Sunday

So its sunday, and things i am happy to say are a lot more happy and relaxed (at least for now) ended up having quite a hideous day yesterday what with the lack of sleep and fighting a lot and stuff but now all is well, i apologised for being horrible and explained i just get scared, mostly that something might happen and i wont know where he is and i wont have anyone to help me!
But last night someone (who i havent seen in months) pointed out to me thats stupid, coz even if i can't find nick he would always come and pick me up if needed, and listed a couple of other people who would, and now the more i think about it the more i realise that there are actually quite a few people i know that i would be able to count on in that kind of situation *points at people expectantly* you know who you are, especially one of you who will read this who i just remembered doesn't live too far away
I was also assured by Nick that he won't be doing this stuff for much longer, i think he is still struggling to see that in a few months we will have a baby, i mean i am too, totally, but i can feel her move and stuff all the time and know she is there and am also very aware of how long until i will have to figure out how exactly she will get out of me?! In a few weeks when we have moved house and im getting bigger and so on i know it will all settle down again, i should just be glad he is getting it out of his system while he can shouldn't i, and not waiting until i'm about to drop and going out getting so drunk!
Ahhhh the joys of hormones it wil all be worth it when almost dead on four months from now we will be able to both hold our daughter (unless she decides to be early then it will be less time from now lol but she won't be late, not allowed to for various reasons lol)
Right on with the day, put the washing on, make a cup of tea, put some family guy on a mem stick for laptop and the go clean the oven AGAIN! i will get it finished today!!
xx...

Sunday

So its sunday, and things i am happy to say are a lot more happy and relaxed (at least for now) ended up having quite a hideous day yesterday what with the lack of sleep and fighting a lot and stuff but now all is well, i apologised for being horrible and explained i just get scared, mostly that something might happen and i wont know where he is and i wont have anyone to help me!
But last night someone (who i havent seen in months) pointed out to me thats stupid, coz even if i can't find nick he would always come and pick me up if needed, and listed a couple of other people who would, and now the more i think about it the more i realise that there are actually quite a few people i know that i would be able to count on in that kind of situation *points at people expectantly* you know who you are, especially one of you who will read this who i just remembered doesn't live too far away
I was also assured by Nick that he won't be doing this stuff for much longer, i think he is still struggling to see that in a few months we will have a baby, i mean i am too, totally, but i can feel her move and stuff all the time and know she is there and am also very aware of how long until i will have to figure out how exactly she will get out of me?! In a few weeks when we have moved house and im getting bigger and so on i know it will all settle down again, i should just be glad he is getting it out of his system while he can shouldn't i, and not waiting until i'm about to drop and going out getting so drunk!
Ahhhh the joys of hormones it wil all be worth it when almost dead on four months from now we will be able to both hold our daughter (unless she decides to be early then it will be less time from now lol but she won't be late, not allowed to for various reasons lol)
Right on with the day, put the washing on, make a cup of tea, put some family guy on a mem stick for laptop and the go clean the oven AGAIN! i will get it finished today!!
xx xx

p.s. look its my daughter eep so much bigger than her last pic! and pretending to be shy and hide her face, as if thats gonna happen with me and nick as her parents!!