Hello from NOLA!
living in new orleans now and loving it. beautiful, fun, amazing people.

Back in SF, oh! how i've missed thee.

hello from Montana,
Im BAAAaaaack mwahahahaha! If only for a month...
I'll be back in SF in sept and cant wait

im seeing the most spectacular man right now. everything feels comfortable and happy. im so excited! i havent been this genuinely happy with some one in almost 2 years.
I love the whole situation. we went on a date a little over a year ago, but i was still in breakup/breakdown mode and wasnt really interested in anyone. but hes been there for me ever since and now the timing seems perfect. he's taking me out to dinner for my birthday at this amazing restaurant called boulevard. im so excited!! haha ok. enough with the mushy gushy.
my family has been visiting me here in sf for the past 4 days, and weve had a lot of fun. my brother got his first pair of glasses (he's 10). he looks so good in glasses haha. we went to this amazing park called adventure playground in berkeley, its built entirely by the kids that play there, but they kicked us out after 10 minutes cause they had a private party. the boys were pretty disappointed. me too. i love playing haha.

Im excited to have so many people come see me this month and next! After being solo in this city for so long, its nice to see some old familiar faces. One after the other! so cool.
im in a crazy two faced relationship right now, one moment is unreal bliss, the next is heart wrenching tragedy. the latter being almost irrational from my second half. why is it so hard to forgive once tears fall? Why do trivial matters always expand into an inferno? do I even want this right now? is companionship worth the heartache? oh world of rhetorical questions, i am your new citizen.

I did a great shoot today. im excited. im not to into the class i shot these for because the concepts are really boring, but these turned out pretty good

Oh yeah, boomie and I had a crazy shoot last week. tht was a very interesting day, as she can attest to haha.

Ive just returned home from the EAgles of death metal show at the fillmore. Im speechless. that was probably the best show of my life. Jesse's son is sooo adorable! i couldnt stop blowing him kisses all night. he kept making paper airplanes out of the set lists and throwing them into the crowd. and it was probably the only time in RnR hisotry that an abundance of combs were thrown into the crowd. i snatched one, along with another of joey castillo's drum sticks. i now have a rock and roll god's pair of drumsticks. sweet. i rule haha.
rock and roll orgasmica

<3 i enjoy every last second





except the last one

I am about to take a deep breath and relax... on second thought maybe i'll wait til tomorrow.





is god playing evil tricks on me?

relapse is strangling me. the pills arent working any more.why is this attacking me?! i feel so vulnerable. i feel like there is no one to go to. im such a burden. i want to be strong! so bad!! i dont want o be weak in everyones eyes! i want to be resilient! i feel so powerless.