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AUGUST 23, 2007 @ 11:36 PM | 20 COMMENTS


My life has officially gone to shit.

every female i've cared about in recent passed i've managed to offend.
and the ones from ancient passed are coming back to haunt me. just the other my ex IMed me to ask me if i'd still be at the college she was going to. why would she fucking care?

anyway,
it sucks.

i want to be in l.a. where no one knows me.
if my parents read that they'd be up my ass about how i've said that like 4 times before, but it's true.

it's hard to get rid of a reputation you're ashamed of when everyone you know
equates your being with it.

"Rylee the womanizing user manslut"

i've made some bad fucking mistakes in my past. doesn't mean i'm proud of them.

i just dont get it. why is a "relationship" so goddamn important.
i feel so pressured by some to get into one, i'm getting old, i have friends who're engaged already!! and here i am single.

the girls (that i care about) say to jump on in. my folks say to stay away. and i want both.

i want the single life without being tied down, cuz i hate the relationships i've had (nothing but bad, i'll leave the details to your imagination) and i'm afraid it's all i'll ever get. but at the same time, a relationship feels so safe.

so i feel pull in multiple directions.
am i the only one that this makes sense to?:
-new city
-new school
-new life
-need to find a job
-need to start a band
a relationship will just add more baggage and drama and i won't be able to give the one i love my full attention.

is that difficult to grasp? is that selfish? i don't know!! anymore. everytime i think i'm doing the right thing or saying the right thing i'm just offending someone i care about.

my once-silver tongue is a bit tarnished.

my views of right and wrong are all skewed thanks to recent exes, new interests and family all saying DIFFERENT things and i find it hard to think fo myself anymore. i keep harkening back to places i've been and old experiences to figure out how i should act now, and they're all WRONG. but the things i'm told now dont seem right either!

and part of me wants to say fucking i stand for what i stand for. and stick up for myself and be stubborn until i get what i want.

but the part of me thats been beaten down by old loves just wants to give in to make HER happy. to ease the anger of the wild beast. let her win so i could be with her.

i'm about to fucking snap and just turn into a stupid rockstar who if things wont go his way will just leave it behind. trouble is, i get attached to easily and have trouble leaving feelings behind.

and i dont know what to do anymore.
what's right whats wrong? and how much of a cold selfish asshole should i learn to be.
AUGUST 21, 2007 @ 07:45 AM | 2 COMMENTS


i need everyone's opinion, sooner rather than later cuz i need to set up an appointment

should i get crazy hair like this (on the right, both pix)?

(not sure if this one's working so i'll post another)

(second from the left in this pic)



something with bangs, but i can only spike not tease/backcomb it like this?





or something really straight forward and simple, and just a little different from what i have now like this?





need your opinion ASAP so i can figure out what to get and set up an appointment.
i'd personally like something that i can tease my hair and backcomb and make it huge, which is why i'm leaning towards option 1, but i want your opinion as well
AUGUST 18, 2007 @ 09:16 AM | 4 COMMENTS


RANT TIME --- You've been warned

I really hate that women get all the say in a sexual relationship. it's sexist and selfish, two things i'm VERY against.

Of course, that sentence in and of itself will make me sexist to most of the people this rant is directed too but that's cuz they're fucking imbeciles.

That said, here are a couple anecdotes illustration my point
i dated a girl for a year and got hand from her 3 times. If we didn't fuck (which we did, often i'll tell you) i didn't cum. at least not in her presence. Her "bad history with guys" made it so she was unwilling to give hand or head. I would give her oral for an hour, and then she would be done, and in no mood for sex, so she'd send me into her bathroom to jerk off, cuz she also hated the sight of male genitals (i swear she's gay)...

Where's the emotional and physically satisfying fairness in this? why teh fuck did i date someone so blindly selfish for over a year? Masochistic, i swear...

Second story:
i met a girl and she and i hit it off. We became fuck buddies and friends with hopes of more. one day she decided she was sick of being a "naughty girl" and swore of sexual activity of all sorts until she was in love. She told me to forget what we had done, the things she had done for with and to me, our emotions and just "be friends" cuz we were too far away for things to work and it was better that way.

From then on when we talked we'd argue, a lot. I'd make her cry and it was a huge mess. But still she kept trying and asking to have a long conversation with me, about nothing of important--yet claimed all i did was want sex.

my explanation: i think about sex when i'm horny, i'm a good conversationalist when i'm not (i have a one track mind when i'm horny, most guys do). But she just passed it off and said all i wanted was sex. So she wants me to forget everything i felt t owards her, and how turned on she made me whenever i saw her, so we could have a "nice conversation"...and then on top of that complains all i care about is sex.

now i think that's incredibly selfish. She wants me to push aside my basic human urges to converse with her, but she won't take 15 minutes to get me off cuz she's a "good girl now". it's bullshit. it's selfish to think i'm going to stop having urges just to talk to her.

Then last night i met a girl, on here.
really cool chick. too far away for anything emotional to happen (though as she says it, the emotional stuff already IS happening), and extremely beautiful. redhead, curves, great chest. just fucking stunning. but like every other messed up girl i attract (and am attracted to) she makes no sense, is indecisive and is fucking surprised to think someone could find her beautiful. her excuse is shyness. But she's fucking STUNNED when i tell her how amazing she is--like it's some miracle that someone on Earth could think this.

And i even want to show off for her on cam because i want to see her reaction and cuz i'm a manslut. Not to mention i like her. But she won't and she pauses her cam and runs away cuz she's "too shy" to see me naked. Okay, this makes no sense to me, and peeved, but respectful, i stop.

But the whole night she wears low cut open shirts or zipup hoodies and i'm sitting there DYING. But she's also too shy to do anything for me. eventually the shirt comes off and she walks around the house shirtless. As lovely as it is she thinks this solves everything. It just makes me even more frustrated. so now i cant even show off for her, let alone see her naked. This stunningly beautiful woman who's literally teasing me over here but is too daft to realize it.

I tell her this, and as per usual, she's fucking stunned. How could i be turned on by someone as ugly as her (this is after i tell her coutless times how beautiful she is). And i tell her just relax, have some fun, enjoy the conversation and we'll have some safe mindless fun, but she "can't do it" (more like won't). she can't for a minute just let go of her inhibitions because she's too scared of the world. In turn i'm left feeling stupid for wanting to show off for her, frustrated cuz i can't get off, and helpless cuz i can't get her to see how beautiful she is. like i'm the first guy who's ever told her this.

The night ends with me telling her the above stories to get her to see that i'm sick of women being able to have the final word in everything. That's not friendship let alone love. what happened to "do something for each other". i sat there all night making her laugh and smile (something which she thansk me profusely for cuz she hadn't in a while) yet she's too "complicated" to be able to say what she wants.

then THIS MORNING i tell her i'm gonna go take a shower and teh firsst words out of her mouth: take the cam in!

WHAT THE FUCK. MAKE UP YOUR MIND. DO YOU OR DO YOU NOT WANT TO SEE ME!?
"i'm...complicated...it's complicated. i'm sorry"

what the fuck ever...

[/Rant]

(more on stupid fucking societal double standards later)

AUGUST 1, 2007 @ 01:28 AM | 1 COMMENT


So i recorded a new song.
a cover of Marillion's "The Uninvited Guest"

you should all check it out at
My Music Myspace ARRR!!!
JULY 22, 2007 @ 07:21 PM | NO COMMENTS


Is all the columnist can do on here bitch about Republicans?

we get it, they suck.

SHUT UP ALREADY
JULY 18, 2007 @ 08:23 AM | 2 COMMENTS


is it mid-september yet?
i want to be out in L.A. i wanna stop worrying about packing,
and if i'm going to find an apartment.

i'm sick of my parents nagging me, and this is stressing THEM out too so they argue more
and my mom drinks more

and i st ill need money. i'm signed up to THREE temp agencies and only been sent out on one job.
may be around 700$ which is good, but its not gonna get me far in L.A. where frivolous spending is concerned.

my dad may buy my old keyboard from me cuz he wants to learn to play so that's another 500$/550$, which is also good...but still.

i just want this summer to be over with.
it's the must stressful, depressing, lonely, unfulfilling summer of my life.
i want it to end
JUNE 25, 2007 @ 06:47 PM | 7 COMMENTS


I FUCKING HATE LIFE...
well at least employment


okay. so i went to the orientation at my new job. started filling out paperwork, then the manager said "so you're going off to school in the fall, huh?" and i said iwas and that was that. i continued my paperwork and she came back and said "i hate to be the bearer of bad news. but for some reason the lady you were hired by told us you'd be here till january. i dunno why she said that but unfortunately we're not looking for people for the summer...sooo you're un-hired"

what...
thefuck.

hey look kiddies. once again, i have NO JOB!
JUNE 21, 2007 @ 11:42 AM | 2 COMMENTS


I FUCKING GOT IN!
I'M GOING TO MI
I'M GOING TO BE LIVING IN HOLLYWEIRD

AND I'M FUCKING STOKED

[/capslock rampage]

When i get out there, i hope to make a trashy horrorpunk band, in the vein of the misfits, wednesday thirteen, and other such bands. here're some lyrics i'm working on. tell me what you think:

Undead Sex Symbol Wannabe

A Sexy smile,
And a gorgeous ass,
A Brilliant face,
And a body to match,
Fantastic eyes,
And long hair too,
Now now baby,
Lets talk about you.

I am great,
I'm king of the world,
Sex object to every boy and girl,
I'm a god,
And you worship me,
I'm an undead sex symbol wannabe.

Perfect make-up,
A smell so fine,
Great dress sense,
That's mine mine mine,
Loving and romantic? HA!
Can't you see?
Everybody wishes
they were fucking me.

I am great,
I'm king of the world,
Sex object to every boy and girl,
I'm a god,
And you worship me,
I'm an undead sex symbol wannabe.

Everyone wants to fuck me,
I'm a sex-machine from the cemetery,
Everyone wants to be my slave,
I'm a sex-god from the open grave,
sex-god from the open grave
Oh yeah!

I am great,
I'm king of the world,
Sex object to every boy and girl,
I'm a god,
And you worship me,
I'm an undead sex symbol wannabe.
undead sex symbol wannabe

Someone Else's Skin

I find you lying in the black of night.
Our hearts were racing to the tune of time..
I've got a halo of enemies around my head.

Your flesh was crawling
As we were touching
My mind was numbing
And that's not enough
I am running
defying gravity
I'm a stalker
Pacing through the dark.

The scent of your sin…
Made me melt from within
A voice calling out for me
to begin
I can feel the stitching
I am itching…
In someone else's skin.

I find you lying in the black of night.
Our hearts were racing to the tune of time..
I've got a halo of enemies around my head.

Your flesh was crawling
As we were touching
My mind was numb
but that's not enough
I am running..
Launching through gravity…
I am tasting a different side of me…

The scent of your sin…
Made me melt from within
A voice calling out for me
to begin
I can feel the stitching
I am itching…
In someone else's skin.

Your razor sharp teeth cutting through my heart.
My life..
Was rotted to the core

I am running
my teeth are grating
I'm alive
And now there's more waiting.

The scent of your sin…
Made me melt from within
A voice calling out for me
to begin
I can feel the stitching
I am itching…
In someone else's skin.

these next two are works-in-progress

Toe Tag, You're It

We're always here together
but we never get along
I am always better, babe,
but you are never wrong

you bitch at me for so long
that my face is turning blue
all I want's to get some ass
so what's there left to do

Toe Tag, Toe Tag
Fucker, you're it
I'm sick of all your bitching
how you're sick of all my shit
Toe Tag, Toe Tag
we wish each other dead
I wanna take a fucking gun
and put it to your head

Corporate Whore

I love cash and I can't deny
it feels real good when there's shit to buy
So all you stupid fucking hippies can suck my dick
cuz I can't get enough of it

I got money burning holes in my pocket
and I just want more

I'm a Corporate
whore, whore
I'm a Corporate
whore, whore
I'm a Corporate whore
the very kind you adore

the follow two are just titles i came up with.
no lyrics as of yet


Grave Mistake -- about a guy who goes to dig up his dead gf's corpse so he can fuck her and digs up the wrong grave

Sexy Predator -- an ode to the world's lack of attractive female serial killers

ps--I GOT IN!!
JUNE 20, 2007 @ 10:20 PM | 1 COMMENT


Today's Update:
it's been a while, but until yesterday, not a fuckload happened.

here's the update--
1.) Went for an interview at Friendly's today. she just had to check some references (i didn't think they actually did that!) and i call her tomorrow to find out if i got the job or not. It looks good though
2.) Saw Wednesday 13 and the 69 eyes last night. one of the best shows i've ever been to. There was a cool opening band called Night Kills the Day. do a myspace music search for 'em. Hot fuckin' lead singer. Cool guy, spent some time w/ him after his set
3.) Just watched all 80 episodes of Prom Queen, an online teen drama/soap/mystery/thriller www.promqueentv.com has all the eps. check it out. you WON'T be disappointed
JUNE 9, 2007 @ 11:32 PM | 12 COMMENTS


Let's say I break into your house

A lady wrote the best letter in the Editorials
in ages!!! It explains things better than all
the b.s. you hear on TV.

Her point:

Recently large demonstrations have taken place
across the country protesting the fact that Congress
is finally addressing the issue of illegal immigration.

Certain people are angry that
the US might protect its own
borders, might make it harder
to sneak into this country and,
once here, to stay indefinitely.
Let me see if I correctly understand
the thinking behind these protests.
Let's say I break into your house.
Let's say that when you discover
me in your house, you insist that I leave.
But I say, "I've made all
the beds and washed the
dishes and did the laundry
and swept the floors. I've
done all the things you don't
like to do. I'm hard-working
and honest
(except for when I broke into your house).

According to the protesters:
You are Required to let me stay in your house
You are Required to add me to your family's insurance plan
You are Required to Educate my kids
You are Required to Provide other benefits to me & to my family
(my husband will do all of your yard work because
he is also hard-working and honest, except for that
breaking in part).

If you try to call the police or force me out,
I will call my friends who will picket your
house carrying signs that proclaim my
RIGHT to be there.

It's only fair, after all, because you have
a nicer house than I do, and I'm just
trying to better myself. I'm a hard-working
and honest, person, except for well,
you know, I did break into your house
And what a deal it is for me!!!

I live in your house, contributing only a
fraction of the cost of my keep, and
there is nothing you can do about it
without being accused of cold,
uncaring, selfish, prejudiced, and
bigoted behavior.

Oh yeah, I DEMAND that you to learn
MY LANGUAGE!!! so you can
communicate with me.

Why can't people see how ridiculous
this is?! Only in America
if you agree, pass it on ( in English).
Share it if you see the value of it.

If not blow it off.........
along with your future Social Security
funds, and a lot of other things.
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