But I failed
which is okay because I've had something on my mind that I want to get out. So I was hanging out with a friend of mine that I always thought was pretty cool. And I was tellin her about this site and how awesome it is and bout how Im gonna apply. Well she looked at me completely serious faced and asked "You really dont think you'd get accepted do you?"Wow, for once in my life I was speechless! Honestly before I could even pick my jaw up off the floor she said she couldnt be around me at the moment and left. Flabbergasted! Now Im not shocked cuz I think Im some kind of irresistable sex goddess LOL. Its just that I have always been comfortable with who I am, I like me a lot inside and out. It just always blows my mind when someone I care about says something so seemingly cruel without being provoked.
Anywho, I knew there would be people who would disapprove of me trying out for this. I just wasnt expected to find out they think Im not pretty enough LOL! Honestly I am taking it in stride, I truly dont care all that much whether she wants my sexy body LOL! Oh God, I should go to sleep Im turning Super Silly.
I spose Im writing this to get all your opinions (not about my looks). About her comment. Was that a shot or could there be some other meaning to it? I've tried to talk to her about it but now she wont return my calls. God I feel like we're dating on the verge of breaking up LOL!!! What do I do, why wont she return my calls, does she think Im ugly LOL oh man funny shit...
NOV 19, 2005 06:18 AM
Maybe it's not that yer ugly, because you are very obviously beautiful 
, and maybe it wasn't a shot at you personally.
Did you ever think she might not want to share?
I have to admit, even though it's not obvious to the people I'm with- not even my ex wife when we were married- I'm a little bit of the jealous type. When you have something so very special you do want to have it all to yourself.
I get like that with buffalo wings. I'm like "dude! Get yer own freakin wings."
So, maybe you're her buffalo wings! 
...man I'm up waaaaaay too early.... 
NOV 19, 2005 06:21 AM
NOV 19, 2005 08:50 AM
Hey thnx!
My ex-wife just got into a pissing match with me and stupid me let her get me all riled up and the last thing I said was "fuck you Heather!"
Way to go huh? I hate when I get petty and she's the only one that can do this to me. Ugh...
Now I'm all shaking and I really don't want her to ruin my weekend.
Man I need some ice cream...
NOV 19, 2005 08:51 AM
Sorry, didn't mean to dump all that on you. 
NOV 19, 2005 09:12 AM
Thanks again! I read that and pretty much laughed- cried. I'm a mess...
My friends revealed to me that they all hated her from the start, I know my mom hates her- why the fuck do I love someone so much when all they do is make me feel like shit?! I know why I love her, I just wish that those qualities where always out there for everyone to see, including me. Then maybe my friends would understand better.
They pretty much think I'm just pussy-whooped to be blunt.
I'm glad my kids can't divorce me, but then again, everyone loves my kids.
I just missed my mouth with my ice cream spoon- I guess even god has a sense of humor, and I don't even believe in him, not really! 
Doing the hokey pokey!!!
Thanks for letting me vent. Yer tha BEST!!!
NOV 19, 2005 09:15 AM
okay, I owe you $10.00 and now my son won't stop doing it. 
NOV 19, 2005 09:39 AM
Well, I know you're spoken for...
Have any sisters into asian wannabe tattoo artists with a bowflex habit and a low tolerance for alchohol???
HAHAHA!!!
NOV 19, 2005 09:53 AM
