kiley

I spent a good hour on the phone with my brother Daniel this morning. He was slightly drunk and decided to call me... At 9:30 in the morning. Of course, in Houston, it was 8:30.

Hopefully I'll be going to Texas sometime in October. I havent seen my brother in over 3 years, not since I graduated from high school. It makes me really sad sometimes to talk to him... He was telling me things about my cousin Sean and how fucked up he is... Apparently he is really bipolar and fucked up and I wonder how much different he is... Supposedly he started showing symptoms when our Grandmother died. He was "sooooo upset" about it, he didn't even go to the funeral. And that's why I hate him, or did anyway. Not like I like anyone in my family... I'll agree with Daniel when he says he doesn't really have a family, though my idea of family is bigger than his... Because I have some sort of relationship with our father and his wife and kids. Only because I was younger.

One thing he was talking about was hwo it was when we were little... He pointed out that it always bothered him how I was always the one getting in trouble... Possibly because he gave up on things and I never did, and I always fought my parents for grounding me and continued to do whatever it was that was pissing them off. He didn't understand why I had to do so much at a young age and how Laurie's kids do nothing... My younger sister will be 10 in a couple of weeks and can barely pour herself a glass of milk. I was doing our laundry at 8. Huge difference.

This ended up being a much longer entry than I expected. Cassy is supposed to come up, but I wonder if she'll wait because of the thunderstorm that's been going on. It woke me up at 830 and now I'm still awake and unshowered. There's stuff to be done. So I'll go do that...