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I'm in a really good place.
I'm myself again.
Who am I?
I am a strong, smart, funny, loving, nurturing, loyal, beautiful, optimistic, scared, wounded, forgiving, thoughtful, kind, honest, whole person.
Take me or leave me.
The song, "Near to You" by A Fine Frenzy played last night while I was with a man that is becoming more and more special to me everyday that I spend with him. Unfortunately it brought me to tears thinking of a man from my not so distant past.... I didn't explain why I had tears...I hesitate to tell anyone about the love I experienced with Him. They won't understand, if I still don't.
I'd been very cautious, almost fearful of the idea of letting anyone new in my life for a few years...why did I choose "Him"? Then again it often felt like it wasn't a choice...like it was beyond my control. I'm sure He felt the same way at times.
I've been hurt by men in ways that I never deserved.
I've been made to feel second best and believed that being lied to was acceptable.
I still love and adore men and I believe there are good men out there; men with integrity.
I'm looking forward to letting the future unfold as it will.
Not trying to make something out of nothing, while making sure I don't watch a good thing pass me by...you know?
"Near To You"
(Expand blog to see video)
lyrics:
He and I had something beautiful
but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved Him so but I let Him go
'cause I knew He'd never love me back
such pain as this
shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
still a little bit delirious
near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though He's gone
and you are wonderful
it's hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you.
you and I have something different
and I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred,
but I am working oh so hard
to...
I'm myself again.
Who am I?
I am a strong, smart, funny, loving, nurturing, loyal, beautiful, optimistic, scared, wounded, forgiving, thoughtful, kind, honest, whole person.
Take me or leave me.
The song, "Near to You" by A Fine Frenzy played last night while I was with a man that is becoming more and more special to me everyday that I spend with him. Unfortunately it brought me to tears thinking of a man from my not so distant past.... I didn't explain why I had tears...I hesitate to tell anyone about the love I experienced with Him. They won't understand, if I still don't.
I'd been very cautious, almost fearful of the idea of letting anyone new in my life for a few years...why did I choose "Him"? Then again it often felt like it wasn't a choice...like it was beyond my control. I'm sure He felt the same way at times.
I've been hurt by men in ways that I never deserved.
I've been made to feel second best and believed that being lied to was acceptable.
I still love and adore men and I believe there are good men out there; men with integrity.
I'm looking forward to letting the future unfold as it will.
Not trying to make something out of nothing, while making sure I don't watch a good thing pass me by...you know?
"Near To You"
(Expand blog to see video)
lyrics:
He and I had something beautiful
but so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved Him so but I let Him go
'cause I knew He'd never love me back
such pain as this
shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
still a little bit delirious
near to you, I am healing
but it's taking so long
'cause though He's gone
and you are wonderful
it's hard to move on
yet, I'm better near to you.
you and I have something different
and I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred,
but I am working oh so hard
to...
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