detox just to retox.

So life keeps rolling on. I'm starting a new job next month. Pays more is better had to go trough FBI background check. <-which is quite weird since I'm not doing anything secret I think and I live in FINLAND???
We'll lets see what the world has in store for me in the new job.

I got a letter from University of Helsinki asking if I would be willing to move along with my studies now that is has been 10 years since I started. It stated that I have to make a plan how I will finish my studies or otherwise they will not let me study until I will .....harsh So I did and I guess I'm on my way to finishing my master (not that much to do but still...)

I have been dating a girl for a bit that has a very strong will like me It really has been a storm at sea. It seems to be about braking up and making up...

MOLDOVA !!! on easter!!!
We're going with my best friend We will fly to Odessa and take the train. I wish I would have time to visit Kiev again. Just such an amazing country.

SO I have been away for a bit...
here is something that keeps reminding me why I love helsinki so much


Went to see some music that i love
first one of these guys live just below me realized it when going to see the band

and these girls of course



and need to see girls next they are from my high scholl well a decade later



love you all

Fall the time for perfect winds.
Me and my much much beloved camper and another behind it (the guy had lived in it for six months in south of spain and morocco) I wish I would have the courage to just leave.



The fall is always the time for a change for me. I never make promises for new years but I always try to turn my life around when the fall starts.

So my life:
-So I really need to finish university. I really need help with math. I graduated from high school like 12 years ago I really cannot remember much.

-I like my job less and less. I cant decide really why it's a really good job in a really good career paying great money with a lot of freedom. I just can't be bothered with spending my days creating powerpoint and word documents. Ok so it's cool to consult global teams in various industries and roadmap corporate it strategies, but I just really can't be bothered. I really dream of down shifting.
but here is the catch 22 I really don't wan't to give up my career or get paid less. Maybe I'll look for a new job or maybe I won't. It's really not the job as much as it's me.

-I have been single for year and a half. I don't think this will change. Here is the reason: Before I believed that it's nice to have your own things in the relationships now I believe that I would wan't to share the things I'm most passionate about. I really don't think it will be easy to find a girl that shares my interests. I know they are out there but finding the is a bitch and after finding them I still need to make the like me. Which is a whole lot of hard work for a guy like me.

-I need to finish so many projects I have going on; renovating the house, finishing the electronics on my vespa and installing heaters on my van.

etc etc

This is pretty much how I see Helsinki.

not a happy post.

I'm listening two songs on repeat. It seems that the world misses so much since too few people understand finnish..
Other song has a chorus that would be translated "hey, hey mom I have not taken my pills..."
The other song has a great line that could be translated something like "dry your tears and blow your nose, you did die tonight either..."

I was playing around with mac photo booth


Not really a great moth.
My father is dying of cancer any day now or maybe next week or maybe week after that. I can't fucking function. I can't concentrate. I have a really cool job and people like me. My boss said to me at summer party " When you started I could not understand you. You are just a lazy surfer who never works in the morning. After that I really started liking your style. You are a good with delegation".

I don't even drink anymore or hardly ever and less than before. I don't like drugs anymore.
what a shitty month and what a shitty summer this will be.

If I fuck a girl she will fall for me. I guess I hit on emotionally crippled girls who are looking for something serious. Like Robbie Williams sings all you get from me is coffee tea and sympathy


thats all for tonight.

...anybody out there...?

so tonight Indica record release party

Going to see these ROCKING ladies tonight!!!! Helll yeah!

Saint Petersburg tomorrow for Victory DAY!!!!
I can't wait! four days of non stop party in the love capital of the world!!!

Goddamit my favorite CITY!!!
with my friends!!!!