I'm blue tonight. I've got an old flame on the mind--the one that got away, so to speak.
We lived together for awhile right after I left college, and she was still working on her degree. It was an unhealthy relationship, at best, but I always felt like under a different set of circumstances, she could have been the one.
I looked her up tonight, and it turns out she's living down south with her fiance (the guy she more or less left me for), and that she's converted to Catholicism. So. Yeah.
There's that.
I really only ever kept this one photo of her. She had this long, long, chestnut-brown hair that she kept wound up in a tight bun all day long. But then she'd come home and unwind, and let her hair down. It fell all the way down to her butt. She used to drape it all over me when I was lying in bed, because she knew it drove me nuts. I felt like that was the side of her that only I got to see, and that's the side captured in the photo. (She cut a lot off of it before it was taken. Like a foot.)
So, lame-photoshop-oil-painted to somewhat protect the innocent, here she is:
We lived together for awhile right after I left college, and she was still working on her degree. It was an unhealthy relationship, at best, but I always felt like under a different set of circumstances, she could have been the one.
I looked her up tonight, and it turns out she's living down south with her fiance (the guy she more or less left me for), and that she's converted to Catholicism. So. Yeah.
There's that.
I really only ever kept this one photo of her. She had this long, long, chestnut-brown hair that she kept wound up in a tight bun all day long. But then she'd come home and unwind, and let her hair down. It fell all the way down to her butt. She used to drape it all over me when I was lying in bed, because she knew it drove me nuts. I felt like that was the side of her that only I got to see, and that's the side captured in the photo. (She cut a lot off of it before it was taken. Like a foot.)
So, lame-photoshop-oil-painted to somewhat protect the innocent, here she is:
/pine
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fireflame:
Yeah. She was beautiful, but no more personality-wise. I don't think after converting to Catholisism and getting marrried that she's near in any way the person she used to be. I know it hurts. I have this saying "Love never goes away, it just changes.". I still carry a flame for an old boyfriend and my first love, but I know it wouldn't work. However, I wish I could look him up sometimes and see for myself (Again, because I already came to the decision once) that it's really not possible. It's hard to be alone sometimes.
xerxes:
I hope you feel better soon 