About Me
Cast the pearls aside, of a simple life of need
come into my life forever
the crumbled cities stand as known
of the sights you have been shown
of the hurt you call your own
love is suicide" - Smashing Pumpkins
age: 30 (Jun 26, 1981)
MEMBER SINCE: January 2006
occupation: Corporate whore
heroes: are for people that don't believe in themselves.
i lost my virginity: Because it took a wrong turn..
fantasy: To get out of retail *_*
body mods: Wouldn't you like to know?
most humbling moment: Everyday, I learn a new way...
BLOGS
Well, this is very discouraging. I have applied 4 times to become a Suicide Girl. The last being today. They just out right turned me down. Not that anybody sees this (which is a good thing), I'm in a rut. My job, school, living sit., everything sucks. I have wonderful people in my life that support me and encourage me to be myself. I feel down right ugly. Physically and mentally right now. No matter what I do or how hard I try. I don't feel good enough. I thought this site was founded on the basis of its distinct uniqueness, finding the beauty in anyone and telling it how it is. Then why deny me of why I am not acceptable? If I am ugly, tell me (physically, mentally, whatever..). I just can't stand the..." We are sorry, but we can't use you right now.....blah, blah, blah." It's so generic. Though my spirits are wavering and my morale is low..I will not give up dammit!!! I will show you all, just you wait! If anybody does read this (and sees how pathetic i am >_> ), please send me some advice, encouragement, etc. Anything anybody might have to say is greatly appreciated. Thank you.
DECEMBER 2010
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