All the time guys bitch about their booty calls going crazy and getting attached and wanting relationship. They say all they want is no strings attached sex. Ok so why the hell do I always get the guys following me around like a puppy after we fuck? I mean come on, never once was there anything said about a relationship and now this dude is blowing my phone up with "i miss you" and "come over lets cuddle." AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! And the cherry on the sundae is the boy I actually want to maybe try something with is no where to be found. GEEZ I cant win. Haha im done now!
Today was a better day. My days are always wonderful when I get to spend time with my bff. And then the cherry on the sundae I got to cuddle with my little man and actually assed out on the couch while watching a really horrible movie. If anyone ever asks you if you want to see the movie FEED say no. LOL that is time I can never get back. And here I sit at 4:16 in the morning when I have to be up at 11:30 for work. I think i am going to another means of getting sleepy this week. if i remember correctly smoking weed made me tired..id rather do that then take sleeping pills. Ill let you know how that experiment goes. (if anyone in sg land cares LOL)
Since I never sleep anymore and need to find new things to do on the internet I figure I'll give good ole SG a shot again. And since most of the people that were signed up when i signed up that are in my daily life are no longer on this site I can pretty much post anything and not get the backlash for it. Sweet sign me up. My life has been so very shitty lately. I constantly want to hit the assholes that are constantly saying FML when they dont get their way because if they took the time to think about what other shit people might be going through they would shut the fuck up. I dont really feel like putting everything out there and even so I highly doubt anyone will read this anyway. But bottom line is ..I am not ok.
I have rug burn on my lower butt/upper leg from sliding down the stairs with the baby. Its not cool.
I didnt even know i still had a memebership. Yay for newly single and more free time to roam the internet. Someone entertain me on here and say hi! I dont know anyone on here anymore.
Ok yeah wow its been a mintue since I have been on this site. I didnt even know i still was active. Thanks Don for sending me a message that gave me the heads up. Hello to old sg friends. Im not going to post a big blog about what has been going on..lets just say ALOT has been going on. Haha well message me guys and lets catch up!
Im scared. My dad had his surgery today to remove his lympnodes infected with cancer. While in there they found that the cancer is all around his jugular and stuff. He is putting on a brave face but im scared. Cancer is a scary word. He has to do chemo and radiation now because its worse than they thought. Dad will look funny bald. Does chemo make you lose your body hair too? Anyone who has meet my dad knows he is a hairy hairy man. He'd look funny with no hair. Im trying to be silly but im terrified. 
I see no point in blogging nemore since no on reads ..or reads but doesnt comment. I know why though. Its karma. I sit back internet stalk you all, read your blogs see whats going on in your life but dont comment.
I dont want your simpathy. I dont want your pitty. I just want a place to vent. Everything or everyone I should say is crashing around me. Nothing is right.
1. A friend found out she is pregnant. Her situation is not ideal. She is not married or even in a relationship for that matter. She has a fuck buddy (who we all know was meant for her). She wants to be excited. She has never dreamt of white picket fence 2.5 kids bullshit. She has always seen herself as a single mom. The BIG problem here is that her "buddy" is married. She can not keep the child for the fear that it looks like him (which his son most definatly does) she will have much explaining to do. She will not be ok mentally if she decideds to abort this child for him. She will slowly lose her mind and resent him. I really want to smack him in hopes that he will relize they were meant for each other, fuck his wife (as harsh as that sounds if he really loved her he wouldnt be cheating on her in the first place.) and be a family together. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
2. A dear friend of mine flipped out. Went nuts. Attacked herself with a knife and is in a mental hospital. She is so doped up I cant get complete sentances out of her. When I called her mom to ask about the situation her mom said "Oh i think its over some boy blah blah OMG did you see me on the news they interviewed me cuz I know the girl that is on american idol, my boobs looked huge." WHAT THE FUCK LADY?!?! Your daughter just attacked herself and is a medicated zombie and your talking about your tits. After talking to a friend I found out she has not been mentally ok for a while. She isnt happy with her job, weight, boy situation or money situation. She had a break down and cut herself, like actually tried to cut fat from her body. I want to go visit her but im scared to. Does that make me a bad friend?
3. My dad has cancer. Im scared. He assures me that it isnt life threatening and that once the infected lympnodes are removed he will be fine. My dad and I dont get along but he is my dad and i love him.
4. My grandma is sick. They arent sure what is wrong. She blacked out at walmart and was rushed to the emergency room. They think it was due to a blockage in her heart. My mom is leaving tomorrow to fly to kentucky to be with her when they run tests. The bad part is that the tests can be life threatening to older people. You know when your younger and your parents and grandparents are immortal and nothing can touch them but once you get older you relize no one is untouchable. I never grew out of that. My grandparents are amazing people. I fall to pieces every time I hear something about them being sick or hurt. They are getting older and I cant even begin to imagine life without them.
My heart hurts. Im tired of crying. Im tired of putting on a smile while the fucktards at work call out and lie about why they are calling out. Fuck you im at work selling god damn clothing to fucking assholes while my world is falling apart.
Like I said before...stop the world I want to get off.
1. A friend found out she is pregnant. Her situation is not ideal. She is not married or even in a relationship for that matter. She has a fuck buddy (who we all know was meant for her). She wants to be excited. She has never dreamt of white picket fence 2.5 kids bullshit. She has always seen herself as a single mom. The BIG problem here is that her "buddy" is married. She can not keep the child for the fear that it looks like him (which his son most definatly does) she will have much explaining to do. She will not be ok mentally if she decideds to abort this child for him. She will slowly lose her mind and resent him. I really want to smack him in hopes that he will relize they were meant for each other, fuck his wife (as harsh as that sounds if he really loved her he wouldnt be cheating on her in the first place.) and be a family together. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
2. A dear friend of mine flipped out. Went nuts. Attacked herself with a knife and is in a mental hospital. She is so doped up I cant get complete sentances out of her. When I called her mom to ask about the situation her mom said "Oh i think its over some boy blah blah OMG did you see me on the news they interviewed me cuz I know the girl that is on american idol, my boobs looked huge." WHAT THE FUCK LADY?!?! Your daughter just attacked herself and is a medicated zombie and your talking about your tits. After talking to a friend I found out she has not been mentally ok for a while. She isnt happy with her job, weight, boy situation or money situation. She had a break down and cut herself, like actually tried to cut fat from her body. I want to go visit her but im scared to. Does that make me a bad friend?
3. My dad has cancer. Im scared. He assures me that it isnt life threatening and that once the infected lympnodes are removed he will be fine. My dad and I dont get along but he is my dad and i love him.
4. My grandma is sick. They arent sure what is wrong. She blacked out at walmart and was rushed to the emergency room. They think it was due to a blockage in her heart. My mom is leaving tomorrow to fly to kentucky to be with her when they run tests. The bad part is that the tests can be life threatening to older people. You know when your younger and your parents and grandparents are immortal and nothing can touch them but once you get older you relize no one is untouchable. I never grew out of that. My grandparents are amazing people. I fall to pieces every time I hear something about them being sick or hurt. They are getting older and I cant even begin to imagine life without them.
My heart hurts. Im tired of crying. Im tired of putting on a smile while the fucktards at work call out and lie about why they are calling out. Fuck you im at work selling god damn clothing to fucking assholes while my world is falling apart.
Like I said before...stop the world I want to get off.
