Well, still missing sg land and all my other online homies like crazy, still trying to get the internet, living with my sister has been okay except, holy crap, I've forgotten how much I hate 16 year olds I didn't even like them when I was one 
Also, having a bridal shower in a few weeks, tea party, I'm too excited
Miss everyone
Xxx
Also, having a bridal shower in a few weeks, tea party, I'm too excited
Miss everyone
Xxx
It's been three weeks since I posted a new blog! Crazy!
Had a pretty big few weeeks, easter and all that jazz, and my little sister is moving into my garage. She's 16 and just started dating my partners best friend so it's going to be... interesting.
My internet has been cut off so I've only been on sporadically, when I can connect to wifi somewhere to drag myself to an internet cafe. I miss my sg friends
For easter I bought like 45 chocolate items (I know because I did a massive hunt in my house and had to count them) and didn't eat Too many Then we went to a music festival, and at the end of the day I was tired and grumpy but it was still awesome.
Meanwhile, I've been thinking of putting off going to uni for a year or so, so I can get a job and help out. Maybe this is a bad idea? I'm not sure. We have lots of bills and pretty much my only source of stress is money. But I may be giving up on a career. Every time i put it off it gets harder to do it. What to do?
I've been making more of an effort with my friends and my family (thus the little sister moving in and whatnot) and eating better and feeling better about myself, so all in all I am happy. I'm just sick of going from dead-end job to dead-end job. I'm only 20! My future should be full of promise!
Oh well. Much love to everyone, happy easter or just happy long weekend if you don't enjoy the souless holiday.
Had a pretty big few weeeks, easter and all that jazz, and my little sister is moving into my garage. She's 16 and just started dating my partners best friend so it's going to be... interesting.
My internet has been cut off so I've only been on sporadically, when I can connect to wifi somewhere to drag myself to an internet cafe. I miss my sg friends
For easter I bought like 45 chocolate items (I know because I did a massive hunt in my house and had to count them) and didn't eat Too many
Then we went to a music festival, and at the end of the day I was tired and grumpy but it was still awesome.Meanwhile, I've been thinking of putting off going to uni for a year or so, so I can get a job and help out. Maybe this is a bad idea? I'm not sure. We have lots of bills and pretty much my only source of stress is money. But I may be giving up on a career. Every time i put it off it gets harder to do it. What to do?
I've been making more of an effort with my friends and my family (thus the little sister moving in and whatnot) and eating better and feeling better about myself, so all in all I am happy. I'm just sick of going from dead-end job to dead-end job. I'm only 20! My future should be full of promise!
Oh well. Much love to everyone, happy easter or just happy long weekend if you don't enjoy the souless holiday.
First of all, I have a few friends who have had a bit of a crappy week, so this is me sending psychic waves of love out. If you've also had a crap day/week/month/etc feel free to take a little
I feel like I'm finally getting my life into gear. I'm beginning to know who I am a little better, and lately I like myself more often than I hate myself. Which is a big deal for me. I'm getting better at saying no, although not to everyone, and I'm getting to a point with friends where I don't feel like I have to know everyone and have everyone like me. If someone doesn't have time for me, I don't have any time for them, and for the most part, I don't mind at all.
I think, no, I'm sure I have ADD, and it makes so many things that I find hard that others don't make a lot of sense. But I haven't been formally diagnosed, because I don't like doctors, I don't trust them and they frighten me a little, plus its not like I'll take meds for it, I'm not hyper so I'm happy to deal with it naturally. Plus, I'm a little scared if I go the doctor will just say it's all in my head. It makes too much sense to not be true.
What would you do?
Anyway, it's been a pleasant week, so fingers crossed it stays that way.
I feel like I'm finally getting my life into gear. I'm beginning to know who I am a little better, and lately I like myself more often than I hate myself. Which is a big deal for me. I'm getting better at saying no, although not to everyone, and I'm getting to a point with friends where I don't feel like I have to know everyone and have everyone like me. If someone doesn't have time for me, I don't have any time for them, and for the most part, I don't mind at all.
I think, no, I'm sure I have ADD, and it makes so many things that I find hard that others don't make a lot of sense. But I haven't been formally diagnosed, because I don't like doctors, I don't trust them and they frighten me a little, plus its not like I'll take meds for it, I'm not hyper so I'm happy to deal with it naturally. Plus, I'm a little scared if I go the doctor will just say it's all in my head. It makes too much sense to not be true.
What would you do?
Anyway, it's been a pleasant week, so fingers crossed it stays that way.
Well, last week I was feeling lonely and rejected, and this week I feel like everythings turning around!
1. Went to an old friends birthday party (who I've known for like 13 years) who I have not seen in quite some time, and it was like no time had passed! He's a magician and very quirky, pretty flaky though, so it can be hard to pin him down, but we both promised to make a bit more of an effort
2. Another old friend, who had a baby a year ago and who has virtually gone into hiding since then, contacted me and invited me over! I was really worried we were going to be awkward but I had a really good time!
3. Told my ex sister-in-law about my secret plans to elope and she's throwing me a bridal shower that my mum can come to so my mum stops giving me a hard time about not inviting her to my hens. (she's a recovering alcoholic and it was a wine tour. Seemed like a no-brainer to me!)
Plus I've always been a little disappointed that none of my friends could be bothered planning anything and I ended up planning my own hens.
4. I also got to do something pretty nice for my ex sister-in-law, but was great because she's been pretty good to me (see #3) and I think she quite appreciated it (A family member actually appreciating effort I've gone to for them? Unheard of!)
5. We're finally starting to get our finances in order! Plus The Boy got work uniforms, so I think we can safely say he's not on the verge of being fired. Job security, yay!
6. Drinking battleship!!
7. Mass Effect 3 is out in three days and we have the special edition all ordered! The only time being unemployed is going to come in handy. I have no internet through the day (the boys phone is our wireless modem) so while he's at work I'll play ME3 and when he's home he can play and I'll SG!
And that's 7 awesome things about my last 7 days!
This blog is a T-Rex that spews rainbows!
1. Went to an old friends birthday party (who I've known for like 13 years) who I have not seen in quite some time, and it was like no time had passed! He's a magician and very quirky, pretty flaky though, so it can be hard to pin him down, but we both promised to make a bit more of an effort
2. Another old friend, who had a baby a year ago and who has virtually gone into hiding since then, contacted me and invited me over! I was really worried we were going to be awkward but I had a really good time!
3. Told my ex sister-in-law about my secret plans to elope and she's throwing me a bridal shower that my mum can come to so my mum stops giving me a hard time about not inviting her to my hens. (she's a recovering alcoholic and it was a wine tour. Seemed like a no-brainer to me!)
Plus I've always been a little disappointed that none of my friends could be bothered planning anything and I ended up planning my own hens.
4. I also got to do something pretty nice for my ex sister-in-law, but was great because she's been pretty good to me (see #3) and I think she quite appreciated it (A family member actually appreciating effort I've gone to for them? Unheard of!)
5. We're finally starting to get our finances in order! Plus The Boy got work uniforms, so I think we can safely say he's not on the verge of being fired. Job security, yay!
6. Drinking battleship!!
7. Mass Effect 3 is out in three days and we have the special edition all ordered! The only time being unemployed is going to come in handy. I have no internet through the day (the boys phone is our wireless modem) so while he's at work I'll play ME3 and when he's home he can play and I'll SG!
And that's 7 awesome things about my last 7 days!
This blog is a T-Rex that spews rainbows!
This is pretty much the best poem ever.
Scientific Romance
If starship travel from our
Earth to some far
star and back again
at velocities approaching the speed
of light made you younger than me
due to the relativistic effects
of time dilation,
I’d show up on your doorstep hoping
you’d developed a thing for older men,
and I’d ask you to show me everything you
learned to pass the time
out there in the endless void
of night.
If we were the sole survivors
of a zombie apocalypse
and you were bitten and transformed
into a walking corpse
I wouldn’t even pick up my
assault shotgun,
I’d just let you take a bite
out of me, because I’d rather be
undead forever
with you
than alive alone
without you.
If I had a time machine, I’d go back
to the days of your youth
to see how you became the someone
I love so much today, and then
I’d return to the moment we first met
just so I could see my own face
when I saw your face
for the first time,
and okay,
I’d probably travel to the time
when we were a young couple
and try to get a three-way
going. I never understood
why more time travelers don’t do
that sort of thing.
If the alien invaders come
and hover in stern judgment
over our cities, trying to decide
whether to invite us to the Galactic
Federation of Confederated
Galaxies or if instead
a little genocide is called for,
I think our love could be a powerful
argument for the continued preservation
of humanity in general, or at least,
of you and me
in particular.
If we were captives together
in an alien zoo, I’d try to make
the best of it, cultivate a streak
of xeno-exhibitionism,
waggle my eyebrows, and make jokes
about breeding in captivity.
If I became lost in
the multiverse, exploring
infinite parallel dimensions, my
only criterion for settling
down somewhere would be
whether or not I could find you:
and once I did, I’d stay there even
if it was a world ruled by giant spider-
priests, or one where killer
robots won the Civil War, or even
a world where sandwiches
were never invented, because
you’d make it the best
of all possible worlds anyway,
and plus
we could get rich
off inventing sandwiches.
If the Singularity comes
and we upload our minds into a vast
computer simulation of near-infinite
complexity and perfect resolution,
and become capable of experiencing any
fantasy, exploring worlds bound only
by our enhanced imaginations,
I’d still spend at least 1021 processing
cycles a month just sitting
on a virtual couch with you,
watching virtual TV,
eating virtual fajitas,
holding virtual hands,
and wishing
for the real thing.
Scientific Romance
If starship travel from our
Earth to some far
star and back again
at velocities approaching the speed
of light made you younger than me
due to the relativistic effects
of time dilation,
I’d show up on your doorstep hoping
you’d developed a thing for older men,
and I’d ask you to show me everything you
learned to pass the time
out there in the endless void
of night.
If we were the sole survivors
of a zombie apocalypse
and you were bitten and transformed
into a walking corpse
I wouldn’t even pick up my
assault shotgun,
I’d just let you take a bite
out of me, because I’d rather be
undead forever
with you
than alive alone
without you.
If I had a time machine, I’d go back
to the days of your youth
to see how you became the someone
I love so much today, and then
I’d return to the moment we first met
just so I could see my own face
when I saw your face
for the first time,
and okay,
I’d probably travel to the time
when we were a young couple
and try to get a three-way
going. I never understood
why more time travelers don’t do
that sort of thing.
If the alien invaders come
and hover in stern judgment
over our cities, trying to decide
whether to invite us to the Galactic
Federation of Confederated
Galaxies or if instead
a little genocide is called for,
I think our love could be a powerful
argument for the continued preservation
of humanity in general, or at least,
of you and me
in particular.
If we were captives together
in an alien zoo, I’d try to make
the best of it, cultivate a streak
of xeno-exhibitionism,
waggle my eyebrows, and make jokes
about breeding in captivity.
If I became lost in
the multiverse, exploring
infinite parallel dimensions, my
only criterion for settling
down somewhere would be
whether or not I could find you:
and once I did, I’d stay there even
if it was a world ruled by giant spider-
priests, or one where killer
robots won the Civil War, or even
a world where sandwiches
were never invented, because
you’d make it the best
of all possible worlds anyway,
and plus
we could get rich
off inventing sandwiches.
If the Singularity comes
and we upload our minds into a vast
computer simulation of near-infinite
complexity and perfect resolution,
and become capable of experiencing any
fantasy, exploring worlds bound only
by our enhanced imaginations,
I’d still spend at least 1021 processing
cycles a month just sitting
on a virtual couch with you,
watching virtual TV,
eating virtual fajitas,
holding virtual hands,
and wishing
for the real thing.
You know, I find it really hard to make friends. Really really hard. It's hard for me to talk to most people, and it's hard for a lot of people to talk to me. So getting past that stage is hard.
You know what's harder? Having to run around after people so I can spend time with them. I've now rescheduled a dinner I wanted to have with a couple of new friends FOUR times. Four!
And yet, when someone else calls they're right over. They go out drinking every week but they can't make it to my fucking house so I can make them dinner and teach them a game that they want to learn!
How far in advance am I supposed to fucking double check with these people! Too far and they forget, too soon and they've already got something else on! Or "things are really chaotic at the moment" "I'm going away next week so maybe we can reschedule?" your going away next week so you can't come over tonight?
It's really hard for me to make friends, and I think it just got too hard.
You know what's harder? Having to run around after people so I can spend time with them. I've now rescheduled a dinner I wanted to have with a couple of new friends FOUR times. Four!
And yet, when someone else calls they're right over. They go out drinking every week but they can't make it to my fucking house so I can make them dinner and teach them a game that they want to learn!
How far in advance am I supposed to fucking double check with these people! Too far and they forget, too soon and they've already got something else on! Or "things are really chaotic at the moment" "I'm going away next week so maybe we can reschedule?" your going away next week so you can't come over tonight?
It's really hard for me to make friends, and I think it just got too hard.
CHORONZON : I am a dire world, prey-stalking, lethal prowler.
MORPHEUS : I am a hunter, horse-mounted, wolf-stabbing.
CHORONZON : I am a horsefly, horse-stinging, hunter-throwing.
MORPHEUS : I am a spider, fly-consuming, eight legged.
CHORONZON : I am a snake, spider-devouring, posion-toothed.
MORPHEUS : I am an ox, snake-crushing, heavy footed.
CHORONZON :I am an anthrax, butcher, bacterium, warm-life destroying.
MORPHEUS : I am a world, space-floating, life nurturing.
CHORONZON : I am a nova, all-exploding... planet-cremating.
MORPHEUS : I am the Universe -- all things encompassing, all life embracing.
CHORONZON : I am Anti-Life, the Beast of Judgement. I am the dark at the end of everything. The end of universes, gods, worlds... of everything. Sss. And what will you be then, Dreamlord?
MORPHEUS : I am hope.
MORPHEUS : I am a hunter, horse-mounted, wolf-stabbing.
CHORONZON : I am a horsefly, horse-stinging, hunter-throwing.
MORPHEUS : I am a spider, fly-consuming, eight legged.
CHORONZON : I am a snake, spider-devouring, posion-toothed.
MORPHEUS : I am an ox, snake-crushing, heavy footed.
CHORONZON :I am an anthrax, butcher, bacterium, warm-life destroying.
MORPHEUS : I am a world, space-floating, life nurturing.
CHORONZON : I am a nova, all-exploding... planet-cremating.
MORPHEUS : I am the Universe -- all things encompassing, all life embracing.
CHORONZON : I am Anti-Life, the Beast of Judgement. I am the dark at the end of everything. The end of universes, gods, worlds... of everything. Sss. And what will you be then, Dreamlord?
MORPHEUS : I am hope.
Okay, so I think I've figured out how to put images into a blog post! Yay! (I'm on my phone so that's not as retarded as it sounds.)
Anyway, here's some photos!
Me and the lovely MonteMay
This is me on Halloween with my reptilian friend
HEADCRAB
This is a waterfall I bushwalked to the other day
And these are just some awesome pictures, including some really fantastic protest signs from marriage equality protests.
And that's the end of my photo dump hope everyone is having an awesome day. Xxx
Anyway, here's some photos!
Me and the lovely MonteMay
This is me on Halloween with my reptilian friend
HEADCRAB
This is a waterfall I bushwalked to the other day
And these are just some awesome pictures, including some really fantastic protest signs from marriage equality protests.
And that's the end of my photo dump
hope everyone is having an awesome day. Xxx"Man, I was thinking about unrequited love. I figure it's best to just walk that shit off. Find someone else to be excited about. It's like if you love ice cream but your ice cream man friend won't give you any. Maybe he's got a good reason. It cuts into profits. Who knows? But he likes you as a friend and wants to hang out anyway. It just drives you crazy to hang out with that dude, even if he's being reasonable from his point of view. So don't hang out with him. What, you ONLY like ice cream? It's ice cream or nothing? Don't be an asshole. Learn to love donuts."
My week-
Pro-
Lovely valentines
Con-
Car got impounded and got a $200 speeding fine
Pro-
Started a healthy eating and excersise plan, and it's going very well
Con-
Big (BIG) phone bill
Pro-
The Boy has settled into his job, gets home at a reasonable time and is happy
I can't tell if it's been a good one or a bad one, I'm losing friends, but I'm finally DOING something. Let's just write it off and start fresh.
Pro-
Lovely valentines
Con-
Car got impounded and got a $200 speeding fine
Pro-
Started a healthy eating and excersise plan, and it's going very well
Con-
Big (BIG) phone bill
Pro-
The Boy has settled into his job, gets home at a reasonable time and is happy
I can't tell if it's been a good one or a bad one, I'm losing friends, but I'm finally DOING something. Let's just write it off and start fresh.
