nexttuesday

So I didnt have to work tonight which is odd cuz I almost always have a show on a Friday night. I truly didnt know what to do with myself so I stayed home and looked at the beautiful ladies on this website and peeked at a couple cute suicide boys and talk to a couple people. But now Im just sitting around here trying to think of things to do other than write my third journal entry for the day LOL!

But I failed which is okay because I've had something on my mind that I want to get out. So I was hanging out with a friend of mine that I always thought was pretty cool. And I was tellin her about this site and how awesome it is and bout how Im gonna apply. Well she looked at me completely serious faced and asked "You really dont think you'd get accepted do you?"

Wow, for once in my life I was speechless! Honestly before I could even pick my jaw up off the floor she said she couldnt be around me at the moment and left. Flabbergasted! Now Im not shocked cuz I think Im some kind of irresistable sex goddess LOL. Its just that I have always been comfortable with who I am, I like me a lot inside and out. It just always blows my mind when someone I care about says something so seemingly cruel without being provoked.

Anywho, I knew there would be people who would disapprove of me trying out for this. I just wasnt expected to find out they think Im not pretty enough LOL! Honestly I am taking it in stride, I truly dont care all that much whether she wants my sexy body LOL! Oh God, I should go to sleep Im turning Super Silly.

I spose Im writing this to get all your opinions (not about my looks). About her comment. Was that a shot or could there be some other meaning to it? I've tried to talk to her about it but now she wont return my calls. God I feel like we're dating on the verge of breaking up LOL!!! What do I do, why wont she return my calls, does she think Im ugly LOL oh man funny shit...