ok. this is it. tomorrow i officially begin my helldiet. i've done this before & it worked wonderfully, it was just miserable, that's all.
i weighed the options like this: i can keep losing weight slowly and feel all impatient about how long it's taking & such... or i can go for about 2mths & lose almost all of it and be miserable.... 6+mths of VEERRRYYY slow loss making me anxious, or getting it over in 2-3mths of misery?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
2mths. then we'll see what adjustments i need from there.
i feel pretty now, i'm not feeling "fat & ugly" or anything weird like that... i just want my old body back... i don't want to see a reminder of my military time everytime i look in the mirror.
and thank GOD i'm not one of those women that loses their curves when they lose weight... mine just get more accentuated...
like our some of our other gifted gals here, i'm one of those chicks that at no matter what size have plenty of hips, butt & boobs.
so here i go. i did it before & lost about 20lbs in a month just by eating very, very specifically & exercising a LOT (but always in my comfort zone... but not something most people can handle, i have a very adaptive body). didn't gain it back, just haven't done it again since then because it takes such dedication.
one thing i'm lucky about regarding my weight & losing it: i don't have to worry about regaining due to restarting bad habits. i didn't gain the weight through poor diet or exercise, but by unusual circumstances... so when normal, i stay exactly at whereever i am -whether before or after losing some. it's just the damn losing that's hard, specially cuz of meds.
writing all this down to put me in the beginning frame of mind & to have it out for the world to see -pride & all that to push me to stick to it lol.
after step aerobics tomorrow i gotta go to the commissary & get me supplies so i have no excuse to stray
WOOOHOOOOOOOOO HERE WE GO!
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i weighed the options like this: i can keep losing weight slowly and feel all impatient about how long it's taking & such... or i can go for about 2mths & lose almost all of it and be miserable.... 6+mths of VEERRRYYY slow loss making me anxious, or getting it over in 2-3mths of misery?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
2mths. then we'll see what adjustments i need from there.
i feel pretty now, i'm not feeling "fat & ugly" or anything weird like that... i just want my old body back... i don't want to see a reminder of my military time everytime i look in the mirror.
and thank GOD i'm not one of those women that loses their curves when they lose weight... mine just get more accentuated...
like our some of our other gifted gals here, i'm one of those chicks that at no matter what size have plenty of hips, butt & boobs.
so here i go. i did it before & lost about 20lbs in a month just by eating very, very specifically & exercising a LOT (but always in my comfort zone... but not something most people can handle, i have a very adaptive body). didn't gain it back, just haven't done it again since then because it takes such dedication.
one thing i'm lucky about regarding my weight & losing it: i don't have to worry about regaining due to restarting bad habits. i didn't gain the weight through poor diet or exercise, but by unusual circumstances... so when normal, i stay exactly at whereever i am -whether before or after losing some. it's just the damn losing that's hard, specially cuz of meds.
writing all this down to put me in the beginning frame of mind & to have it out for the world to see -pride & all that to push me to stick to it lol.
after step aerobics tomorrow i gotta go to the commissary & get me supplies so i have no excuse to stray
WOOOHOOOOOOOOO HERE WE GO!
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