I woke up this morning with a severe case of heartache. I could list all the reasons here but I'd really rather not. I just took a shower but I think I'm going to hop right back in there and have a good cry. Doing that always helps me to avoid dwelling on the things I'm sad about, especially since most of them are varying degrees of "beyond my control", anyway. Dwelling on them isn't really going to help anything.

So calm down, heart. I understand that whole "the heart wants what it wants" expression, but you're gonna have to chill and learn to balance between hope and acceptance, or you're going to drive me crazy.

Besides, you've got all this exciting stuff ahead of you. Focus on that.

"What a beautiful dream
That could flash on the screen
In a blink of an eye and be gone from me
Soft and sweet
Let me hold it close and keep it here with me"

I'm sick.

It sucks to be single in this situation, I want someone to take care of me.

Anyone have any idea how to convert a mini-tape from a camcorder to digital format? It's a Sony DVM60 tape. The tricky part: I no longer have the camcorder. Though I suppose I could find someone with the same model, maybe.

Also I am up much too late. It is time for bed and sleep. And dreams. Yay dreams!

Happy day off, for those who have it!

Also:

Goddamn I miss kissing. At the moment I think I miss kissing more than anything else.

I can't believe it's almost September.

In less than a month I'll be 26!

For my birthday, I want a good job. And cuddles. Goddamn, I want cuddles. Speaking of cuddles, I had nothing but sex dreams last night. That was both awesome and cruel of you, brain.

Public transportation is friggin' exhausting!

I had an extremely interesting night last night. And, despite the fact that I was up until 2:30am and am now very, very tired, I would like to have more nights like that.

Though maybe without staying up QUITE so late.


Side note because people will probably assume this: no, I did not have anyone over to my place or anything like that. Nor did I go out and party. Yet it was still an interesting night! Amazing, yes?