Member: Genrerouge

Genrerouge is in USA.

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Member: Genrerouge

MEMBER SINCE: July 2012

occupation: Counselor/Student, have already attained my master's degree, and am going for my PsyD :)

makes me happy: My own optimism drives my high :D

heroes: Richard Wright, Ralph Ellison, Henry Miller, Hypatia

makes me sad: Death

i lost my virginity: It was anticlimatic, and the guy was a jerk :P

crush: My hubbie :)

body mods: Industrial, tragus, tats on shoulder, each side of neck, and back. Can't have any facial piercings in my line of work :(

most humbling moment: realizing that a soldier has as much say as his or her commanding officer

sign: LEO

fantasy: My husband being naughty :D

into: Video games, reading, and working out

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AUGUST 2, 2012 @ 09:33 PM | NO COMMENTS


I never really think about high school... like, ever biggrin However, I am pretty sure there is an awkward version of me buried in the back of my mind that refuses to let it go; albeit, I am the same exact person - in high school: played video games, watched cartoons every day with a big ass bowl of fruit loops, and had my nose buried in syfy books, as an adult: plays video games, never ever ever skips breakfast, and has my nose buried in philosophy books.

Anyway...

Dreamt last night of a crush I used to have, his brother in turn had a crush on me. I was hanging out with his brother one day and was professing my adoration for my crush, and he was like, "screw that asshole, he barely knows you're alive" (brothers, lol). Anyway, my dream was about the crush, how he looked in high school… not now; I was in high school too (only looked like me now - no weirdness there lol).

I woke up with this WTF feeling, slightly disorientated like I had traveled back in time, and was like teen me for the night; woke up with the frantic reality of adult me who was going to be late for staffing with her boss. As I was getting ready for work I was processing the dream, like what are all these dreams trying to tell me. The thing is I still am that person, the things that made me a nerd back then still exist in every facet of my life, I am a bookworm (taking some time off after 6 long years of school lol) who spends 99% of my nights on videogames. Today I wore a patchwork skirt with the -ride em cowboy- girl design in the middle with a mushroom designed scarf. All my friends remember the teddy bear shirt, I would still rock that today if I had it!

I think the dreams are trying to tell me that I was fucking awesome back then, and that really, it was their loss kiss
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