Wow I really am getting down. I miss my parents, its not really being away from them I just miss living together as a family. My family will never all live togehter again and that makes me sad. I know we are all growing up in our own things but I wish it was back to the way it used to be. I miss my mother, but even more my father because we don't talk all that much. Its weird I don't like my friends that much anymore because they just don't measure up to my parents.

So I think I'm going to study abroad soon. I need to get away from everything and force myself to grow up and to like it. Everyone else is embracing growing up and I'm terrified and so I cling to everything familiar. So I'm going to be completely on my own.

All I have to do is decide where to study. I'm pretty good with French so naturally I want to go to a French speaking country, but I wouldn't be opposed to Israel.

Anywho here is a list a places I am considering:

The Academy of Paris
Malta
Montreal
Baden-Wurtenburg, Germany (my german is hardly sufficient)
Or Tel-Aviv University (my father hates this idea but I'm a RELS student and I'd love to be in any sort of holy land at any risk!)

Wow I really am getting down. I miss my parents, its not really being away from them I just miss living together as a family. My family will never all live togehter again and that makes me sad. I know we are all growing up in our own things but I wish it was back to the way it used to be. I miss my mother, but even more my father because we don't talk all that much. Its weird I don't like my friends that much anymore because they just don't measure up to my parents.

So I think I'm going to study abroad soon. I need to get away from everything and force myself to grow up and to like it. Everyone else is embracing growing up and I'm terrified and so I cling to everything familiar. So I'm going to be completely on my own.

All I have to do is decide where to study. I'm pretty good with French so naturally I want to go to a French speaking country, but I wouldn't be opposed to Israel.

Anywho here is a list a places I am considering:

The Academy of Paris
Malta
Montreal
Baden-Wurtenburg, Germany (my german is hardly sufficient)
Or Tel-Aviv University (my father hates this idea but I'm a RELS student and I'd love to be in any sort of holy land at any risk!)