Im frustrated.
I have only 6 months to save to move to the man I love and I feel like I keep running into walls. I had to take $100 out of my savings to pay for my blown tire. Had to take money out before that because I fucked up my checking account. Leaving me with $175 in savings. That is nowhere close to where I need to be. Now I find out one of my roommates is moving out next month, upping my rent, making it even harder to save.
I will not move there unless I have enough money to cover at least three months worth of bills. By that time I will have my big credit card paid off. Hoping to have my lil one paid off and at least get my medical debt down. I will need at least $3000 to make this happen.
I feel pretty hopeless about it right now.
Love doesnt conquer all. Never has, never will. Im not the type of person to be happily carried along by just hoping a miracle will happen. You must work for what you want in life. I work so fucking hard. I finally have the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I cant even get to him.
Do you know how incredibly fucking frustrating that is???? Im sure some of you do.
People tell me Just go! Follow your heart. But I know from so much experience that love just isnt enough. Money destroys relationships and I refuse to be someone elses burden. I want him to be my forever and I have to do this right.
I just wish I could think of more ways to make money. I dont have enough free time to keep a good enough stock in my website to make much. I dont have it in me to pick up a third job. Im not much of one for asking for help.
So where does this leave me.
Frustrated. Thats where.
Oh yeah, Miss Anti Pity Party is feeling a touch sorrow for herself. It shall pass before most even skim this entry Im sure.
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I have only 6 months to save to move to the man I love and I feel like I keep running into walls. I had to take $100 out of my savings to pay for my blown tire. Had to take money out before that because I fucked up my checking account. Leaving me with $175 in savings. That is nowhere close to where I need to be. Now I find out one of my roommates is moving out next month, upping my rent, making it even harder to save.
I will not move there unless I have enough money to cover at least three months worth of bills. By that time I will have my big credit card paid off. Hoping to have my lil one paid off and at least get my medical debt down. I will need at least $3000 to make this happen.
I feel pretty hopeless about it right now.
Love doesnt conquer all. Never has, never will. Im not the type of person to be happily carried along by just hoping a miracle will happen. You must work for what you want in life. I work so fucking hard. I finally have the man I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I cant even get to him.
Do you know how incredibly fucking frustrating that is???? Im sure some of you do.
People tell me Just go! Follow your heart. But I know from so much experience that love just isnt enough. Money destroys relationships and I refuse to be someone elses burden. I want him to be my forever and I have to do this right.
I just wish I could think of more ways to make money. I dont have enough free time to keep a good enough stock in my website to make much. I dont have it in me to pick up a third job. Im not much of one for asking for help.
So where does this leave me.
Frustrated. Thats where.
Oh yeah, Miss Anti Pity Party is feeling a touch sorrow for herself. It shall pass before most even skim this entry Im sure.
Blah
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tubaart:
You'll get there. Maybe not as soon as you planned, but you'll get there. I wish I could afford to just give you the money... but I struggle to come up with around that much each month to pay the rent on the studio here (let alone actually take any money home -- that's a LONG ways out). Have faith in yourself (and in Subby). That and keep your nose to the old grindstone. 
repo_man:
You're using good reasoning here, Tooz. Money DOES matter in relationships. A lot of people rush into things and don't consider real life issues, which, of course, includes money. This relationship is obviously important to you because you're really putting thought into everything and analyzing it. This only comes from experience and wisdom, and with these tools, the relationship cannot help but BE successful. You guys are gonna be fine...