I'm constantly going MIA...and I don't like it. Living with my sister, I have seriously been bottling myself up. I've been closing myself off from everyone. Because I feel like I have to constantly stay to myself, and I don't like it. But at the same time, it's just me learning that I enjoy my privacy. I am enjoying being by myself. Still miss having a girlfriend though. Been since Dec '09 since that happened still. I had something prospective a few weeks ago...turns out I was her rebound guy and got dropped quickly.

Apparently my sister might lose her job, along with the rest of the employees at her store. She works at a clothing store called Deb in the mall. Her store is 25,000 dollars short in inventory. She has been looking for a new job for a while now because she hates hers. But instead of putting forth effort to look for a job in a restaurant, her old job at Food City, or another clothing store, she applied at a porn store named Intimate Treasures. Just hard to see my little sister who I bust my ass trying to help working there and saying "Oh, dildos are aisle three. Try the new rubber fists we got in." Makes me kind of sad.

Got invited to a beatbox bible study this week. He said they teach you how to beatbox, then do a bible study. I politely told him I'm not the type who would fit in. He said "oh it's okay man. We don't discriminate on your branch of Christianity." I said "Oh, that's good. I'm an atheist" Which I got "oh...uhh....well....um....well I can teach you how to beatbox and then you can go I guess." Haha I laughed about it and just continued my studying.

I don't know how to properly blog obviously. I never know what to say. I just sort of pour what's in my mind out on here. Which I guess is the point. I miss having a social life. I want to get out of this house. I wish I could afford a place of my own. I miss having a girlfriend. I wish all my classes were about Anthro. It's what I enjoy most.