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You are so far away. Outside of this room is too far away. When I live a day without being able to look you in the eyes and hold you in my arms, you are too far away. This is more than too far away. This is daunting, humbling and brutal. What contact we have. Those sparse moments we share. The moments when the sun shines on me. The brief spans when I can breath again. Each time you give me one more reason to love you. I discover something new that I didn't before and it is all the more reason to be ever more in love with you. our every interaction is he purest joy I have ever known. Your perfection ever more clear as you real all of your secrets. You are every thing I have alway been missing. You are everything that I have no idea how I was living with out. I only live now waiting for you. You are the queen of lands that only you can see. You are the master of the secret places only you know. I wait for you to come claim what is yours. Take your power from me. Feed off of my life. Your perfection becomes ever more clear. You can truly do no wrong. I cannot believe you are all that you are. Their is no end to it all. We never run out of anything to talk about. Their is that spark in everything you say. I can feel your power. I can feel you breath from there. When we can finally be together it will be like phosphorus burning. A spontaneous explosion and blinding light. I live in utter disbelief. How can this be true. How can you be real? How can I be me and have you love me like you love me? How can you want me the way that you want me? You know how I lust for you. You know how I sit on the edge. Teetering on the edge. My love, my lust, all of my darkest, most revenous hungers and rage. I would rip this world apart to get you in my hands. You know my power and what I would do for you. One breath from you and I will release all that I have been afraid to let go. You fuel my lust more and more. I can only cry to bleed of the power. I vibrate and float. I stay on control. I wait. Devastation will not bring us together sooner. I know how you would kill and destroy for me. I do not want to waste the power I want to devote to you. You demand all of my power, my passion, my demons, my rage, my hungers, my merciless brutality. I will not disappoint you. I live for you. I have waited for you too long. You make me selfish for you. I just want to see what comes next. I want every last bit of you that I can get. I want to see what I will become in your presence. How will your influence define my future. It was blessing enough that we could share a friendship like we do. To be accepted and loved so completely. You accept me and love me for all that I am. You would not change a thing about me. You actually love me as I love you. Somehow, you love me the more I share with you. The more of me you see, no matter what it is you accept it and love me for it. This is all beyond anything I could have even dared to wish for. I am not sure I will ever be able to fear it is not too good to be true. You think the same of me. You tell me I am all of these things that I cannot believe I could be for you. You love me for reasons others would incline me to believe I could never be loved. Reasons I thought I could never really be loved. No other human could ever love anyone as much as I love you. The pieces I have been missing seem like they could be falling into place. It will take all the life I have left in me to show you how important you are and how much I love you. god this is stupid.