I feel the need to share,
i have come along away from what i call my "dark days" 2 yrs ago after my 10 yr relationship had ended i think i was in a total state of shock!! I couldnt sleep couldnt eat couldnt concentrate it got so bad i was fired from a job i had truly loved and had beeen with for 5 yrs. i was devastated in every sense of the word!! i would walk the park with a bottle of pills crying my ever lovin eyes out just wanting to not feel that pain. That pain oh my god, i was well aware of the term "broken heart" but i was in the throws of a broken heart and felt a pain in my chest like someone hit me in the chest with a 2 by 4 and took the wind right out of me!! Being home alone was like a prison sentence i paced and paced and paced the anxiety was so bad i wanted die!! It wasnt like i hadnt had my heart broken before but this time it was different, in fact i had wanted to leave the relationship and thought how happy i was gonna be once i finally left, i was sadly mistaken!!! Then one day, after what seemed like an eternity of waking up thinking about the failed relationship and crying and thinking and spending the day in despair and going to bed sad and crying, i woke up and realized somewhere in the day that i hadnt thought about my failed relationship and realized i was on the road to healing!! this whole process took about a yr and a half, I now cherish my being single and can look back in a way that this was just another part of life and its many lessens.
Light up and move along!!!
Life is Fucking Good!!!

I feel the need to share,
i have come along away from what i call my "dark days" 2 yrs ago after my 10 yr relationship had ended i think i was in a total state of shock!! I couldnt sleep couldnt eat couldnt concentrate it got so bad i was fired from a job i had truly loved and had beeen with for 5 yrs. i was devastated in every sense of the word!! i would walk the park with a bottle of pills crying my ever lovin eyes out just wanting to not feel that pain. That pain oh my god, i was well aware of the term "broken heart" but i was in the throws of a broken heart and felt a pain in my chest like someone hit me in the chest with a 2 by 4 and took the wind right out of me!! Being home alone was like a prison sentence i paced and paced and paced the anxiety was so bad i wanted die!! It wasnt like i hadnt had my heart broken before but this time it was different, in fact i had wanted to leave the relationship and thought how happy i was gonna be once i finally left, i was sadly mistaken!!! Then one day, after what seemed like an eternity of waking up thinking about the failed relationship and crying and thinking and spending the day in despair and going to bed sad and crying, i woke up and realized somewhere in the day that i hadnt thought about my failed relationship and realized i was on the road to healing!! this whole process took about a yr and a half, I now cherish my being single and can look back in a way that this was just another part of life and its many lessens.
Light up and move along!!!
Life is Fucking Good!!!