I find myself logging in with the motivation to blog, but I'm so far behind, I can't seem to catch up with anything anymore. In fact, I'm living in a state of serenity I can't quite describe; where everything blends together. Finally...

No, things are not perfect, I have terrible days, finances are tight, but the fruits of my labor will soon come to pass. I keep telling myself that, at least. I have grown more in the past year than I ever have in my entire existence.

I've learned that I will never take on more than what I can stand. I mean this with people, and everything else in this life. I say stand because being overwhelmed is okay...People take on things they can't handle all the time, but to avoid the mess, I'm just being reasonable with myself and understanding being average is okay once in awhile so long as I tried my best.

I will never allow myself to feel inadequate, or not worthy of good things, material and emotional.

Misery sincerely loves company. Being miserable is not a bed where I plant my seeds. I will sooner spend a night twiddling my own non-existent dick, before I destroy my mood with toxic people and places.

It's okay to believe in things that others find completely ridiculous. Fuck you, I will have all the satanic unicorns I want.

I will start to save more of my finances for emergencies and overall fun for myself, and those around me. (holy shit this year was full of nonsense.)

I will take better care of my body and begin exercise this month with my fella.

I will not tolerate being walked all over anymore. This was a big step for me. People seem to mistake my kindness for weakness, and unfortunately I've been taken advantage of in many situations. NEVER and NO MORE will this EVER happen again. I work far too hard for the things I have, and have too much respect for myself to ever let someone treat me any less than how I have treated them.


Anyways, on a much lighter, super sappy note.

I find myself logging in with the motivation to blog, but I'm so far behind, I can't seem to catch up with anything anymore. In fact, I'm living in a state of serenity I can't quite describe; where everything blends together. Finally...

No, things are not perfect, I have terrible days, finances are tight, but the fruits of my labor will soon come to pass. I keep telling myself that, at least. I have grown more in the past year than I ever have in my entire existence.

I've learned that I will never take on more than what I can stand. I mean this with people, and everything else in this life. I say stand because being overwhelmed is okay...People take on things they can't handle all the time, but to avoid the mess, I'm just being reasonable with myself and understanding being average is okay once in awhile so long as I tried my best.

I will never allow myself to feel inadequate, or not worthy of good things, material and emotional.

Misery sincerely loves company. Being miserable is not a bed where I plant my seeds. I will sooner spend a night twiddling my own non-existent dick, before I destroy my mood with toxic people and places.

It's okay to believe in things that others find completely ridiculous. Fuck you, I will have all the satanic unicorns I want.

I will start to save more of my finances for emergencies and overall fun for myself, and those around me. (holy shit this year was full of nonsense.)

I will take better care of my body and begin exercise this month with my fella.

I will not tolerate being walked all over anymore. This was a big step for me. People seem to mistake my kindness for weakness, and unfortunately I've been taken advantage of in many situations. NEVER and NO MORE will this EVER happen again. I work far too hard for the things I have, and have too much respect for myself to ever let someone treat me any less than how I have treated them.


Anyways, on a much lighter, super sappy note. I will be taking the biggest step in my life and "officially" moving in with my fella this May. We practically live together as is (long complicated story.) April marks our year anniversary and although I'm aware that is not nearly as long as most, I would spend the rest of my life, no questions asked, with him and our furry children. I made a lot of choices in the past year and he is by far the best thing to ever happen to me. He is such a positive, encouraging, and loving partner and we are lucky to have each other.


I hope everyone is well, I will be posting a video blog soon, it will also entail some picture updates of my life events. I'm trying to settle in at the moment. I currently work and go to school full time so please stay with me. Finals are the first week in May, I move that same week, and the following myself and Mike will be going to Pittsburgh to see the one... The only... GHOST!!!!!!! Until then...