I'm not going to post anymore. I'm really not into the whole porn thing. I thought it would be something I could share w/my BF.
He hasn't been interested in sex with me for quite a while. we had a brief, fleating renaissance there, but it didn't last.
He never explained he likes something other than vanilla sex. I snooped. I wanted to be included. I wanted him to feel fulfilled and ok with his desires, ok w/me, blah blah blah.
I didn't realize this favorite sexual position was behind my back.
didn't matter what I tried. he always turned back to the online stuff. this makes me tremendously jealous. my needs are not met and he's going somewhere else for his....
and when I finally purchased and got comfortable using a vibrator I get flack from him. I don't understand that. why didn't that free you up to do what really gets you off??????????
having a relationship w/a person is really complicated and difficult. you have to pay attn to each other. you have to want the one you are with. otherwise, what's the point??
yes, online sex/ fetishism is easier. online dommes never have a period, their faces never break out, they never have a bad day, they never have money troubles- mainly because you're paying for their time!
there are NO other issues at play because there's no relationship.
you prefer this to me. it's not a new thing, it has been in your life longer than I have. shortly after you invited me to the SG thing, you stopped participating. you took dwn your profile. you didn't want to share with me.
yes, I know you fucking hate me. I'm a bitch. I'm not saying I didn't fly off the handle about all of this stuff but my god what a way to treat the one you "love". I offered to move out. you wanted me to stay. I was ready to end the relationship- you were not. now all of the fallout is my fault. I don't buy it.
you kicked me when I was down. I felt awful about myself and this compounds it.
He hasn't been interested in sex with me for quite a while. we had a brief, fleating renaissance there, but it didn't last.
He never explained he likes something other than vanilla sex. I snooped. I wanted to be included. I wanted him to feel fulfilled and ok with his desires, ok w/me, blah blah blah.
I didn't realize this favorite sexual position was behind my back.
didn't matter what I tried. he always turned back to the online stuff. this makes me tremendously jealous. my needs are not met and he's going somewhere else for his....
and when I finally purchased and got comfortable using a vibrator I get flack from him. I don't understand that. why didn't that free you up to do what really gets you off??????????
having a relationship w/a person is really complicated and difficult. you have to pay attn to each other. you have to want the one you are with. otherwise, what's the point??
yes, online sex/ fetishism is easier. online dommes never have a period, their faces never break out, they never have a bad day, they never have money troubles- mainly because you're paying for their time!
there are NO other issues at play because there's no relationship.
you prefer this to me. it's not a new thing, it has been in your life longer than I have. shortly after you invited me to the SG thing, you stopped participating. you took dwn your profile. you didn't want to share with me.
yes, I know you fucking hate me. I'm a bitch. I'm not saying I didn't fly off the handle about all of this stuff but my god what a way to treat the one you "love". I offered to move out. you wanted me to stay. I was ready to end the relationship- you were not. now all of the fallout is my fault. I don't buy it.
you kicked me when I was down. I felt awful about myself and this compounds it.
