Life without illegal shit to be up to 6 days out of the week is fucking boring. The monotony is getting to me. everyday is more like the last. My existence is starting to resemble a computer program. Make a seperate array for each day of the week and plug in the pattern. Instead of having new exciting and dangerous things to do I exercise, shower, drink some tea, eat a snack, take my sleeping pill, do some yoga, go to sleep, wake up, brush my teeth, throw on some clothes, work, rinse, lather repeat. I think the boredom really is killing me. I don't know how to have life mild. I need risks, I need to hear my heart thundering in my ears for real, not because I'm jogging. I need to have sweaty palms with hundred dollar bills in them. This 9-5 life is not for me. fuck, I can't even strip right now, too fucking hot for people to be out and about. I want to live in my car and have nothing in my name again. Maybe starting class soon will be good for me, take my mind off some crap, toss some challenges my way to occupy my time. I think I'll just go to the shooting range and have some fun soon, blow off soem steam and a couple hundred rounds of ammo.

Life without illegal shit to be up to 6 days out of the week is fucking boring. The monotony is getting to me. everyday is more like the last. My existence is starting to resemble a computer program. Make a seperate array for each day of the week and plug in the pattern. Instead of having new exciting and dangerous things to do I exercise, shower, drink some tea, eat a snack, take my sleeping pill, do some yoga, go to sleep, wake up, brush my teeth, throw on some clothes, work, rinse, lather repeat. I think the boredom really is killing me. I don't know how to have life mild. I need risks, I need to hear my heart thundering in my ears for real, not because I'm jogging. I need to have sweaty palms with hundred dollar bills in them. This 9-5 life is not for me. fuck, I can't even strip right now, too fucking hot for people to be out and about. I want to live in my car and have nothing in my name again. Maybe starting class soon will be good for me, take my mind off some crap, toss some challenges my way to occupy my time. I think I'll just go to the shooting range and have some fun soon, blow off soem steam and a couple hundred rounds of ammo.