radicaldave

you know.. if you spend so much time being emotionally inept, you don't prepare yourself for being happy, nor let down. its a sure fire bet that you're not going to feel any extreme differences from day to day.
Man, lemme tell ya.. when you've been "so-so" for a few too many years, and something or someone comes along and really fucks you up.. and you remember what depression used to feel like, it makes you feel sorta stupid.sort of.. starving for some sort of attention that you thought you would never need. the kind of attention that you thought you were better than.
You want someone to leave you alone forever.. but you wanna scream something in their direction.. You don't like talking about your feelings.. but you yern to yell it at the top of your lungs and tell those who really.. don't gve a fuck about your situation...
either way, i guess what i'm saying is to feel depressed.. is to be embarassed. or at least, it's really embarassing to me, the 25 year old stage tech. from Logan Square, here in the greatest city, Chicago.






when you dissapoint me and maliciously intend on doing something very very foul, just to get a rise out of me..


all i can do is say it was a pleasure knowing you.