Well hello world. Its been about 2 years since I have been a member and out of the blue I get a 3 month gift account. Looks like a lot has change and most of the people i knew on here are inactive. But I am curious to see if I get as involved as I used to be if not more so since I am currently unemployed, Well I am off to check some sets and groups and try to get back in the SG swing!

I find myself extremely depressed. I feel like I have ruined our lives and instead of moving forward we have moved back. We are not ahead. We are not advancing. In fact we are slipping. Falling. Failing. My happy mask has more cracks than a plumbers convention. I don't know if I can make it work. I want to. But I feel the outlook is far to grim. What did I do?

Wow so it's been over a month here and things are looking up. I have made a friend. Yes just one. But she is cool and likes a lot of the smae movies as me and what not. Things at work are kinda looking up too. I mean, progress has been made but there is still a ways to go. But at least I dont feel like murdering someone everyday anymore...now it's only a couple times a week. So thats a plus right? I miss Jax just for the comfort of knowing it and I miss all my freinds there a ton. I really realize how incredibly lucky I am to know them and have them in my life . We plan on coming back down Aug. 2-4 so I hope I will get a chnace to hang with everyone. I 've been feeling kinda weird as of late. Feeling closer to Matt and seeing just how great we are together and how much I want to marry him and have a family with him, is kinda awesome. I mean its nothing I didnt know before but I guess without all of the everyday kind of stress and drama we delt with in Jax it just seems more apparent. I am probably rambling and making no sense at this point so I'm just going to go do laundry and kill my brain with some youtube.

Big loves to all!!!
Jenbat

Oi! This job is.....I don't know. Aggravating? Time consuming? Making me realize what a wonderful fabulous store I came from? All of the above and more!!!!


So this store, top to bottom needs work. Like seriously if it could be wrong it is. And some of is the most brain dead common sense stuff that it frustrates me to no end. This is the end of my first full week and I have to write up 3 of my employees. For stupid stuff that should not even be an issue. But its crazy cause when I talk to them one on one they all appear to know what should be done and why but they all seem to lack the initiative to freakin do it!!

Garrrr!


Anywho we are coming back to Jax this weekend for the Tool show, so at least i get a small break for some fun, which I should probably cherish since its not likely to happen again for quite some time.

So the move is on. This is my last week in Jax. I will be back from time to time for shows and to visit family and friends. I will be back down for the Tool show on June 2, but after that I imagine I will only be back every couple of months. I am going to have my hands full with getting the store and my new employees in shape. So weird. I will be the boss. No more deferring problems or responsibility. I have to train and rely on my staff and will have no one to blame but myself if things are not as i feel they should be. Hope I can handle it. I feel pretty good about it but you never know right? I do like the city/town though. Very.....serene? I dont know it just feels nice. Comfy. Homey?


Wish me luck

Well It looks like fate has other plans for the Bat.

In my previous post I wrote about how I was moving in with my honey's parents and was wicked with the sad blah blah blah. Well I am here. And in all honesty its really not that bad. The drive kinda sucks cause most of the people I know and my job are like a 30 min drive instead of a 10/15 min drive, and I'm sure that doesnt seem like much but for my car it is. Anywho, it seems I wont be here for long....

I got a promotion! To store manager! In Statesboro GA!!!!!


Ack!!!!

I am rife with nervous excitment and scared shitless and stupid happy all at the same time.

Hooray for emotional roller coasters!!!

I hate bills. I dont know what happened really. Used to be at least on paycheck o month I could have a little fun, go out to a show, a movie, dinner, and buy a little something and still be able to have cash for food and gas and not be totally broke. But somewhere along the way I accumulated so many bills that I have to spend almost my whole paycheck every week to keep up.
ordinarily I would'nt mind but I want to move out of Jax and I'm never going to be able to save enough money to do that unless something changes.

ok that was my brief self pitiying half rant. Im done now.

On another note, if you have not seen The Prestige or The Illusionist I suggest you do. Two very good movies, both about magicians. Who would have thought?

Well I hope all is well with the rest of you in SG land!

Till next time

Hello all! Hope everone has been splendid! Warning long post ahead!

So the camping trip was fantastic!! So much fun and so romantic and just fucking great! We left early on Friday, got some breakfast before we hit the road, and then headed down to Ginnie Springs. The trip is about an hour and a half and we just spent the whole ride talking and goofing around , no radio. Very cool. SO we get to the camp grounds alone to find the spot we had wanted was already taken so the made my honey a little down. However! We ended up finding a way better spot! It was right next to the river, at the end of the trail so kind of secluded, a short walk across a tiny bridge to get to the spring, and a short walk to the bathouses as well. And it had.........A TIKI GOD!!!! No shit! Someone who camped there before us stood up one of the logs and carved a tiki dude. We figured it was meant to be!
So we uloaded the car and he set up the tents (one for us one for stuff) and i started putting everything away. Once everything was were it neede to be we went into to town for lunch and booze. Went back to the camp site and went for a walk up to the shop to see if they had a map of the river so we could plan our canoing (sp?) trip for the next day. They did not. Thought it was kinda odd but whatever. Anyway This trip was also the first time I had grilled before as well. My first atempt was kinda off. Didnt set the coals up right and got tired of waiting so we had flame charred chicken the first night. We didnt last long after dinner cause it got damn cold. It was a record low for the area....only 24 degrees! We had like seven blankets thought and
i had really cozy pjs so it wasn't to bad.
The next day was our canoe trip. Of which I had also never tried before. We rented it for the whole day and at first it was kinda sketch. I have a low panic threshold and the wobbly-ness assured a cold watery doom for me. But as soon as I calmed down and actually listened to what Matt was saying, the trip went a lot smoother. And was actaully quite fun! We went pretty far up river then had a picnic. Very nice! On the tirp back to our site we stop at a little island and poked around and that was cool too. We got back and decided to be brave/dumb and go for a swim in the spring. The water was fine (72 degrees) but getting back out sucked. After showers and dinner I made the perfect smore! No burnt bits just a delicious golden brown! It was super yummy!
That night it rained a lot of our stuff got wet and it was shitty. But really all in all I'd say it was the best camping trip I've been on. It was just so wonderful to spend a few days alone with my babe with very little other human contact. Tres magnifique!


So that brings me to my awesome sister. She went to the New York comic Con this weekend and I knew some of th Buffy cast was going to be there so I was wicked sad I couldnt go. (those who know me know I'm a huge Buffy fanatic) So anywho I was at work yesterday and it was crazy busy! I checked my helio and i had amissed call form my sis and I was like "wonder why she's calling in the middile of the con?" So I dash off to our backroom and call her back. She like "hey whats up this place is crazy, picked up some goodies for you and matt and im in line to get Nicholas Brendan's (Xander) autograph." I'm like dude thats sweet you're so lucky Im so jealous blah blah, but i have to get back to work. She's like wait hang on..........SHE PUTS ME ON THE PHONE WITH NICHOLAS!!!!!!!!!
So yeah, he was super nice and funny and just sounded like such a cool guy. Definately ranks pretty high on the awesome meter! It was great. I told Rachel she was the best sister ever and thanks to her no shitty ass customer could ruin my day. So fucking fabulous there are no words in my vocabulary for it!

Well that is all for now.
Loves!

So Valentine weekend (the 16th-18th) my honey and i are going camping! Just the two of us! It's kinda a big deal. Cause even though we have been together for almost 4 years this will be the FIRST time we have ever taken any time off just by ourselves! Any other trip we've taken has always had other peeps involved so I'm kinda nervous excited to see how it goes being the only company we have. Will it be uber romantic and a delightful weekend we will always cherish? Or will we get bored or frustrated with each other? I reallly hope it goes well. We are also suppose to try kayaking on this trip which is something I have never done, so that should be interesting as well. I enjoy camping and I'm definately looking forawrd to a weekend off and away from work and alone with my baby.

It will be an adventure.

A sexy adventure I hope!