Well it has been 3 months since I was last on the site and I have to say that I have really missed it and all my friends on here. I never could find anyone to shoot a set with me and that makes me really sad since I wanted to be an SG one day but what can I do?
Anyways to update on where I'm at in life... It's just absolutely wonderful, it really is. I finally moved into a place with my man and while we have no furniture I couldn't be happier. I finally made a decision that I feel is fully right for me in regards to school, I just don't feel like whatever I'm looking for in life is going to be found through college. I'm absolutely miserable there and hate it, shouldn't I remotely enjoy the process at all or am I missing something?
I shaved my head and left a fringe of sorts in the front which is currently pink in color
this is the third time I've shaved and I miss having more hair so no more for the rest of the year!
ahhhhhh well I don't much else to say other than I need a shower and there's housework to be doing!
Anyways to update on where I'm at in life... It's just absolutely wonderful, it really is. I finally moved into a place with my man and while we have no furniture I couldn't be happier. I finally made a decision that I feel is fully right for me in regards to school, I just don't feel like whatever I'm looking for in life is going to be found through college. I'm absolutely miserable there and hate it, shouldn't I remotely enjoy the process at all or am I missing something?
I shaved my head and left a fringe of sorts in the front which is currently pink in color
this is the third time I've shaved and I miss having more hair so no more for the rest of the year! ahhhhhh well I don't much else to say other than I need a shower and there's housework to be doing!
Well I am back from my trip down to Florida and I am SO happy to be back home and with my sweet man again!
It had been 10years since I had moved away!
I was there for almost a week and it seriously almost killed me to be gone for so long, I was ready to go home after the first 2 days of being there. I stayed with my aunt and uncle down there and they basically chain smoke so my lungs are recovering from all the smoke I've been exposed to and I feel kinda poopy
They had 4 extremely cute chihuahuas that I was madly in love with!
Me and my stepmom went to the Lowry Park Zoo which is one of my favorite places to go there and then we went to Lowry park which IS my favorite place, we walked all over it and I took pictures of all the places that were special to me.
We also went to see my old house which was interesting it looks 10,000 times different than how I remember it. Then when it came time to go see my gramma I just couldn't do it, they said that her condition was a lot worse... that she wasn't eating and drinking and she was really small and frail. She has Alzheimer's disease and dementia. It had been 10 years since I saw her last, when she still remembered everyone but now she doesnt even remember her own children. I just couldn't go in there I had to go sit in the car and cry for a bit. My gramma was extremely special to me, I spent a lot of time living with her, and we share the same name. She had other grandchildren but I honestly think I was her favorite.... the whole thing just makes me really sad.
Well anyways I'm so very glad to be home now! I'll be editing the hell out of about 600 photos that I took!
It had been 10years since I had moved away!
I was there for almost a week and it seriously almost killed me to be gone for so long, I was ready to go home after the first 2 days of being there. I stayed with my aunt and uncle down there and they basically chain smoke so my lungs are recovering from all the smoke I've been exposed to and I feel kinda poopy
They had 4 extremely cute chihuahuas that I was madly in love with! Me and my stepmom went to the Lowry Park Zoo which is one of my favorite places to go there and then we went to Lowry park which IS my favorite place, we walked all over it and I took pictures of all the places that were special to me.
We also went to see my old house which was interesting it looks 10,000 times different than how I remember it. Then when it came time to go see my gramma I just couldn't do it, they said that her condition was a lot worse... that she wasn't eating and drinking and she was really small and frail. She has Alzheimer's disease and dementia. It had been 10 years since I saw her last, when she still remembered everyone but now she doesnt even remember her own children. I just couldn't go in there I had to go sit in the car and cry for a bit. My gramma was extremely special to me, I spent a lot of time living with her, and we share the same name. She had other grandchildren but I honestly think I was her favorite.... the whole thing just makes me really sad.
Well anyways I'm so very glad to be home now! I'll be editing the hell out of about 600 photos that I took!
Today is finally here..... I am just so so so very happy! I can't wait for the evening to get here because THAT'S WHEN MY MUFFIN WILL BE HERE FOR GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
No more leaving and not seeing each other for weeks.... I almost can't believe that this is actually happening; it all seemed so hopeless and unlikely in the beginning like looking back I can see all these little things that were just building blocks, an accumulation of events and actions that would end up to this one point but experiencing those events it didn't feel like we'd ever get this far. It boggles my mind to be honest, even though I can look at it all and process it, it still confounds me that it all happened and worked out that we could be together in the end. I'm not a believer in fate or destiny but it seems almost asinine to not when looking at the progression of it all.
*sigh I'm just beyond happy that it has worked out... I don't think I've ever been so purely and completely happy in my life and I know people say that a lot but, I truly mean it. Just thinking about everything in my life there has never been anything that has made me feel this way on such a scale. You know what, I think this whole thing has been the first time I have just acted on my true feelings and gut... I never do that, it's always in my head first and foremost but this time I went with what my feelings were saying.
Well that's all I've got for now as far as news goes and what not if anyone is still even reading these things... I've got some cleaning to do now my parents are slobs and I have to clean up after them oh joy /sarcasm
No more leaving and not seeing each other for weeks.... I almost can't believe that this is actually happening; it all seemed so hopeless and unlikely in the beginning like looking back I can see all these little things that were just building blocks, an accumulation of events and actions that would end up to this one point but experiencing those events it didn't feel like we'd ever get this far. It boggles my mind to be honest, even though I can look at it all and process it, it still confounds me that it all happened and worked out that we could be together in the end. I'm not a believer in fate or destiny but it seems almost asinine to not when looking at the progression of it all.
*sigh I'm just beyond happy that it has worked out... I don't think I've ever been so purely and completely happy in my life and I know people say that a lot but, I truly mean it. Just thinking about everything in my life there has never been anything that has made me feel this way on such a scale. You know what, I think this whole thing has been the first time I have just acted on my true feelings and gut... I never do that, it's always in my head first and foremost but this time I went with what my feelings were saying. Well that's all I've got for now as far as news goes and what not if anyone is still even reading these things... I've got some cleaning to do now my parents are slobs and I have to clean up after them oh joy /sarcasm
So I just wanted to let everyone know that my account expires Nov. 11 and that I currently have no plans of renewing my sub.
My activity on here has become almost nonexistent and I can't see any sense in spending money when I'm not doing anything on here. My chances at actually becoming an SG are slim at best with so much working against me-- no photographer and the site itself.
Well that's it really.
My activity on here has become almost nonexistent and I can't see any sense in spending money when I'm not doing anything on here. My chances at actually becoming an SG are slim at best with so much working against me-- no photographer and the site itself.
Well that's it really.
My god guys who here has been watching the coverage of E3.... *raises hand*
I have been geeking out all morning over it and scanning the G4 website reading reviews, watching videos, and just nerd-gasming all over the place!
These are the main games I am FREAKING OUT ABOUT!!!!!!
Fable 3, Fallout New Vegas, Bulletstorm, Dead Rising 2, Spiderman Shattered Dimensions, Ghost Recon
Future Soldier, MGS Rising, Little Big Planet 2, Starwars: The Old Republic......I am FOAMING at the mouth over them!!!!
Seriously there are some amazing games coming out and I want them all! I am really bummed that Epic Mickey and The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword is only going to be on the Wii I am SUCH a Zelda whore and am a bit sad that they say Wii only x_x not faiiiir! Portal 2 HOLY SHIT BATMAN it is sexy as hell, I got so giddy watching the gameplay video of it! Apparently they are going to make it for all consoles but the nifty thing is that with PS3 you can get it with steam so Portal 2 on the PS3 is going to get all the nifty updates just like it would on the PC... OMG heeheehee! I am kinda excited about Castlevania: Lords of Shadow but then I'm not too sure about it I am and always will be a die hard SOTN fan, I just prefer my castlevania to be a sidescroller but I'll give it a chance! Another thing I am SO very excited about is Sims 3 coming to the 360, I have it for my PC but damn I am excited about it!
*sigh I would give anything to go to E3, Comic Con San Diego, and Blizzcon in one year or at all! I wish I could be a booth babe but I'm not outgoing enough I'm too shy even though I think I'd have lots of fun I'd never make it through an audition lol
Oh yeah update on my tooth, well the thing that dentist put on my tooth was temporary and it fell off two days later -_- and apparently it'll cost between 500-3000 to get a cap put on it! Well the thing has grown on me and I kinda like it a bit, of course I'd give anything to have my old tooth back the way it was but that will never happen. I think that I'm going to see if a new dentist will just shape it and smooth it out so that it's not so rough edged.
I can't WAIT for June 23rd to get here!!! and the reason why is....... my muffin is moving back here for good!!!! We don't have to be apart anymore outside of work and what not! I am just so happy I can't even deal with it XD and I'm not sure of the exact date but eventually we'll move in together! I will never complain again without serious reason ^_^ hahahaha!!!! Oh dear I just get so giddy and and bubbly feeling when I start to think about it all! WOOOO 6 1/2 more days!!!! Sooo much sex and gaming is gonna go down hot nerd boy + hot nerd girl = happiest two people on Earth
Well, I'm gonna go clean my room up and watch some DBZ and then wait for the evening coverage of E3 to come on! Woop Woop!
Love ya guys! <3
I have been geeking out all morning over it and scanning the G4 website reading reviews, watching videos, and just nerd-gasming all over the place!
These are the main games I am FREAKING OUT ABOUT!!!!!!
Fable 3, Fallout New Vegas, Bulletstorm, Dead Rising 2, Spiderman Shattered Dimensions, Ghost Recon
Future Soldier, MGS Rising, Little Big Planet 2, Starwars: The Old Republic......I am FOAMING at the mouth over them!!!!
Seriously there are some amazing games coming out and I want them all! I am really bummed that Epic Mickey and The Legend of Zelda Skyward Sword is only going to be on the Wii I am SUCH a Zelda whore and am a bit sad that they say Wii only x_x not faiiiir! Portal 2 HOLY SHIT BATMAN it is sexy as hell, I got so giddy watching the gameplay video of it! Apparently they are going to make it for all consoles but the nifty thing is that with PS3 you can get it with steam so Portal 2 on the PS3 is going to get all the nifty updates just like it would on the PC... OMG heeheehee! I am kinda excited about Castlevania: Lords of Shadow but then I'm not too sure about it I am and always will be a die hard SOTN fan, I just prefer my castlevania to be a sidescroller but I'll give it a chance! Another thing I am SO very excited about is Sims 3 coming to the 360, I have it for my PC but damn I am excited about it!
*sigh I would give anything to go to E3, Comic Con San Diego, and Blizzcon in one year or at all! I wish I could be a booth babe but I'm not outgoing enough I'm too shy even though I think I'd have lots of fun I'd never make it through an audition lol
Oh yeah update on my tooth, well the thing that dentist put on my tooth was temporary and it fell off two days later -_- and apparently it'll cost between 500-3000 to get a cap put on it! Well the thing has grown on me and I kinda like it a bit, of course I'd give anything to have my old tooth back the way it was but that will never happen. I think that I'm going to see if a new dentist will just shape it and smooth it out so that it's not so rough edged.
I can't WAIT for June 23rd to get here!!! and the reason why is....... my muffin is moving back here for good!!!! We don't have to be apart anymore outside of work and what not! I am just so happy I can't even deal with it XD and I'm not sure of the exact date but eventually we'll move in together! I will never complain again without serious reason ^_^ hahahaha!!!! Oh dear I just get so giddy and and bubbly feeling when I start to think about it all! WOOOO 6 1/2 more days!!!! Sooo much sex and gaming is gonna go down hot nerd boy + hot nerd girl = happiest two people on Earth
Well, I'm gonna go clean my room up and watch some DBZ and then wait for the evening coverage of E3 to come on! Woop Woop!
Love ya guys! <3
So I totally broke off the bottom part of my top right middle tooth yesterday, I cried for an hour, pouted for the whole day moaning that I now looked like a troll, and now I'm just making fun of it XD
What happened was my face collided with Mr. Freeman's face and his teeth kicked my teeth's ass it sucked but at least it doesn't hurt now just feels weird. Anyways I'm going to the dentist tomorrow to get it filed and capped I guess that's what they do -_- I'm not excited about getting the shot though I effin HATE needles...
and then my muffin drew this on my leg today!
heehee two weeks he moves back here to the beach and I'm moving in with him! I am SO damn excited, it's really going to be great!
What happened was my face collided with Mr. Freeman's face and his teeth kicked my teeth's ass it sucked but at least it doesn't hurt now just feels weird. Anyways I'm going to the dentist tomorrow to get it filed and capped I guess that's what they do -_- I'm not excited about getting the shot though I effin HATE needles...
and then my muffin drew this on my leg today!
heehee two weeks he moves back here to the beach and I'm moving in with him! I am SO damn excited, it's really going to be great!x_x
omg guys I did it again! It's been like a frakin week since I last updated my blog ugh I am so damn slack!
Well these past 6 days have been glorious and I really wish they didn't end but there is nothing to be done about it so I won't pout!
So I totally hate suprises but I got the best one EVER wed. night!!! My muffin came down a day early I was so excited and happy that I freaking squealed like a little girl when I ran up to hug him XD Then we spent all the rest of the time until this afternoon today hanging out, snuggling, wrestling, romping, playing video games,and watching cartoons. I don't think you could have found a happier girl on this Earth!
So after some serious contemplation I think that I'm going to finish out my time at COA instead of transferring to Pitt and moving to Greenville. Moving there is taking me way too far out of my comfort zone all at once, I also don't know what the job situation is like there and a lot of my friends say it's crap there. At least here I've got a great paycheck and a steady job with the postal system. There is too much uncertainty in moving to Greenville with the job thing, not knowing the area at all, no vehicle, I could room with my old best friend but I think she's into partying which I'm not... I've decided that I'm going to stay here as much as I've hated on this place it's the only place I feel really comfortable with and almost like it's my home. I cried a little today when I thought about being so far away from the water it really hurt... the idea of being landlocked creeps me out a little.
I guess if everything works out I'll be rooming with my muffin! I'm pretty damn excited about it to be perfectly honest The reason why I wanted to move to Greenville was so I could get out of my parents house but I couldn't afford rent here on my own but now that it seems he's moving back to the beach I can stay here and have a reliable person to share rent with... huzzah everyone wins!
OH yeah and then my ex got back into town sunday evening... well today he sent me a FB message asking me if I wanted to talk. I was really nervous about it because I wasn't sure if I was walking right into a fight or not. Turns out he really did just want to talk so it all went fine and granted it was really weird things went well. He has certainly changed quite a bit since I last talked to him and I didn't really know what to do with it all. He def. grew as a person and matured a lot and I'm really happy for it, I had hoped that he would. So at least now things will be less awkward if we run into each other in some random social situation.
Well I'm sleepy got a rough day of work tomorrow!
omg guys I did it again! It's been like a frakin week since I last updated my blog ugh I am so damn slack!
Well these past 6 days have been glorious and I really wish they didn't end but there is nothing to be done about it so I won't pout!
So I totally hate suprises but I got the best one EVER wed. night!!! My muffin came down a day early I was so excited and happy that I freaking squealed like a little girl when I ran up to hug him XD Then we spent all the rest of the time until this afternoon today hanging out, snuggling, wrestling, romping, playing video games,and watching cartoons. I don't think you could have found a happier girl on this Earth!So after some serious contemplation I think that I'm going to finish out my time at COA instead of transferring to Pitt and moving to Greenville. Moving there is taking me way too far out of my comfort zone all at once, I also don't know what the job situation is like there and a lot of my friends say it's crap there. At least here I've got a great paycheck and a steady job with the postal system. There is too much uncertainty in moving to Greenville with the job thing, not knowing the area at all, no vehicle, I could room with my old best friend but I think she's into partying which I'm not... I've decided that I'm going to stay here as much as I've hated on this place it's the only place I feel really comfortable with and almost like it's my home. I cried a little today when I thought about being so far away from the water it really hurt... the idea of being landlocked creeps me out a little.
I guess if everything works out I'll be rooming with my muffin! I'm pretty damn excited about it to be perfectly honest
The reason why I wanted to move to Greenville was so I could get out of my parents house but I couldn't afford rent here on my own but now that it seems he's moving back to the beach I can stay here and have a reliable person to share rent with... huzzah everyone wins!OH yeah and then my ex got back into town sunday evening... well today he sent me a FB message asking me if I wanted to talk. I was really nervous about it because I wasn't sure if I was walking right into a fight or not. Turns out he really did just want to talk so it all went fine and granted it was really weird things went well. He has certainly changed quite a bit since I last talked to him and I didn't really know what to do with it all. He def. grew as a person and matured a lot and I'm really happy for it, I had hoped that he would. So at least now things will be less awkward if we run into each other in some random social situation.
Well I'm sleepy got a rough day of work tomorrow!
*sigh sorry for not really being present these past weeks...month :\
outside life has been crazy... and interesting to say the least which I guess is a good thing but it's not really an excuse to fail to keep up with my friends here. It really doesn't help that I'm mad addicted to my 360 I played Fable 2 for 10 fucking hours straight yesterday x_x I still haven't left my house since I came home from work saturday afternoon... it sucks outside right now too, it's all gray and clouded over I think the lack of sun exposure has put me in a bit of a slump, it makes it all too easy for my mind to slip into that dark hole of despair I once lived in for so long.
ho hum... well I've run out of things to say. mebbe later I'll have something better to ramble/rant about
<--- that's my face right now lol XD
outside life has been crazy... and interesting to say the least which I guess is a good thing but it's not really an excuse to fail to keep up with my friends here. It really doesn't help that I'm mad addicted to my 360 I played Fable 2 for 10 fucking hours straight yesterday x_x I still haven't left my house since I came home from work saturday afternoon... it sucks outside right now too, it's all gray and clouded over
I think the lack of sun exposure has put me in a bit of a slump, it makes it all too easy for my mind to slip into that dark hole of despair I once lived in for so long. ho hum... well I've run out of things to say. mebbe later I'll have something better to ramble/rant about
<--- that's my face right now lol XDomg you guys.... seriously I got my 360 today and have been playing Fable 2 for hours x_x I've got a headache and I feel a little sick lol.
aaaaaaannnnnnnyways for those of you, my lovely friends that have a 360 my gamer tag is TisiphonesWrath if you wanna add me!
The games I got right now are:
Fable2
Brutal Legend
Fallout 3
Halo 3 ODST
Forza 3
Oh I totally forgot to add FFXIII lol
aaaaaaannnnnnnyways for those of you, my lovely friends that have a 360 my gamer tag is TisiphonesWrath if you wanna add me!
The games I got right now are:
Fable2
Brutal Legend
Fallout 3
Halo 3 ODST
Forza 3
Oh I totally forgot to add FFXIII lol
