age: 39 (Aug 31, 1973)
MEMBER SINCE: July 2004
occupation: Emotional Timetraveler. I constantly am rewinding my past to see what I could have done better...oh you meant IRL? Boring Support job in law enforcement, aspiring entrepreneur.
heroes: Zhao Yun
stats: 6', Black Hair, Brown Eyes, impossible demeanor
i lost my virginity: Never. Not physically at least. Emotionally, yes.
most humbling moment: I keep having to edit this line so I'm just leaving these words here as a placeholder.
sign: FRAGILE: Handle with care.
into: Everything in my Hobbies, Vices, 5 Things and evidently SGs. ...and maybe you! ;) I'm currently stuck in a job that pays well but surrounds me with knotheads, to put it mildly. I'm into starting my own company soon that has to do with keeping music and media safe. I'm also trying to improve myself constantly as my personality in real life is a bit rough around the edges. Oh, and my FREEDOM.
crush: I no longer have a heart with which to feel for someone else. It's been pulled apart by the strings... In the meantime, my proxies are Brianna Frost and Tabitha James
makes me sad: Maliciousness, hypocrisy and poverty. Religions mess me up too. Also, laziness and apathy towards the world's issues...the fact that in this world, once a person gets randomly victimized by something not their own fault, they continually keep getting keep getting victimized. I'm not a "victim" but I keep seeing it in the world.
makes me happy: Throwing off the shackles of my environment. Accomplishing more than I was ever supposed to. Sticking to my personal code of honor especially in the face of great difficulty. Good spelling and grammar. Learning new things from interesting people. Just people in general. Oh, and seeing animals be free in the wild, not as pets. And I still love my country.
fantasy: None, for the moment...I guess my fantasy would be for me to become emotionally able to have one again.
For the last few months, nearly a year, I've had no computer so I've been posting on my work cel or my work laptop...thus I keeps it short. They don't pay me to browse pr0n so I gotta sneak it in!
But now I have a new monster of a computer.
And I've been on it heavily now playing Diablo 3...I've owned it for a year but couldn't play because my last comp couldn't run it. And while I'm doing that, I've stopped buying and playing Magic. But that's ok because my good cards will still be good later and I have a ton of great stuff hoarded...and I'm not spending money. I'll be back to MTG later.
That's the good news.
The bad news is that a lot of the photog pics I took are on that dead hard drive of the old comp. That drive is sitting in my freezer now, double-bagged, waiting for the day I buy a SATA USB hard drive caddy to plug it in...hopefully the freezing will get the HD to work for a few minutes so I can copy off my good stuffs!
But now I'm back.
The last few months coincidentally, I've been in a permanent funk. Like really bad. Just couldn't see the point of ANYTHING and I felt like I totally spent myself for very little...like I had tried so hard to be good to so many people in my life and yet when I needed someone, I feel I have no one.
Rather than stay this way though, I've decided to make a change. And we do it in STYLE. First thing's first, rather than dwell on old, faded or broken relationships, it's time to make new friends. On SG. And I've already made a couple and I'm hoping to meet one of them soon, visiting from Mexico.
And hopefully I can start replying to more journals. I read journals but I didn't post. That should change with the new comp...at least it should happen monthly.
- R
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