks. I have never been much of a reader but I have been skipping around from different parts of the book and I am slowly becoming intrigued with Shaw's life. EVeryone should Check it out.

Foreward: By Lydia Lunch

"You can;t save anyone from themselves. You will lose everything by attempting to play savior.
You will never heal the wounded. You cannot repair the damage already done by selfish parents, VICIOUS EX_LOVERS, child molesters, tyrants, poverty, depression or simple chemical imbalance.

You can;t undo psychic wounds, bandage old scars, kiss away ancient bruises.

You can;t make the pain go away. YOu can't shout down the voices in other people's heads. You can;t make anyone feel special. They will never feel beautiful enough, no matter how beautiful they are to you. They will never feel loved enough, no matter how much you adore them.

You will never be able to save the battered from battling back at a world they've grown to hate. They will always find a way to pick up where the bullies have left off. They will in turn become bullies. They will turn you into the enemy. They will Always find a new method in which to punish themselves. Thereby punishing you.

No matter how much you've convinced yourself that you have done absolutely everything in your power to prove your undying devotion, unfaltering commitment and unending encouragement, you will never be able to save a miserable bastard from themselves.............................."