I have transformed.

Three ordinary words; they are inadequate to explain. Let me try a better explanation...

I joined this site about four months ago. The waitress that told me about it was young and beautiful. She had a handful of piercings and a tattoo or two, and her personality was genuine and unassuming. I checked the site out and found out that "suicide girls" are "basically girls with tattoos and/or piercings". I have neither tattoos nor piercings. I was just never into that. So, I was skeptical about how interesed I would be in this website. After all, I've never really understood the fascination with tatoos or piercings. Why do that to one's body? Will it be regretted in middle age or old age? Why, why, why?

Just four months later, I am unable to find the words to explain my love for this site and "the suicide girls". ALL of them. I've come to understand that this site is not simply a showplace for nude girls with gaudy tattoos and weird body piercings. I've come to understand that this site is a portal into the beauty, personality, intelligence and understanding of women. I've come to understand that every woman is beautiful, albeit unique...never in the same way as another.

First or all, the photographers for the suicide girls are amazingly talented. I have never seen such crisp, emotional, wonderful photography. Every set seems to capture a feeling or a mood. I am amazed at how consistently this is done. The photographers are top notch. Rather than just taking pictures of women in the nude, these photographers seem to capture the personality of each woman, or the emotion of the theme, or the specific area of beauty of each subject. These are not just photos. The women come alive in these photos. It's like I'm making friends with each one without them even knowing it.

Of course, the photographers can't take all of the credit. It's obvious that each suicide girl approaches the photo shoot seriously and with a purpose. The shoot can be fun and crazy, but it's because that's what she intends. Each girl gives so genuinely of herself. She jumps out of the photo and stirs something in my heart. It's like I'm learning to see for the first time, instead of just looking. I feel like I know each girl as she reveals her personality, or her mood, or her soul to me. It's a fantastic experience.

What amazes me most of all is that, previously, I never would have thought I'd be interested in a woman with tattoos or piercings. As I've already stated, I didn't understand the purpose, so I thought I'd never connect with such a woman. But, this experience has transformed me. I see such beauty and intelligence in these women. Certainly, there are those that don't stir any sexual desires; but, I still appreciate these girls for the beauty that is revealed. I appreciate their smiles, or their playfulness, or their lost eyes, or their scarred hearts. You see, all of things come alive in these photos. I can see them. And, equally obvious, there are those who stir blatent sexual desire (I'll withhold names for now). I am always amazed at the beauty of the feminine form; but, some of these girls just blow me away. I'll admit that I've visited porn sites and seen the naked beauty of some amazing women; but, no porn site can compare to the pure, infectious, beauty of some of the suicide girls on this site. Sometimes, I can do nothing but stare in awe, as I feel tears come to my eyes, and I am forever changed by the sheer beauty of what God had created before me. It's truly a joyous and emotional experience.

This site is not about nude girls with tattoos and/or piercings. This site is about the personality, intelligence, uniqueness, beauty and soul of women. It is a celebration of women...all women. And, it reveals over and over that all women are beautiful.

I have transformed.

Thank you suicide girls. You have made me a better person.