later on.....




it seems Lelaina has been kidnapped!! no SG for sometime now. no SG for sometime soon??

until the next episode.....

stay tuned

sex....i just cant stop thinking about it



lately i feel as though im riding a rollercoaster. im having such a good time, but every now and then the steep decents are giving me headspins. im hanging in there though and im really proud of where ive gotten myself to. ive just ceased taking a medication that ive been on for quite sometime, im feeling generally fantastic (sometimes a little frightened) and to be honest, a little wonky at times. but im proud, so so fucking proud i just have to remember.....baby steps.

as you may know i went on a little vacation over to Stradbroke Island to straighten, er, nope, not straighten, um....we cant have that, id be bored, lets say, clear the mind.

so here's the thing that got me there


the friend i took with me


the view i saw


the smiles i had


the leg warmers i wore


the lazy mornings and bed hair


all in all it was pretty...


ive decided i want to buy a classical piano cd, but ive absolutely no idea where to begin. all i know is i dont want any vocals at all, and maybe for it to have a slightly darker sound to it. anyone have any ideas??

i really wish i was going to Splendour In The Grass, i should have bothered to suss out the line up before tickets went on sale. id love to see Devo!!



there is a girl at my work who is straight and very "typically" pretty. she always gets asked out by girls. i never once have been asked out by a girl. i seem to find it hard enough to make friends with girls. ive always thought i must be a guys girl not a girls girl as i have many male freinds. do you get along easier with the opposite or same sex??

i braved it whilst i was away and tried anchovies for the first time, straight out of the jar too!! i actually quite enjoyed them. i adore trying new foods, especially strong flavoured things. suggestions??

and, as always, the latest shoe i want from work...


and here are my latest creations. Pacman ghosts


ill leave you with my favourite song of the moment by Fischerspooner called "Never Win"


how are you all anyway?? yay i hope

oh, and did i tell you i really just cant stop thinking about sex!! (this is one of the plus sides of stopping the meds )



so im a very lucky little bunny to have such a yummy boy to play with

its day three since they stopped...

i just went to the doctor, seems ive put my jaw out, thats why ive had a migrazine almost every day for 3 weeks at least i know whats wrong now. guess i didnt need all that acupuncture. speaking of that. anyone ever had it?? its a pretty surreal experience for me. i desperately hate needles. but there's something relaxing yet sadistic about the entire procedure that i quite enjoy

why do i feel like im looking into a fishbowl...

i was given the most stunning rose the other day. ive never been rose person, but i think i may have just been converted. i cant stop smelling it. its such a deep red colour. and its opened right up. yum. thanks yummy xx

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today she's a little bit manic...

i went to my cousins 40th birthday last weekend, a sixties party!! yay for themed events, i just love it and i adored being amongst my family in a silly stupor. young and old, everyone was there. im an only child, but when it comes to cousins, i have 20

Boombambi and I

our outfits are fabulous!!

my cousin James and I


which direction am i headed?

im so yay!!! i finally got my mits on a Tokidoki ive always wanted one, now i have one. ok, fine, so its not real, i dont care!! i dont have $400 to buy a bag anyway

so

fucking

adorable


check out their stuff if you're into super cuteness!! ^.^ Tokidoki

do i really want to live in this city forever?

i cant help but notice all the orange people floating about the city. i heard about these so called "orange people" whilst my cousin was over in England. eventually, like everything else, they've spawned here. a good tan if you need, fine, but orange?? pleeeeease



and another thing ive noticed. how much old ladies dislike hand dryers in the bathroom, they want paper towel god dammit!! fuck the trees!! ahhh bless, these little things just seem to amuse me oh, and yay for them you know, gotta love people who are just doing their thing

ok, some hot chicks why?? cause!!













thats my perv of late im feeling a little voyeuristic of late

after three years its over...for now anyway...

did somebody say...MONSTERS!!! ive found inspiration from that Etsy website i told you about, plus the magazine Frankie. so here is my attempt of making monsters

2 cups of love
1 cup of cuteness
& a dash of scary!!

they all have names and come with their own little certificate

Chomps


Pooky


Pooky & Lovesick Joe


im proud, ive never gotten any of my creativity out in this way before, so im stoked

just be you, cause you're really good at it...

so life is good, steady, loving, smiley, peaceful yet bouncy. can you be peaceful and bouncy?? hmmmmm

im off to Straddie on monday for a few nights, im soooo looking forward to being on that island. no phone, no people, no clothes. bliss!!



ooh-la! thats it for me be happy, be loving and excellent to eachother

see you next time!!

~ Lelaina xx

so i went to Melbourne and had a fabulous time. it was great to experience some winter weather the bare trees. the bite in the air. the fog. it felt like home.....

Cathedral in Fitzroy


bare trees!!


dancing in the street


GRAFITTI!!!


cake shops!!


boob squeezes


ninjas with lint rollers


so all in all, it was fun, fast and fucking exhausting!! what a whirlwind 48 hours. phew!! oh, and the thing i loved most. people there dont seem to wear thongs!!!!

im so addicted to little home made critters. look at these cute things people have created









if you like homemade things of any variety, check out Etsy, its amazing with inspiration i created a little owl, ive never really made anything in my life, so im pretty chuffed

something else i saw on Etsy, so cute!! im such a sucker for stuff like this. yum!!!


the latest shoe i want from work...


some shoes i saw, that ill never afford. anyone got a spare grand??


guess what??

its such a nice afternoon. overcast, a little cold. i just want my bed and my book. i wouldnt mind my boy too. he could get me hot chocolate hehehe wif a marshmallow pweeese

im feeling very calm at this moment. the energy in my house is nice. silent. its a refreshing taste.



i wish it could be twilight forever...

i leave you with a tune ive been enjoying

The Ting Tings - "That's Not My Name"


"i wish i was more like you" she said........i wonder if she were would she really be happier??

♥

~ Lelaina



smile xox

ok, firstly i just have to say how yum is this set?? like, holy wow!!

Squeak - Code Blue


now that i have gotten my breath back, i can tell you Lelaina stuff

lets get the boring topic outta the way. work. i think im due for a holiday. i feel great and happy about things, but i think my tone of voice is slipping with the ol' customers. i received a customer complaint. see, i have this issue, that if you talk to me like shit, i will generally be snappy towards you. this is in my personal life anyway, at work, its more, you can hear in the tone of my voice that i think you're an idiot. enough said.

shoes! ok, this time, i got myself some gumboots!! fuck knows when im going to wear them, but ive always wanted a pair, and here they are



i went to Queens Ball on the weekend. i had such a great time i usually suffer from a bit of social anxiety, but im slowly learning that if you surround me with "weirdos" and people from the "strange side of the tracks" im comfortable. oh well, you cant chose who you are, plus, im happy

my best friend Emma & I


the place to be


on stage with the Drag Queens


shiny disco balls


Sex & The City was good. ill have to see it again though as i was in Gold Class with my Mum, they kept fucking up the food orders and we ended up with 6 wrong orders, kinda distracting. so yeah, i missed the main part

next is Speed Racer. i read a review that it looks like a crayon explosion hehehe sounds perfect

Melbourne tomorrow!! i cant wait, as tomorrow is meant to be 26 degrees (which is soooo not winter) so im hoping to get a good dose of the cold whilst im there. snuggles

randomness!! sorry if you're left a little confused hehe

er.........i just heard that Def Leppard are touring!?! they are the only one out of my top Hair Metal bands that im yet to see. hmmmmmm *ponders* spandex anyone??



really though, they were more ripped up denim werent they, maybe thats why they werent my favourite. i just lurve the spandex!!

so who's free the 1st of July to come play?? yeah its a tues but we'll still have fun. promise



so which band/solo artist do you wish you got a chance to see or hope to see in the future??

this is the one act i missed out on.....Queen



well id best start packing for my 48hour adventure with my partner in crime!!

hope everyone is smiling, till next time,

mwah!!

♥

Lelaina

do ever feel that you were born into the wrong era?? i do. every. single. day. i feel that i was meant to be about 18 in the late 60's, so right now it would be right in the middle of the New Romantic era (early 80s). i know for a fact that i was not meant to be my age now in the hip-hop era thats for sure!! i wish i got to see this for myself.....











i got myself a new cd I LOVE IT!!!! "Ca Plane Pour Moi, ooooooooh"



its Mum's birthday tomorrow, im taking to her to a Gold Class cinema to see...



Dad doesnt want to go. why is it that most guys dont like this show??

wanna see some old pics of me??

red hair with the fringe that didnt suit me. i adore fringes, but not on myself


and bottle blonde approx 10 years ago (on the left, yes)


talking about hair, Mr Nacho Biscuit had his hair cut!! ta Reshizzle

before


after


speaking of Pants (its my dogs nickname) look at mine

teehee

this weekend im going to The Queens Ball. its the longest running gay event in the world. theme is "Stars Of Hollywood", mmmmm nice and trashy, you know how i love my trash!!

what else?? ummm i went for a walk the other day whilst very intoxicated by TCH and found this little old house...


i thought, oooh great, ill run around the yard and take some pics cause for sure its empty, um no, an elderly man came out wondering what i was doing, and cause i was so *insert messy confused and frightened face here, plus the sound affect blaaaaah* i just ran and kinda leaped across the small fence dork i am!

look at these cute necklaces



if you like them check out Twinkie's page, she has the coolest stuff

i havent done a tarot in forever, im thinking its time, not that im searching for anything as my life is really beautiful right now. some things are unanswered, but im going with the flow. i have these cards...



well, thats about it for me!!



so do tell. what era do you think you were meant to be in your prime in?? or are you lucky and like fashion, music etc, as it is, right now??

"what will we be singing in the eighties"



smiles and strawberries,



~ Lelaina xx

~ on a light note ~

life has been floating along nicely.i went down the coast the other night to spend time with my parents. it was soooo good to have a change of scenery, i need that, often, it gives me a renewed apprecaition of where i live. (or at least prevents me from being serisouly bored )

something strange my mother said......."here's hemorrhoid cream, put it under your eyes, it stops ageing" er....no Ma, but thanks

i saw this whilst shopping, such a pretty colour (sorry about the phone camera)


i like these must be my inner bogan yes, i have an inner bogan


PLASTIC FANTASTIC


hehehehe what a name for a kids snack


i went out with my boy Boombambi on sunday. i had the yummiest lunch, he's the yummiest thing, oh yeah, and i had a coffee sunday too


..............................................................................................................................................

~ on a darker note ~

i wasnt joking, life has been floating along great, but today ive hit a wall.


yep, just like that.

last night i had serious nightmares. so much so, that every few minutes id wake up in a sweat and burst into tears. this went on from 3am till 8am. i finally decided to get up, cause each time id fall asleep it would take me right back to where the dream left off. why cant good dreams be like this?? i got up, had a shower and realised that today my job is just too hard. hard in the fact that greeting customers with excitement when you dont even know them is not how i wish to spend a day where all i want to do is love myself back to a smile. i have no energy to give anyone. not today anyway.

what was the nightmare?? that i cant say, i dont want it written so i can ever read it again. it just hurt. so so fucking much, that everytime i think about it i cry. something must have caused this. well yeah, it did. but thats something else i dont want rewminding of. sorry for an anit climax. im not good at letting others know when things arent right. i just feel like an exposed nerve.

so my day today??

hmmmm nice makeup. sounds weird, but it will make me feel a billion times better.

music - She Wants Revenge. feeds my little dark side. yes, i have one. geez, did you think i could bounce around constantly saying yay?? 90% of the time i can, but no, not today. my dark side is comforting in some fucked up way that only i (and maybe one or two friends) will understand. yes, i have an inner goth too

She Wants Revenge - "Written In Blood"

^^i couldnt put the video straight here, too much sexual content according to youtube. SEX!?! god forbid!! the link will take you there

a movie - yep, im taking myself to the flicks. but im seeing something happy, things can spiral if i keep it too dark. thats been proven.

chocolate. my boy got me to appreciate this. sounds silly that someone doesnt like chocolate?? id never really thought about it. lollies though, are a different story....

cigarrettes - yeah i gave up a year ago, but today is an exception.

Nacho - lots of hugs from the cutuest thing on earth.


tomorrow will be brighter. im sure of it. cause normally when i feel like this id be destructive, but im choosing not to be, and for some reason thats harder, but i know the outcome will be better *sighs*

to lighten the end of my journal, something funny



so how are you feeling?? light or dark??

over and out

~ Lelaina's World ~

so what's been going on hmmm??

i got new shoes


i plan to get this hat


i finished watching Season 3 of The Mighty Boosh - the episode "Party" is simply brilliant


ive enjoyed a cocktail or 2


ive booked my next tattoo


im going to Melbourne with my boy



i ate something yummy on friday night


ive become a geek



this is the album im listening to these days. Mindless Self Indulgence.


im getting naked again soon


i have this absolute urge to be creative!


all in all, things are pretty yay in my world


so, what's going on in your world

till next time......



~ Lelaina xx

p.s. what's your favourite song of all time and why??

Ambivalence

-noun, uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.

im feeling a little like that past week im usually one way or the other, its weird to feel stuck in the middle. im not even certain what im ambivalent over me'h!

my local park is all the rage these days obviously.....



~ you can be loved, really, its ok, stop fighting against it ~

question? are you one who always gets caught, the one who gets away with everything or the one who needs to live a little?

something everybody needs....

but amongst all the confusion and to-ing and fro-ing in the head, there are moments, where everything is just right...



im not sure where this was going........nowhere i guess, here, have a chicken

weeeeeeeeeee!! the long weekend/public/bank holiday has arrived!! i worked last weekend, so this one i get to enjoy. i have 5 days off actually and i plan on being naked for most of the time. what do you plan on doing this weekend??

im loving this weather Queensland summer has finally fucked off and the cooler months are here. i have so much more energy and snuggling in bed is just soooo yummy now that winter is here i get to wear my most favourite old jacket...



you see, here where i live, its not exactly winter, not as other places know it, so its really nice to not be sweating and struggling to breathe cause the humidity is 90%, this is the time of year that i love

can you believe that scrunchies and stone wash are back in?? i refuse to re-live being 15. yes, i said 15

BLAST FROM THE PAST

thought id put up my first semi-nude pics that i posted here when i was a member in 2004





now, for my 2 second rant..........excuse me mister dj, can you please piss off with your remix's, you keep fucking up old tracks that were once good. whacking a beat behind something is just a wank.

thank you



i hope you all have a very yay weekend no matter what you're up to. whatever you're doing, do it well what is it that you're doing anyway?? hmmmmmm *ponders lots of dodgy thoughts*



HAVE FUN