Oh interweb, how I have missed thee.
Been more or less living with the lady since August, when I was done with Target for good. She's been short on cash and couldn't get her wheels registered and insured and fixed and all that on time so I've let her sort of 'have' my van. It's not all bad. It's not like I've got much of anywhere to be, and I want to do all I can to help her out. Yes, I think I'd do her more good if I found myself another job and got my whole plan in motion with the wedding and the babies and the happily ever after stuff but I don't want to be partially responsible if she loses her job.
Sooo since I've been at her apartment I haven't had access to the wonderful web, which is indeed sad. Sad because I do the majority of my job searching online, and sad because it's difficult to keep up with all the facebooks and the e-mails and the SG. I'm in limbo really. It's not super exciting but it's not terrible either. I'm just getting anxious. I want to work, I want to make something of myself, problem is I really couldn't tell you what that is. I know plenty of things I don't want to be, but as to a real goal I'm lost. Fuckin minimum wage mercenary. Not proud of it, but alas here I stand.
I haven't been playing my bass nearly as much as I would like to. Amp's been on the way out for a while now and between that and the whole not being home thing I've been slipping. I hate that. I hate obvious backwards motion. I hate watching myself become less. I'll get over it and get back to where I was making progress but it's gonna be a bit. Could possibly be a new band in the works too. Not sure yet but I know some folks looking for a bassist and I'm gonna go check it out soon enough.
I'm disgusted by what's happening to the country I live in. It makes me quite angry to watch our so-called leaders tear our Constitution to shreds and spit on everything we were built upon. I just hope I'm there the day it all blows up in their faces. Fuckin tards. That's all.
This isn't really new and I may have mentioned it before but there's this band I've been into for a bit called Sybreed. Check them out. They are awesome.
Some random thoughts in no apparent order.
I've made friends with a cat.
I went hunting for the first time, and didn't see a damn thing.
I broke out my robe today.
I got new Shadowrun books!
I watched all the commentaries and documentaries on the LOTR trilogy finally.
Re-reading the Song of Ice and Fire books, chicks ruin everything.
I think I have cancer.
I may have realized in some cases anger is futile.
Despite this realization, I'm still mad.
I wish I spent more time naked.
I really hate not being in total control.
Ok done now. Going to play Fallout3 until I pass out. Laters.
Been more or less living with the lady since August, when I was done with Target for good. She's been short on cash and couldn't get her wheels registered and insured and fixed and all that on time so I've let her sort of 'have' my van. It's not all bad. It's not like I've got much of anywhere to be, and I want to do all I can to help her out. Yes, I think I'd do her more good if I found myself another job and got my whole plan in motion with the wedding and the babies and the happily ever after stuff but I don't want to be partially responsible if she loses her job.
Sooo since I've been at her apartment I haven't had access to the wonderful web, which is indeed sad. Sad because I do the majority of my job searching online, and sad because it's difficult to keep up with all the facebooks and the e-mails and the SG. I'm in limbo really. It's not super exciting but it's not terrible either. I'm just getting anxious. I want to work, I want to make something of myself, problem is I really couldn't tell you what that is. I know plenty of things I don't want to be, but as to a real goal I'm lost. Fuckin minimum wage mercenary. Not proud of it, but alas here I stand.
I haven't been playing my bass nearly as much as I would like to. Amp's been on the way out for a while now and between that and the whole not being home thing I've been slipping. I hate that. I hate obvious backwards motion. I hate watching myself become less. I'll get over it and get back to where I was making progress but it's gonna be a bit. Could possibly be a new band in the works too. Not sure yet but I know some folks looking for a bassist and I'm gonna go check it out soon enough.
I'm disgusted by what's happening to the country I live in. It makes me quite angry to watch our so-called leaders tear our Constitution to shreds and spit on everything we were built upon. I just hope I'm there the day it all blows up in their faces. Fuckin tards. That's all.
This isn't really new and I may have mentioned it before but there's this band I've been into for a bit called Sybreed. Check them out. They are awesome.
Some random thoughts in no apparent order.
I've made friends with a cat.
I went hunting for the first time, and didn't see a damn thing.
I broke out my robe today.
I got new Shadowrun books!
I watched all the commentaries and documentaries on the LOTR trilogy finally.
Re-reading the Song of Ice and Fire books, chicks ruin everything.
I think I have cancer.
I may have realized in some cases anger is futile.
Despite this realization, I'm still mad.
I wish I spent more time naked.
I really hate not being in total control.
Ok done now. Going to play Fallout3 until I pass out. Laters.