My closest friend died last Monday night of a heroin overdose. I can't even begin to explain in words what this person meant to me...or what his family meant to me....Ben and I met in 1994 and within two days of meeting we were in a relationship and talking about getting married. A week later I was living with him and his family...who became my...
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lewin:
damn Im sorry to hear that. My grandmother passed away the tuesday before the holiday weekend.
natashanasty:
Thanks MasterBrian for your comment. I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother.
Well...I'm back....disappeared for a while because my computer went wonky, but a friend of mine came over last night and basically reset my entire system and now all is good.....except...what in the hell is going on with this font? It's so small I can't even see what I am writing. Can you even change the font? Decided the whole health care thing was a stupid...
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The Greek word "Eros" denotes want, like the desire for that which is missing...the lover wants what it does not have...it is by definition impossible for him to have what he wants....if, as soon as it is had, it is no longer wanted.
Welcome to a new day that is the psychodrama of my life because I am stuck in this god forsaken town:
Found out something VERY interesting last night. Little back story: when I was with my ex there was a girl that he and I gamed with...she was closer friends with him than me, granted, but I still thought of her as a friend. Then...
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Found out something VERY interesting last night. Little back story: when I was with my ex there was a girl that he and I gamed with...she was closer friends with him than me, granted, but I still thought of her as a friend. Then...
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lewin:
that shit sounds like something My ex wife would pull. she is a kaniving back stabbing .... well you know. she lies in everything she says or does. I cannot stand a liar.
natashanasty:
Yeah...what is worse is that all of the people that were supposed to be my friends are now his friends and believing his twisted side of the story...and he sits on this website and whines about how I supposedly abused him and how he is so screwed up about our relationship....this is a guy that I was engaged to..that left me three times, each time blaming me for our problems, insisted on being a "daddy" to my son and then abandoned him when he left me after I had spent six grand on his house and two months before our wedding which was already planned. And when I confronted him about it...he had me commited to a psych ward for a 72 hour hold...but I'm the bad guy right? All I ever did was try to love him....I never treated him badly....and I'm not supposed to be saying any of these things because he has friends on SG who will have me kicked off...but he can say anything he wants about me. Whatever....I'm so done with it...if he wants to kick me off...fine....like I said I'll just go on the other website and tell my story.....make sure to post to me on myspace.com....we can talk more freely there. thanks a lot for your support and comments. Hey...maybe we could fix up my ex with your ex and they could just sit around and lie together and backstab each other!
Got some extremely disturbing news last night....found out that my ex, some of you know him as "the addict", or we'll just say RR...is going to be a father. I cannot express enough in words how this is the last person in the universe who should be allowed to be a parent....I am so frightened for that child I cannot shake it. I mean we...
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spookyboy:
Just goes to show...any moron with a dick can be a dad...and Brian's right..college = better career = better life.
btw, thanks for the response to my own initial post, we should go sit out front of the Newark Diner one of these days and have coffee, smoke, and see what kind of random topics we can talk about.
btw, thanks for the response to my own initial post, we should go sit out front of the Newark Diner one of these days and have coffee, smoke, and see what kind of random topics we can talk about.
natashanasty:
To MasterBrian and SpookyBoy:
Thanks for the comments concerning my "all chemistry and no play makes Natasha a dull nasty girl"....and it's great to know that you guys are reading my posts and that I am not simply talking to my self here....If you want to hear a little bit more about a day in the psychodrama-because-I-live-in-Newark that is my life....check out my new post....and Spooky....I would love to hang out sometime.
Thanks for the comments concerning my "all chemistry and no play makes Natasha a dull nasty girl"....and it's great to know that you guys are reading my posts and that I am not simply talking to my self here....If you want to hear a little bit more about a day in the psychodrama-because-I-live-in-Newark that is my life....check out my new post....and Spooky....I would love to hang out sometime.
Haven't been writing in my journal as much.....my life is getting pretty busy these days since I decided to change careers and am back in school....my classes are difficult.....Chemistry and Advanced Algebra....things that I am not innately good at...however I went to my first chem class last night and was surprised to find that I actually followed what was going on and did well on...
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Well...I'm back...I actually did not fall off the face of the earth....just been getting my life in order...getting ready for the fall semester to start at work...getting ready to start back to school myself. I'm only writing right now because I can't sleep AGAIN...but I do need to try to get some sleep because I have to get up early and have much to do...
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You're not friends
You'll never be friends
You'll be in love until it kills you both
You'll fight,
and you'll shag,
and you'll hate each other til it makes you quiver
But you'll never be friends
Love isn't brains, children,
it's blood
screaming inside you to work it's will
I may be love's bitch,
but at least I'm man enough to admit it.
-Spike
Buffy-Season...
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You'll never be friends
You'll be in love until it kills you both
You'll fight,
and you'll shag,
and you'll hate each other til it makes you quiver
But you'll never be friends
Love isn't brains, children,
it's blood
screaming inside you to work it's will
I may be love's bitch,
but at least I'm man enough to admit it.
-Spike
Buffy-Season...
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stryka:
that quote always gives me the shivers 
abgitatz:
I have that quote on my MySpace account...
Thanks to my friends for the comments regarding my new found self. I will post in your journals to speak to each of you directly. Also, thanks for the ignore member trick....it's been taken care of.
Well, it's 5:15 in the morning and I am awake AGAIN. My sleep schedule is all wacked because I've had a really bad earache since late Sat night....so I...
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Well, it's 5:15 in the morning and I am awake AGAIN. My sleep schedule is all wacked because I've had a really bad earache since late Sat night....so I...
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lewin:
only person Ive meet locally face to face so far from SG is oldskoolpat. So I doubt that we know each other.
where abouts does your friend want to live? Im outside dover.
where abouts does your friend want to live? Im outside dover.
turf:
i have already found fault in one of your journal entries. you say you wrote this at 5:15 AM yet SG says it was 2:40 AM. one of you is lying.
Something occured to me last night....
Power lies not in the person who allegedly holds that power, but in the people who let that person get away with the power he or she holds.
It is interesting to me that most of the people I know who appear to be or think they are powerful, popular, and influential over others...these so-called powerful people tend to...
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Power lies not in the person who allegedly holds that power, but in the people who let that person get away with the power he or she holds.
It is interesting to me that most of the people I know who appear to be or think they are powerful, popular, and influential over others...these so-called powerful people tend to...
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abgitatz:
I so saw this coming, congrats! I found the Mach 4 disarming conditions work well for removing others' ability to impose power on you.
PS: The best way of keeping
off your journal is the ignore option. Its located on the update page... page.
I so saw this coming, congrats! I found the Mach 4 disarming conditions work well for removing others' ability to impose power on you.
PS: The best way of keeping
off your journal is the ignore option. Its located on the update page... page.
stryka:
Yes the ignore option is a wonderful tool. It even blanks out there comments when you're reading through other journals. Which can make the entire experience more pleasant.
I'm glad you are doing so well. It's almost like this groove you find along the way. At least I think it is.
And I think the single thing is good while you find that balance btwn your social life and raising your child. I've learned so much about myself that way.
I've also learned a lot about how to deal w/ being single and telling people, "just not interested" which is harder than "i have a b-friend" but still a good skill to learn.
I'm glad you are doing so well. It's almost like this groove you find along the way. At least I think it is.
And I think the single thing is good while you find that balance btwn your social life and raising your child. I've learned so much about myself that way.
I've also learned a lot about how to deal w/ being single and telling people, "just not interested" which is harder than "i have a b-friend" but still a good skill to learn.
So.....another day in the psychodrama that is my life.....about a year ago....last September to be exact.....I started seeing this guy who had been a friend of mine....some would say that he was a rebound from my ex-fiance..but I really began to care for this guy...we'll call him M....and he and I went out on and off pretty much up until a few months ago...when I...
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abgitatz:
LOL
Yeah what she said
Yeah what she said
lewin:
yeah being single can suck.
Okay...talked to the SG boy that I have a crush on....who will remain nameless...on the phone for 2 hours last night....mmmm...he's yummy....but lives way to far away to ever really.... 
sorry sweetie....
Not only did I change my hair color...which was supposed to be brunnette but is actually now very red....but I chopped it all off too....yay...no more long hair making me hot in this...
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sorry sweetie....
Not only did I change my hair color...which was supposed to be brunnette but is actually now very red....but I chopped it all off too....yay...no more long hair making me hot in this...
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